Mom's Story

My life after coming to USA from Feb 1998 to dec 2020.

Florida - beginning of 2nd phase of life (Feb 1998, 1999, 2000, 2001 One chapter doesn’t mean your story is over. I came to USA alone after signing my marriage contract with Samir's dad & started my life in Miami USA for 2 years. It was a condominium with a big golf ground in the background. All Spanish people from South America were the inhabitants; they were friendly & mind their business. It was my in- laws family used to live there later moved to a house with their 3 kids & big fat husbands.  My first residency in Miami DE 1999  After given a small reception from the in- laws Miami apartment was our 1st residency in USA. It was a 3 bedroom - 2 bath apt which was furnished & stuffed with some unknown people's trash. They renovated the living & dining space with better grade furniture; kitchen area & 1 bedroom for our convenience, other 2 other bedroom remained unused occupied with empty boxes, hangers with male person's clothing, books were never open, office papers, used electronics. They left leaving behind some used pots & pans, bugs all over the kitchen, fridge with some food & chocolates which was not edible- I found it in a horrible state. Some used kitchen utensil, cutlery as well as some old spices in the kitchen cabin. I bought home goods essentials which were required in our day-to-day life. Some furniture where higher quality. We started our life visiting in-laws, they also came in groups, from my family I was the only one representing them.  I had to make eating arrangements for them each time. Every day at Fajr time we used to go to the Masjid, which was close to us where I met Indian, Pakese, & black Muslims, Arabians also attending occasional the feast they arrange. We did grocery near we lived from a big store. After we left Miami, that furniture was taken by in-laws (his aunt's family) In-laws refuses to make friendship with me after when I brought Samir to USA. I went to Florida driving license office & got my learner driving licenses, social security card &  started driving the car in the street. One year I was looking for training course in ultrasonography & collected all my papers from education, hoping to get admission to South Miami University. For one year we made trips to Miami to Palm Bay another in-law's place, also to NY several times. Miami beach which was not that far from where we lived. Went to Disney twice, 2nd time with Samir. We used to drive to airport for evening ride. One time we bought the Toyota corolla FX from Holy wood auction in North Miami with sunroof & power steering which I drove in  the streets of Miami for 2 years later it lost  it's reverse gear while driving. Chicago is a city in Illinois and the third largest city in the United States., state away from the sea It's located on the southwestern shore of Lake Michigan. The city (578 feet) above sea level. The city is, on Lake Michigan in Illinois. Famed for its bold architecture, it has a skyline by skyscrapers such as the iconic John Hancock Center, Willis Tower (formerly the Sears Tower) and the neo-Gothic Tribune Tower. The city is also renowned for its museums, including the Art Institute of Chicago.  

Road trip to Chicago Illinois, One small car with Samir's dad & one of his cousin brothers we drove 18 hours for 1 week by taking 95 N crossing Orlando, stopped at Gainesville at sister-in-law's place for few hrs., then crossing Atlanta Georgia later it was Samir's Emory university after his high school.  While driving north we crossed farmlands on both sides, not much there to see, crossing South & North Carolina taking route 75- Chattanooga - Nashville (Tennessee) route 65- Louisville route 85. Indianapolis route 65- finally Chicago state which was the capital of the state Illinoi, with 5 great lakes on the north - Lake Eri, Ontario, Michigan, Huron, superior. We were placed in brother in law's 1 bedroom apt. We saw the great lakes, Field & Shedd museum for the entire day with tons & tons of energy, we went to the Indian's marketplace took some snaps I called of my friends but no response. On the way while going back, our car was hit by another car in Chicago downtown Police came to inquire about our status & checked our identity. When we came back the car door was jammed, getting out was not easy using the other door using the for the rest places. In Jan 1999 on Shakeel's marriage I came to Dhaka for 2 months. In the middle of April, I went to Hajj in March for 2 weeks, I covered my head until I got my son Samir got busy with world's affair. For correct pronunciation my partner's extended family fixed me one Arabi lady who was more concerned on my gold bangle I bought from Mecca & my special way of cooking chicken curry. She told me how to pronounce sheen seen with Arabian way touching tongue on the back of the tooth & Kolymas which I had those lessons when I was 4. But she was more eager counting her money at the end of the month I was with her for 2 months. I saw same thing taking money but teaching nothing when I send Samir to Arabic ladies in DE also in the masjid. 2 months after the hajj I lost my dad! When in Flagler Street Afghani Imam was annoyed at me for unknown reason. He was responsible for my sudden 4 fallen teeth after when I came back to USA with Samir. Another 2  from the smile center in Dover. I heard he was arrested by Miami police & sent to jail. Because of his old age he was house arrest accused of throwing fatwa He left  USA after that. I called several times from DE , his son spoke to me but when I went to Miami in Feb 2024 no one picked up the phone when I called several times. Later I found out local masjid people mostly pakese were involved in this issue. When I took residency in DE in 2002, I bought one big carrier full of sarees, among them there were heavy expensive sarees with sequence & zaree . In 2002 I found one Paki stole it in my absence, cheap quality saree was replaced in the suitcase! Some of my stuff went back to palm bay which I bought from the mall; they were never given back. When I went to BD for Samir's birth, I bought all from my hard- earn- money later when we went to Florida taking Miki & Samir. I brought back the canister jars only. Florida police was quite about that. Next Samir's instructed by his people put me into spoken English course in South Miami university was a cheap way to make me busy. In the class, I found local Spanish people whom I saw in the garage, car mechanic store spoke little English, but more Spanish was eager to know about my country it was awkward that I was taking the class ..  It may be the my UN job was creating that environment! I hurriedly went back to my country for family emergency. When I came back, I heard Samir's dad got a new job in Maryland.  Appreciate those who don't give up on you. 

2nd residency in Elkton MD 2000 After when Samir's dad  got a new job in Elkton MD, it was decided that we were moving north;  we took the grey car with his  2nd brother, taking I 95 north, drove all the way from Miami, it took almost the entire day to reach there, in the evening found a hotel in 896  in DE , 2 rooms for the night , next day got busy with  looking for the right kind of apartment, finally found one , saw Samir's dad workplace not so far the apartment. In the evening we drove to NJ airport to drop brother in law in New Jersey airport, in the middle ate at NJ Indian patti, Dosa  tasted for the my first time saw small small stores with sarees , jewelry , food similar to NY Jackson Height  in a smaller scale. We didn't have anything else to do so we started going for the airport. Just before dark  brother in law  flew back Miami. After he left we found a motel run by patel brothers, near we chose the  apt, nextday Samir dad  went to his office, I remain  in the motel room not much to do, finally we decided the apartment  for our convenience - our 2nd residency  after looking some more in the same place.  With our luggage  we got into a two bedroom small town- apt,  2 people started our life in Maryland in the northern part of USA ; a scenic, quiet peaceful place where I could go out to the local library to borrow books, a  small Walmart for home décor, kitchenettes, toiletries, a grocer' for food, a big gas station for fuel and of course, a small well - equipped, well stuffed hospital for medical needs. I had a wonderful time spent there where the locals were reserved but smiles back at me. In beginning we were busy with furnishing the apt we found a masjid where every evening we drove 15 minutes' drive for maghrib prayer for the masjid started with few people. a paki family with 2 kids stayed with us for unknown reason took them to Philly downtown,  also coping with Samir's dad 's bad & ugly temper which my son Samir was not so great to accept that. We drove back again to Miami to bring more  of our stuff to MD. After I came back with Samir Revisiting Maryland.  Away from Miami crowd, the town where I was once started my life is now inhabited by Asian Indian Pakese, Chinese.  I went to NY & DC to visit my unites house. Oct 8 -15 1999 Rock villa 16,17 journey by train & bus 18,19, 20,21 23, back to, My single trip to Rockville & Miami FL & back to Elkton MD. On 8th Oct 2000 my partner dropped me to Rockville MD,  I spent 1 week with my auntie's house, she was hospitable in this visit, then I left my stuff at her place & walked out on 16th . It was some unknown sadness which inside me may be my I lost my dad or may be Samir dad 's cruel nature, I started my journey alone from DC by Metro bus & then Amtrak train ($80   train fair) to Miami Florida. I had $250 from my personal savings. total $175 for the journey and food & beverage $18.  Soon reached Miami FL.Found the local bus dropped me at the mall of America from there I walked to the previous apt 10 /12 minutes walk, found the fontainebleau , 87th ave - our condominium apartments, where I spent 3 days & 2 nights.  Next day  I went to downtown Miami in university of Miami, taking the local bus again In the evening the bus dropped in the same spot. I did some grocery from the Publix. That night I cooked something for myself for dinner. Next day I was packing my stuff which I left there half of the day. At 11 am I went to local Miami library for reading books & walked back to the apt crossing Fontainebleau Blvd.  I was tired. In the evening I went to Walmart walking, I spent 15 $ at Walmart from the total 180 $ for the travel cost bought  a handbag which will be right for my journey, one brown sweater one green printed fabric for sewing was my  only purchase I did during the visit.  3rd day at 8 in the morning  I took the local bus with my new bag only, the bus  dropped me to the train station where the train was  late for 2 hrs. for unknown reason.  When I was finally seated in the train It took half of the day to reach DC, there I posted a post card to my uncle & unite telling them I am sorry that couldn't come  tell you goodbye &  I will come soon to  pick up my stuff which I left in their house. I walked to bus station 1 blocks behind; there I waited for an  hour & took the grey hound bus which took me to Baltimore. At Baltimore it was 2 hours delay it was not so good when I spent the entire night there, which was uncomfortable, I mostly drank juice  & soda from the vending machine, early morning I took the  bus which was exchanged  reached Elkton Mary land & walked to my new apt.  I got pregnant in Nov 2000. I bought 2 gifts for my unite in Rockville & uncle in Virginia from Bangladesh, one bed sheet & 2 cushion cover for letting me stay there. I found my maxi & salwar kameez & ghagra worn & faded some kitchen pots & pans were stolen.  I wanted to go home feeling not so good I applied for green card in Baltimore, asked the doctor at Elkton hospital, got the plane ticket cheap, Biman was almost empty, air flight was horrible, as I was alone with a empty seat next to me few passengers were there in the plane crowding my seat & their attention was focus on the empty seat I had next to me.  All the time they were smoking & talking loudly, food was not right. I had to go several times to the bathroom for my new physical status. Finally, when I reached Dhaka , there was some delay finding my luggage but couldn't find Shakeel anywhere. It was hot & humid dusty Dhaka I rented a scooter for me & my luggage were the big carrier full of sarees & the small carrier & my handbag. I didn't inform my mother I am coming with short notice. After some inquiry at the cantonment gate, they let me in. Soon I reached our cantt  house, paid the scooter fair ( just  the way I I came back in my 3 weeks visit to Dhaka  in 2023 ). My mother & the darwan  came out to see me I was standing right at the porch as if I was returned from Sylhet as I used to do. My pregnancy continued with my mother ‘s help & I deliver a baby boy in Aug 2001. During my visit to BD  the world’s deadliest terrorist attack happened in the history i.e. was  911 in NY. After baby’s vaccination & circumcision I went to US embassy for baby's visa & passport & finally in Jan 2002 I brought Samir at 5 mo old to USA. We moved to Delaware with my son found a new life in American soil. Finding old music you used to love is like getting back in touch with an old friend. 

My motherhood

My LMP was 24th Nov 2000, after when I found from the pregnancy kit from Walmart, I went to the union Hospital to see the Dr- OB GYN who confirmed my pregnancy.  I was feeling home sick asked her If it was ok I could go back to my country! She told me get the green card. We went to Baltimore for that. When I reached Dhaka with my mother's help, I started to see one Army Dr in CMH,  She told me I might need c- section. My mother was always with me for the visits I made for the pregnancy. Rickshaw ride was the only means for us when we had 2 private cars at my disposal. I did all the test from APL, from CMH ultrasound, XRay. It was all of a sudden when they thought I needed the emergency C-section, we hurriedly went to CMH at 10 at night, next day  I was in the emergency OT. I was in post operative for 2 nights, nurses came to check my BP  monitor my heart beat , heart rate & at 10 am 2 nd day ambulance took me to my cabin, for the next 7 days I ,I saw people crowding that building time to time every day, O was half immobile during the operation; when anesthesia wears off  I went to  the next building see my baby boy in the ICU, so far things went well. He was cute baby in the incubator hungrily taking his milk from his bottle.  I saw one of girls who was in the same medical college in Sylhet where I studied.

Samir few days old in Bangladesh Lobib later Samir was born on AUG 23rd, 2003 (his new green ID) after 38th weeks of pregnancy in Dhaka Army hospital. I did my blood, urine test in APL, ultrasonogram, echocardiogram also. He was born with C section only 2.8 kg & was kept in ICU for a week & was bottle fed. The day I was discharged from the hospital my mother & the baby in the ambulance 5 miles away from our house. Samir's first car- ride- experience. My relatives & neighbors came to see me in the cabin & also in our house. Lobib paid his first social visit to Mrs. Parra's house in the next road on his 20th day. I kept him in my room & in the green tub my mother gave first the baby shower. his nappy diaper his milk juice cereal all was available from the local CSD. His first haircut was on 20th day I shaved his head. On 18th I made one album for Lobib with all the photos I took in the house. I took him to Sonargaon hotel, Biman office ( Bonani Motijheel), looking for Citi bank cash the money but couldn't find anyone to speak. Greenlace bank Aroong ( Bonani ) Airport (Uttara) by yellow cab, new introduction to Dhaka city, charges were in the meter. From Kachu kheth tried to call USA. Dhanmondi to see all my uncle & aunties were living  they moved from 100 elephant rd to Dhanmandi. Bomani graveyard .  Icddrb , Gulshan market. Kakhoo nana, Pakshi nana, nana babu, Mrs. Habibur Rahman's  dinner ,Dr Kabir in Bonanni, AB Bank for Istiak nana, new market one day I bought those red blue & orange Orna for my mother. Mrs. Habibur Rahman 's party in their terrace, Mrs. Farida who helped us buy milk in ICU.  Bacchu mama Hobu mami Chacha came to see u in our house.

I also Rima's uncle 's house behind Satter market., Maj Salina & her husband saw Samir outside. High court, Kazi office Zakir Hossain rd in Mahmudur where I had to change my partner DOB which did not match with his US ID, I had to pay the Kazi fees & went High court fees he notarized the Kabin Nama & attested the document. I went to several times for my teeth in Bonani Dentist, Taking Samir in the new carrier which I recently bought. Baby was happy & quite all the time, never cried. Banani dentist did complicated dental work. The local Imam from the masjid gave adhan to Samir's ear & I gave that young Imam 800 taka to sacrifice a goat on Samir's name.  I took Samir for ultrasound & echocardiogram & also blood & urine test from APL & CMH. He got all immunization shots,. Amma distributed misiti to her club friends also to the neighbors. Samir's passport - with the help of Afzu mama I got his BD passport tk 2500 from Agargaon. the next building for birth registration.  Then I had to go several times to American Embassy for Samir's US passport. I paid 100$ . On 20th day Samir's studio photo & went to passport office in Agargaon I sent one copy to my partner to Maryland. I took several pictures in the house also. We started talking on the phone, I made copies of Samir's birth certificate which was I obtained from CMH. attested from 1st class gazette officer from the office behind our house. I got all hospital papers from CMH & paid the bill, which was sent to me, APL bill was compromised from my break money. But I gave 900 tk to local masjid for filtra for 3 persons.  a goat was scarified on Samir's name good health which coast, the children in the masjid in the area ate.  Vaccine 3 doses from CMH. I filled out a form for Lobib 's passport, went to Biman office at Banani & Motijheel for ticket fare in British airways.

I also went to American Embassy & send the form & the picture for Lobib's passport, went to Biman office at Banani & also Motijheel to comparing fairs also between Biman & British airways 10 thousand taka difference only. I also went to American Embassy & send the form & the pic to my partner by DHL. With the new camera I took photos of the newborn & my family. Samir pics came to Prothom Alo - the local newspaper & his birth news  tk 500 for that.  Amma & I went to see Dr Talukder in Gulshan for Lobib, his chamber was crowded with patient. He confirmed the baby was a male child. I took photos with Amma & Lobib from the studio on Dec 1st I also took studio pic with my parents in Gulshan  Samir's vaccination was over in CMH. On Nov 30th Samir undergone circumcision in General Hospital, Dr Dev's son was the surgeon My mother & I spent the night there, took Lobib on 2nd day back to our house. I took special passport picture from the studio in Gulshan it was difficult to lay him for taking the photo. Samir on the glass counter table, but the  photographer managed to take the photo. that was his immigration photo from BD. Samir got his American passport from US Embassy on 28th Nov 2001. I bought several things for Lobib during my visit to Dhaka 2001. They are from Gulshan Market. Most of them for unknown reason stolen. On 18th I took the flight to Biman my stop over was Brussels Belgium then plane landed in  JFK NY airport . Samir's dad came to pick me up from MD, we stopped at Indian Patti, queens for food then to the apt in Elkton MD. People will provoke you until they bring out your ugly side then play victim when you go there.  Samir was 6 mo old.     2002 chose Delaware for our residency   It was 2 bedrooms apartment- one bath, kitchen, dining & living room with a small balcony & storage space in the ground floor. We had swimming pool facility, gym, railway station was walking distance, bus stop on the intersection & a bank next to the complex.  For groceries there were store , chinese for occasional treat & masjid was 10 minutes drive. Samir's school system was close to us & UD was  10 minutes' drive were Samir's enrollment  to Atlanta was quite surprising to me. Maryland was 12 minutes' drive. I had constant fight with Samir dad, it never ended event when grown big but the fight continued, ended after our seperation in 2024 . Samir's dad got a house 15 minutes drive from the apartment. Fight with Samir's dad  brought back  my immigration status in USA  where I started my life once in Florida 4 years back  back, now in DE as working mom.

On 19th April 2002 Day 1 in DE- At 3 pm by grey hound bus (18 $ bus fair) I was on the way to NY, 2 hrs bus ride crossing 2 toll booths. I reached NY  with my son  in the carrier at 5 pm in the evening; the carrier & my handbag baby's bag with milk which I was carrying with me all the time. Took  the subway to Queens looking for someone to look at Samir- probably a doctor. Samir was 7 mo old doing fine in his carriers. Someone told me to look for ST John's Queens' hospital, where I was in the waiting room, I bought some food with my visa card. One of Shakeel's friend came with his wife to the hospital same night in the emergency. I spent the entire night in the hospital, my son had low grade fever but didn't cry.  20th April, Day- 1 in NY in the morning looking for cash for baby's food &  transportation. I got down looking for the Citi bank where I had the money, they denied my access to the bank, I had valid debit card , I had total $ 1500 cash. I went back to hospital looking for social worker- they might help. After telling my situation the social worker called the shelter for homeless people if they can accommodate me. Soon a van came with 2 social workers. The van took me social service office where I was waited outside in the van - Volunteers of America, Queens NY. From social service the young guy & a woman black took my son to office. The police woman in the van gave me some food it was late - 5pm. I was separated from my son for a brief period of time. From the immigration, a lady was talking to me on the phone. She inquired about my social status. The telephone conversation took 1 hour. I told them my immigration started from Florida.  Then I had to go back to Bangladesh where my son was born - My story with a baby .The social worker took my son to the office brought him back to me. After several rounds on  the van  we stopped at the Police station  in Bronx  (highest rate of crimes,  area known  for mugging & stealing) where I saw people lined up for the free social service for homeless people. The lady police left. The people crowding, lined up for their turn.  I saw they are mostly black New Yorker, Spanish single mom -new arrival from the south from poor background but no south  Asian like me. I needed the baby's milk, juice & diaper & for that I went to another window where I  filled out & signed the form, they needed my Florida ID. Then I was seated in the bowl chair waiting for my name to be called.  It took the entire day in the police station.  I was getting familiar with NY state as because Samir's port of entry was NY & my one was from Miami i.e. 2 different states. Free lunch was provided- all American food which included pork. Some of them had wine.  Not so tasty but I ate any way. I was interviewed by the social worker Samir in his carrier they were considering for the eligibility for housing, they also contacted DE police, but they denied about my issue for new arrival may be ! It was Bronx police station where there were also crowds of people buzzing like a bee, waiting for emergency housing service & job in Bronx, mostly NYorker blacks later I saw many Spanish speaking his people, single mom like me, with children, old people mostly jobless & homeless & with no money waiting for their turn in the line, some of them have criminal look but later I learned these people are good at heart, religious & helpful.  All the time there was tight security surrounded by police. They also provided us food diaper milk juice & Garber, baby food. I filled out a form & signed it waiting to for my name to be called. Then they will call me for interview for housing & job, but my name was not called first day day. Rest of the group in the waiting list were  all taken by bus to overnight center 15 minute drive . Dinner was served at night - mashed potato, milk & carrot. They gave me a small room & an attached small bathroom.  21st April, day 2 Next day in the morning, took shower, dressed up, I had breakfast toast & tea in the dining hall. The bus took us to the same service center waiting in the line again. All day new people were crowding the place. As Bronx was the place for high crime area for mugging, stealing & rape, I saw prostitutes in the street which was for me  an entire  new experience made we shiver with fear. 

In the afternoon I had food same way , in the center I I was interviewed by Nova worker. I took Tylenol for fever & body ache; my boy was doing fine. He was happy in his carrier all the time. Again, my baby & I were taken to overnight center, this time I was given separate room with bathroom outside; 22nd April, day -3.  In the morning I got ready also my boy. Lined up for the bus which took us to the center, waiting there with no luck. After the dinner again took us to  another center -Auburn center in Brooklyn by Microvan - a temporary center for homeless people. There they will be looking for eligibility for housing. After giving a brief interview to the investigating officer, a police officer took picture of us, after initial checking (like airport checking) using the lift I was placed in a small room on 6th floor, with baby cot & a fridge, & the wonderful window view of  Brooklyn bridge from the top of the building. There were rooms next door people were living probably permanent residents, having TV in their room. 24th April, day- 4  8 in the morning I took the lift down to the ground floor. I had an appointment with Dr Sharma Indian  interviewed me , looking for UN job with salary !  She helped me with my paperwork, 10 o 'clock - checked the paper. 12 o' clock seen by social worker 24th April, day -5 I saw Mrs. Wright's explaining my situation, she tried to contact the police in Delaware as the incidence took place there. But DE police department told they know nothing about it. I saw a BD guy was sitting in the police station where we were first taken, probably got the news about me from the Auburn center but didn't help much. 26th April, Day- 6  I got some baby food, baby cloth(used) from the supply room for my son, a carrier & a coat for me. took my handbag & also the only blue salwar kameez I wore every day. There was a medical unit, they checked my health, baby was doing fine my pregnancy test came positive -later  it was aborted  in DE. I saw also another Indian lady who was working there. 27th April, day- 7 I had to go to the doc for the Tylenol for fever. I had no connection with anybody, during the trip 28th April, day- 8 For the first time. I went out for a walk crossing the security gate. I saw the masjid but no one inside. I had to check- in before 10 o'clock. 29th April, day- 9 I went to hospital for public assistance, it took my entire day, lining up & to be seen by social worker. The papers were ready at the end of the day. I went back to the center by walking, The streets were unfamiliar to me with the high rising building in Brooklyn NY; walking in the streets alone with a 7 mo old baby my future was uncertain. whatever fate was coming to me was new & I was fighting for it. When I reached the center, I receive a note saying EAU found me ineligible if I am interested, I could have a hearing (Not because my  pregnancy test was positive). 

Shakeel (came to Main for study) with  NY unite, grandmother, cousins, Samir on my lap.Place tier- 2, before 9 pm. I had only one hour left so I rushed back to the service center by taking the subway then walking in the street carrying my son in the stroller. I lost my way in the street; a police car helped me get to the center at Bronx. But the group who was waiting for me left because it passed 10 minutes  to 9 o' clock, so cruel. That black Bronx's lady was one of the interviewers in my civic test during my citizenship in 2020 in Philadelphia. They told me to come back tomorrow. I took subway & I lost my way back again to the center in the freezing cold at night I had a long coat which I've collected from the center, my son was covered.  My son was crying in the stroller which I borrowed from the center, they dropped me in front of the shelter it was few blocks away.  30th April day- 10 In the morning I went to Bronx with my baby waiting to be called. I receive a phone call from an investigating officer Jim Boss - he told me I am wasting my time in NY I should call my relative Rokeya  who was the resident of Queens for a long time, she was concern about me. She came to the Police station within half an hour & soon we were in her house with my baby. I was fed up with Christian food & I was happy to eat what my aunt  & my grand mother  provided. They informed Samir's dad in DE. She bought some food & gifts for Samir, I spent May 2nd, 3rd 4th 5th as her niece travelling from Bangladesh with her  with 7 mo old new baby I was brought in her place for evaluation for Bangladeshis in USA. My grandmother from father side was also a citizen of NY (later she died in 2014 in NY) residing with my Unite. We went to bed early but could not sleep. Samir had low grade fever. All day I was in her flat with my grandmother. My unite was out & her children at school. Uncle who worked at travel agency in Manhattan. I missed my appointment from Human resources for work. I spoke to my mother Belal & Shakeel, didn't want to make them worried by telling my story.  Next day I went with my unite to Elmhurst hospital, they gave my son some medicine. My partner came to pick me up & we came back to DE. When  I found both Samir's (BDi & USA) passport was missing. Later I saw my partner giving passport to post office than I know it was never lost.  I was surprised when In 2020 after my fingerprinting for citizenship in Dover DE, my civic test who interviewed was the lady from Bronx homeless shelter I left behind Samir's cart at Rokeya fufu's house when I left. One time when Shakeel was in NY for his Main study I dropped the overcoat to Shakeel's friend's house who was also in the hospital when I first arrived in NY in 2002. Nothing was with me from the shelter at the end. Samir's new life started in DE Gujarati imam came to mosque Samir's dad got busy with Imam’s welfare as always doing work for the masjid. We went to Fl for the 1st time after my arrival with Samir for a visit where I saw the Syrian dentist for my dental work $100.

 Samir is 2 yrs old DE Fighting with Samir's dad  continues . . .  he invited a Pakistani friend I helped him  with some cooking, at night when I checked my son as I always do at 2 pm Samir's dad got out from the bed with a furry punched me in my arm in Nov 2002 Just before thanksgiving, when he told me he was going to Miami with Samir alone few days ago- that's absurd! On Friday 29th I called the police with neighbor's help went to police station, there they contacted BD embassy, I could talk for going back to BD, but I denied, next option was the shelter, filed a case against Samir's dad in the family court for abusive relation & I asked for US citizenship.  MY 22 days at Martha's carriage began on Nov 2nd in the shelter. I put some clothes for me Samir, escorted by a police officer took me to a big house near Fairfax, fully furnished, Employees working in the office section especially those were victims of abuse. The shelter was dealing with all kinds of cases for battered women, homeless mom, abused victims; there were no male employee only I saw the postman delivering the mails every weekday, gardener & the guard. I also saw kitchen stuffed with  canned food in the freezer, spaghettis noodles egg, bread jam, juice, all stocked. The room which was given to me was upstairs with attached bathroom. We went to bed early as we were both tired Saturday 30th in the morning next day I took shower, dressed Samir up, took him  upstairs.  A big cake was brought in for thanksgiving. I had light breakfast- tea & biscuit Samir had juice I met the staff & other victims. I took Samir to children's room where he could play with other kids in the basement, there were huge pile of toys to play, Dec 1 in the morning I asked for the stroller. I got out walked to the local bus stop, the bus came on time which took me to Wilmington family court. After security checking at entrance, waited until I met counselor Cindy at 11 am who helped me to get a court hearing & temporary protection from the abuse & gave me civil notice on 6:30 am for a court hearing for me as well as Samir's dad. Dec 6  I  came back to the Martha's carriage by bus #24 my working day began.  Dec 2, I did not go out but got busy with talking to the residents in the shelter Dec 3 I went to social service for food stamp & public assistance & childcare. I got the social service ID.   Dec 4 I was told I have to do parenting class & anger management for 6 months. Dec 5 Outside was extremely cold, snow started to fall temperature was below zero, freezing cold, couldn't go out for snow emergency.  Family court again My partner didn’t show up, court appearance day was delayed for next 13th of Dec. 8th was Eid Ul fitr. I went out with Samir in he stroller at the end of street was the police station in that locality. I heard Samir's dad spent the day in BDi picnic. Dec 9th Snow was all over, I saw kids with grown up shoveling the snow. Residents in the carriage were given task to clean up the office. Some new residents moved in some moved out but they all came from abusive relationship. I got a letter & a check from the social service office. Dec 10th, I got the letters from social service check & family court appointment at 7 am next day. Dec 11th   It was raining & snow together I borrowed a coat & put warm cloths to Samir & took him to court to subpoena my neighbor Meena- the girl upstairs on my court hearing day. I saw Samir's dad standing outside in the check-in counter. I had no attorney.  South gate apts Samir while growing up his features were ugly, darkened complexion, later he became a tall person 5 '10''.  The court hearing was delayed for 1 week. Victim advocacy people helped me with my case. Samir had loose stool & fever. I got meds from the office.  Dec 12th went to courthouse to find out things were going Took a bus to Delaware state ID $5 Dupont highway route 143 22 hessler BLVD DMV 302 326 5000 They told me in order to get DE ID form I have to surrender my Florida License which will expire on Dec 2005. I intended to wait Then I took the bus to NY came back same day to check my status with Samir. Dec 13th  was my court hearing day, Raining cats & dogs I intend to wait. Michall one of the staff employees in the shelter gave me a ride to the courthouse, my neighbor Meena came, I saw my partner with his brother standing outside the courtroom, an attorney was appointed for presiding my case a white European big man with a briefcase seated next to me in the courtroom on that court hearing day. After the court hearing for the abuse, I got a full possession of the apartment where I am currently living for one year. My partner will have to move out with his belongings, he can come to take Samir out only every other weekends & will have to pay child support $250 - which he failed to do also he told me with in a month time he will be going back to Sylhet if he stayed out & there will be no point pursuing the lawsuit. I was looking for Samir’s BDi passport. posted a letter to child enforcement for change of address and also went to leasing office in the apt complex to transfer my case where I was placed during my courtship to where I am residing.

Dec 15th I did not go out because of Samir he had low grade fever  he had loose stool got the meds from the office One of the boys had fever, from the office he was taken by an ambulance to the hospital but came back that night nothing serious Dec 17th I went to south gate by bus I saw Brother in her the apt was quite comfortable. My partner was out I took some of my belongings got into 65 buses to Elkton to see Dr Hidalgo OB GYN, she recognizes me & the boy Went to Philadelphia pike talked to the lady in child inc, Rokeya fufu was trying to connect me. Dec 19th this is my 2nd visit.  I went to Delaware DMV office where I surrender my state ID card from Florida which will expire on 2005 & got a new ID from Delaware.  Dec 20th Michale from the office gave me a ride to the courthouse Attorney was appointed to preside my case. We were taken to another courtroom. where there will be the hearing. Samir was not allowed to the courtroom; my neighbor was told to take care of Samir while we were in the courtroom. Belal called wishing me on my birthday. An Indian lady aged 65  drove her car came to see me in my apt she told her sad story about how she was cheated by her ex-husband. Now she became independent we bought take out Chinese to eat & we did some grocery from ShopRite   Dec 22nd Ali mama & mami, Qurra khala & Moinul came to see me. They saw Samir with me. We went to Christiana mall we had taken out Chinese. Moinul was engaged with paki girl. Dec 24th Lock smith came & change the front door lock. Took Samir to Patibandha for regular check & flu shot. At noon I went to Hudson center next to the post office by taking the bus 65. Dec 25th Christmas Dec 26th went to Jessup socials service for the change of address from shelter to south gate, so that I could get food stamps & cash in Newark. Went to the shelter to return the clothes I borrowed for Samir & also to modify the court hearing also for the custody of my son. I went to YWCA for visitation center but my partner was not interested in the parenting classes   People who do not understand your silence will never understand your  words .

2003 Jan Samir's 2 years old growing up in Delaware - Solve the problem, leave the problem but never sleep with the problem - I took the immigration photo from Kinko & filled out a citizenship form without fee & send it by mail - End of big ordeal! little that I had some cash was for emergency I kept it for that. After I came back to the apartment with Samir, life became the same nothing changes- no, but I ended up with big shelter experiences & scared of my future- yes.  Getting food stamps & cash from Jessup every month for 6 months, Took the bus went to DC came back same day this was my 2nd trip to Montgomery County - this time with Samir in the dark I was disappointed that came that far but couldn't see so-called untie who resided there for so long so comfortably. Every day my partner was taking Samir to a house at Bear spending time at Paki's basement where he found a temporary place to stay. Another court hearing for missing passport went to social service office alone with Samir. One day I went to drop the shelter stuff to the carriage- no string attached. Went again to NY with Samir to check my status there but this time I went to the places I have been during my visit in NY. All the money spent on the trips. My partner came back to the apt. Took Samir to Orooz house, another Pakistani family - new arrival to the masjid's community. Trying to transfer my case from Jessup to Newark. Cousin Moinul 's 2nd marriage to Pakistani girl. Indian astronaut died during crash landing in Florida. Receive a letter from my power of attorney for our Uttara plot went to notarize the document to Wachovia next to south gate. Then sent that to contractor Munshi Mujib by federal express for attestation. ( $40 sending cost). Went to NY to BD counselor for attestation. Dupont hospital. Finally, Iraq war ended.  Received a deed of agreement from ENG Munshi Muzib for constructing 10 flats in Uttara. NY sea beech, taking Samir went to circus near ShopRite. Went to Philly for the vacuum cleaner. Nose priced $40 at Kirkwood twice & 2 holes in the ears, but none of them worked ,they were all  closed. Received the court paper for the Uttara plot again, Amma signed the paper in the court document stating that she gave her share the entire flat to me. Later 2023 she got the possession of Dhanmondi flat for her confidence from my grandfather. The Acre as a bonus to us in 2021. Went to Rehoboth beach Dover with Samir, Shakeel came to NY on AUG 25th to USA. He came to study in Main University for MSc for 2 years.  Went to Rokeya fufu's house to see Shakeel. Samir was attending the toddler classes in the library Behind every successful woman, there is no man it is her dedication and her hard work. 

 Samir with bright (African boy}, Miki, Nepali girl with others playing in the park in the apt complex2004 Samir is 3 years old. Sometimes there is ups & downs, but we still carry on with life.... Things are not going as usual . Sent Gifts that I bought for my Auntie in DC & uncle in Virginia by mail also returned $ 100 check to Ali mama -he accepted. Dyed my hair from the mall by a French hairdresser- he didn't follow my instruction It came out to be awful blond.  On the way from Florida to Maine Shakeel with 2 other friends stopped by for few hours & had launch with me, cooked chicken for them.  Rima went to Australia with her husband. Sent a letter to BDi bank inquiring about my forgotten account but no reply. Court hearing for Samir’s stolen passport. When I came back from the family court filed a case for new petition. Samir got hit by the swing, there were 2 unattended Arabi kids He fell down, his nose started to bleed, his occasional nose bleeding became less but lasted for 5 years. Pierced my nose twice from Kirkwood couldn't keep it but.  Went to New Jersey Baisakhi mela BDi fair in NJ. Made appointment with Syrian dentist Aziz Awala. After that boycotting In laws for good, they were not friendly anymore. JC penny is a big store in the mall was charging me twice when I denied accepting imitation jewelry in the first place. Bank charged me for overdrafting that was strange! Samir's occasional nose bleeding continued. Samir fell in the walkway & had a cut on his forehead but there was no scar mark when he grew up. He had tendency to running  with great speed all of a sudden in streets & it was hard catch him. Samir’s speech was delayed went to see a speech therapist, after that he started to speak. Indian boy  down stairs became his friend. Went to Florida  taking the half British/ half Indian boy with us by road. Samir stuck his finger in between door at Eid reunion day came back early.  When life is dragging your back with difficulties, it means it's going to launch you into something great. So just focus & keep aiming. 2005 - Samir was 4 years old. Amma was admitted in CMH for high pressure. PFA for custody of my son was cancelled for preponderance. Shakeel is in LA. went to Samir enrolled his in-library storytelling program. African folk dance, Drama princess & pea musical group zaz in the library for Samir. Shakeel went in Dallas. Shakeel has completed  1 year course mph from the university of Maine. Taking Samir to MCdonald to play with other kids regularly. Brandywines Park & libraries for Samir attended the storytelling classes regularly, after the classes he played  in park. Pakistani died in the  car accident in Chesapeake city. My photo with Samir was published in the local magazine. Took Samir to Cecilton library,  aslo at McDonalds at bear.  Went to Miami from Philly airport Shakeel became sick was admitted in NY hospital Dec 29th he flew back to Dhaka. Be okay with not knowing for sure what might come next, but know that whatever it is, you can handle 

2006 Samir is 5 years old, student of kindergarten. I'm a good person but don’t give me a reason to show you my evil side. NY visit spending the night in the car while Samir's dad went to see his people’s place with my son. Samir was using library classes in Newark as well as in Brandywine library. Took him to Wilmington library & Kirkwood library Dr Swiss, African folk song - for Samir. African boy Bright from the complex came to play with Samir every day. Looking for kindergarten school for Samir. He made new friends in the complex. Crazy Arabian boys came for swimming.  They went to the jungle behind the complex & also to the pool behind the hotel. Called the police for not listening to me. Threat was there for Samir from those boys.  Later I found the boy became quiet. Took Zaid to Dover he behaved well, Long island picnic spent the empty stomach for the entire day finally got our lunch at 8 pm. Samir started going to masjid for Arabic lesson. Uttara building construction started.

Home task for Samir in Elementary school

 Came back from New Mexico trip I was sick with weird kind of cough which made me sick for 6 months. African & half Indian\ half Irish boy, Thai boy upstairs team up & came to play with Samir every day, they lived in the complex, biking in the car space, playing with toys I bought floaters for swimming in the pool was everyday thing later with sun tanned Samir became dark brown. I started taking meds for hypertension. I went to Samir field trip from school. Took passport photo cancelled my apt with endoscopy appointment with gastroenterology dept. & only a fool will ask for endoscopy when someone had that much cough.

 Samir's field trip in kindergarten

Samir's field trip 1st grade Elementary school A big Pakistani family with a doctor son in the union hospital came to Elkton whose wife was internist in Philly hospital that was I heard. Samir's dad got busy  with Pakistani group & for their settlement also business in Dover, NJ MD, Philly; another brother in NY sister in Canada- big collection of people moved to USA from Pakistan. Samir's field trip to dairy farmhouse  was enjoyable, I went with them  as a chaperon. My partner started bringing rotten doughnut for feeding the bird, balcony was full of jam & jelly, breadcrumbs attracting birds' squirrels, bugs ants you name it!  Notarized Samir’s birth date from the local bank. Theft in our cant house. Shakeel went to Hawaii for 2 months. I love listening to lies when I know the truth. 

2008 Samir is 7 yrs old - 2nd grade also  with Arabic lessons from the neighbourhood & in the masjid.  My health insurance was approved by DE social service. Nepali neighbor downstairs started to work at the Elkton store. They left after 1 year.  Field trip for Samir in new castle county. Apt complex installing good quality windows double layer glass - somebody throw something & the glass broke into thousand pieces (for unknown reason!) -reinstalled it apt rent is now $800 plus 100 for utilities. Hasna fufu died & she was buried in Chicago.  Samir started going to Arab lady in apt complex for Arabic lessons. $100 /month. With my health insurgence I got a new pair of eyeglasses for free from Main st, couldn't wear thick glasses got a new pair from Kirkwood. Samir got another Arabi lady for his Arabic studies. Never allow loneliness to drive you into the arms of someone you know you don’t belong with. Lonely people are always awake in the middle of the night.

My mother called from BD told me I have to give 20,000 tk i.e., $285 for maintenance fee for Uttara flat, the lift in the building was not working- the flat was built in 2006, only 2 years back. I have to take medicine for stomach pain also I will have to lower my cholesterol level in my blood. The Arabi boys came to play with Samir, they took him out, when I went out, I couldn't find them, I was alone in the apt I started looking for Samir & his playmates, the Arabi boy kept telling my son "Hide from your mom". Also, Samir was learning to be disrespectful towards me ". I let those boys in my living room told them, "Don't go to the pond behind the hotel & the woods " but they didn't listen. I called the police later I knew it was threat. I went to DC we ate at Afghan restaurant. Next day we went to NY, ate kabab hotel in Jackson height. Samir made new friends in the complex. Samir’s US passport was hand over to post office for renewal. It was with Samir's dad.  My BDi passport also posted to BD embassy in DC $110 renewal fee. Shakeel went to Indonesia Samir’s field trip to nature farm.  Samir's dad started bringing Elkton store goods in his car & stuffing in the 2nd room, as business is not going well the store will soon close. Infinity car which we bought from Florida we couldn’t sell so it was dumped somewhere in Elkton junkyard. Car parts would give us some money. Thai boy next door used to live & his mom left. Samir stopped going to the pool, it’s getting dirty with baby's pee & adult’s discharge. Samir rides bike with complex boys. I took Samir's  dad to emergency they found block in his heart after doing couple of tests, then he had undergone small surgery which went well, from the leg artery the block was removed, after 2 days the operation he was released. Same day his people came crowding in the apt, he did a huge amount of cooking standing in the kitchen for them while they sat & talk talk & talk. I was locked up in my room. Everyday Samir sat with me & I taught him English & math since he started his school, also I read library story books to him. The lease was extended from the apt complex. Samir came back from masjid with cut on his knee. attending his injury carefully. 

The hurt himself in same spot from the masjid, obtained my driving license from DMV. Samir's dad got a temporary job in Elkton hospital. Finally, I became seriously ill. Taking glucosamine for joint pain, fish oil for 1 month antibiotic for stomach pain couldn't tolerate discontinued.  Nepali boy with his parents came became friends with Samir. Taking prevacid for stomach pain. Store in Elkton didn’t work run by the pakese,  stuff got dumped in apt in 2nd room - useless stuff for me. For my urinary problem went to urologist in Brandywine he advised me for cystoscopy. after 1 month Apt with psychiatrist counselor - she told me get the de driving license & get a job.  I Passed my driving test from DMV & gave up my temporary license from Miami FL. Went to ultrasound at Christiana hospital LabCorp for blood work, my health insurance card expired, Samir took flu shot & hepatitis vaccine. Shakeel's tour in Europe. Barack Obama became president President. Sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged to relocate us to the place we are meant to be.

2009- 3rd grade in the elementary school.  Samir is 8 yrs old . Practicing driving & parallel parking African boy came to play with Samir every day. Made several trips to Philly, DC Baltimore NY Dover, NJ.  The BDR killings February 2009 in Dhaka. Shakeel went to Manila. Sharke Chaman called from NY. Enrolled Samir to Summer reading program in the library. He will get a certificate & a story book. Singer Michael Jackson died suddenly. Started to pack for BD. airfare for an adult was $1350. & $1125 for a child - round trip. Luggage 100 Ibs/ 44 kg, hand luggage 15 kg. both of the car will be sold rest of the stuff will be thrown in the garbage. School friend Rawshan called from NJ. Took Elkton dr’s mother to NY & dr’s sister-in-law place in Pennsylvania. Samir with friendsShakeel went to Malaysia bought 2 GB flash drive for photos of flowers & saved it. Started to take supplements, Samir's dad & Samir went to Florida of 5 days. Another call to the police, then I have to look for human resources for work, next to university, typed my resume for the secretarial job from the local library, found the desk clerk gave the letter to her, but I never received any letter of regret from the office. It always happens I had  to look for job & someone else gets the job! Again, went to department of labor typed my resume in their computer, they asked me if I am interested to work out of state, but I prefer to stay where I reside, again no response from there as well. Went to Philly down on the way one tire got  punctured, new tire cost $80. We went to Christiana hospital for mammogram & ultrasound. Taking BP meds, antibiotic for UTI. Ranitidine for stomach ulcer & Tylenol of arthritis. Samir's dad started bringing qurbani meat on Eid day. New privilege in USA so we could enjoy  freshly slaughtered meat as well. Samir's dad's auntie died in Hollywood Miami. Samir's dad went to DC for 5 days.  Don’t to be too confident when someone tells they like you. the real question is, until when because just like seasons people change.                                

2010 4th grade in elementary school. Samir is 9 yrs old .

This year was eventful & things were happening in a quickly succession.  Samir went to Chucky Cheese, family fun galaxy with the doctor’s family came back at mid night. Went to emission control vehicle at Perryville for the car, I had tooth ache went to Wilmington dental service, inquired about cost -$150  was too much. Samir's dad got busy with Elkton dr’s Mercedes Benz, several times we took  the car to the car dealer for repair. Samir went to masjid feast. They had some fried chicken in route 13, saw help- wanted in the women hair saloon $10/ hr . Samir takes project work to school. Snowfall this year with rain & cold. Looking for a pet for Samir. Finally bought a hamster with a cage & with his food. Samir named him Gibi. Samir lost his new blue sweater, pair of gloves matching woolen hat. He also lost his beautiful lunch box with lunch inside. That's the beginning of the stealing in his school years. New HD TV 42 inches from BJ’s. Jamal mama came to  USA for the first time calling me several times on the phone. Looking  for tires for the black car in the tire store, each tire cost $70. We went to NY with one of Samir ‘s friend Lemon from the complex came back same day videoing the entire trip for FB.  Nilu apa (Macca) died of liver disease. Got a ticket for violation of traffic law from PA Department Of Motor Vehicle went there looking for PA DMV had a hearing, money was sent from a frozen account, finally it was paid in 3 installments with fine $137.  An arrow can only be hot by pulling it backwards

Easy- breezy summary Samir The long rows of cars started coming from Philly to Delaware after that. Took the blue van driven by Samir's dad & the white car by me to Elkton. While coming from the NY Samir's dad made a wrong turn that deflate the air tube inside the tire. We took the white car who fixed it for free. But we found a flat tire on black Sodano after installing 4 new tires from Walmart. We found a big nail impacted in the tire which caused the air to come out, we got  that  fixed. New battery costs $80 from Walmart. Black car had 4 new tire & a new battery ready to drive. Samir was appearing for DSIP test for 2 weeks. His progress report was very good, e-mailed it to my brothers.  When we saw a flat tire on the white car, we informed the police later fixed it. Instead of driving the cars we are dealing with car problems a lot. NY program was cancelled for that.  While backing the car in masjid  parking lot I hit car behind no harm was done, my partner told e to be quite . After that when we went to Wilmington, our Black car was hit by another South American car. A lady called from the insurance company inquiring about the accident happened in Wilmington. The car door next to the driver’s seat was completely smashed which was fixed clumsily by hammering the door, later it was replaced the car had a better look. Fake bill started coming to me in my name from Christiana hospital telling me they could damage my credit record. It took all day for me & my son & my partner to clean the junk from the storage downstairs & trash them into the dumpster. The storage in the laundry room was organized, nice & clean. Later the apt cleaned the storage nothing was  left there with our permission. My partner bought a new carpet for the living room. Apt needs to refurbish the carpet door needs to be fixed painting on the wall bathroom fixed we need new stove new fridge needed, new AC also. Eid reunion-Wilmington Chase center with sister Amal's family Annapolis in MD to the Muslim community dinner. Took the half Irish/ half Indian boy & Gibbi we went to Florida by car, stopped at Daytona & St Augustine beach. Stayed at the same apt we used to live in Miami. Samir's dad with boys went out to visit his people. We had Chinese at Palm bay . Stopped at palm bay house for 2 nights where there was some of my personal stuff kept found  4 canister Jar. I couldn't find the rest of the item. I brought back the jars with me to DE after 5 days stay in Florida.  Palm bay police was quite about it. In first place  My personal item should not taken out from Elkton MD in my absence.  Took my Arabi lady friend ( helping her ) & his son to  Islamic school. Finally got rid of the dress which the Indian lady gave me as a gift, it was haunting me like a ghost. Went to dinner party to the new house of a Sylhet who was  married to Asami lady where I met other Assamese. After few years they moved to NJ , the lady died in 2019. Kid in the complex now riding bikes in the bank parking space in the evening. Samir fell while riding the bike & was hurt. Black car is running fine door - lock after the accident was jammed & was fixed. Some of the people near I live was talking about the 2 cars we had & trying to take my driving privilege. We went to NJ hotel Samir's dad forgot to take his wallet & had to pay the toll $25 went to New castle for the ticket. He got while visiting Florida.While I was driving  in the UD area, didn't know I was driving  10 miles/hr over the posted speed . Police caught for over speeding. Fine was $52, went to municipal building police dpt for the fine. Shakeel went to Philippines & came to USA for 3 weeks. Continuous 3 weeks period made me week & anemic I am losing lots of blood,  went to see my primary doc she gave painkiller only  ask me do some test ultrasound of the uterus . she diagnosed me Pelvic inflammatory disease in Menopause. Some people will only love you as much as they can use you. Their loyalty ends where the benefits stop.2011 Samir is in 5th grade in the elementary school ,10yrs old .  The best thing about the worst time of your life is that you get to see the true colors of everyone. Samir recited sura on the mike in the masjid on Friday with melodious tone.  He went to play Elkton with the kids came scared & crying, called the police it was late at night. Police talked to him in private, there must be something which made him scared, both police & my son were quiet. Later I gave them Samir's  ph number. Samir's 1st day at school in 5th grade.  My urinary frequency & insomnia at night making me miserable. taking oxybutynin & lisinopril for high pressure. Risa was getting married & Rima’s husband died in same month. Dropping Samir to Arabic school in the masjid. Started Facebooking, made new friends. My computer was not working. A letter came to me addressing me from the family court for jury duty for the first time. They needed my American Citizenship -still waiting for it got it in 2020.  Found new camera for taking pics. Samir came home from school early, rash, & fever all over is body slept till evening. He had his hair cut from the saloon went to school at 11 am next day to St Mark School at Kirkwood spent the entire day for Samir videoed it , he had math competition got a bronze medal, took video with my new  point & shoot small digital camera after editing it posted to YouTube. Called rent office for continuous stealing in the apt- petty theft ( mostly food item ), can't stop theft until now 2024. I found my clothes were worn & faded, went to police station with a big crack in the wind shield in the black car, someone threw a stone at the car but police told us  different way-  when cars are driven in high speed on interstate the small pebble from the big trailer truck thrown at the car behind  could make a crack like that. I receive a call from Samir’s school telling me he is not feeling good, but he stayed back, when he came home, he was feverish, at night he was snoring. School was closed next day he recovered. Planning to go to DC for my BDi passport. Renewal fee $110, Downloaded passport application from internet, my partner bought pre-stamped envelope. I've started writing letters on FB . I re-wrote  letters to Shakeel, Belal & Amma. Shakeel visiting me 2009 in USAI posted them to FB. My time spent looking at pics posted by Shakeel & relatives & friend. Samir's Afghan friends came & had dinner with Samir. Went to local dental clinic in Kirkwood for the estimation of my broken teeth they told me it will be expensive. Primary care doc told me it will be free of charge. Samir went to school with pajama on & pillow & bunch of grapes - for Pajama time & storytelling.  Called the maintenance guy to fix the blocked kitchen sink. DC embassy called & told me to contact NY passport office. They are sending my papers back. Looking for cheap deal for printing passport photo. Cosco is offering $4.99 for 2 copies (with passport photo instruction)  DE office told me to sent the passport for & the money back to DC embassy - sending cost was $8 by DHL. My partner chest pain, he made appointment with Christiana hospital then cancelled it. With TCBY went to Pennsylvanian to see how the cow was slaughtered; 7 share each cost $7 we got one.  Ali mama’s  2nd son got married in Virginia with a Moroccan girl. A bus with kids from the masjid went to Manhattan NY Museum (metropolitan nature museum & art). We followed the bus, lost track at Queens then waiting outside the museum, went inside spending the entire day looking at the museum gallery, finally I saw the masjid kids avoiding us, they would prefer Samir alone not with his parents. Went to Christiana River cleaning with masjid by bus an awful experience, rain & cold, picking up trash by all those mussolese. Shakeel came to LA for one week, spoke to Shafika khala (she died in 2018) in Las Vegas her daughter became MD in Las Vegas city with a boutique for her extra income!  I had to pay $40 for the lab test which was dew in west side & financial aid was making lot of fuss for the new appointment. Royal wedding Prince William with Kate Middleton. Shakeel transferred my money bank to bank. He went to BD. Stopped cutting hair for Samir, since he was a baby now, he is big enough to go to the barber.  Samir came back from school with nose bleeding, he went to field trip next 6 trip with mentally retarded children as a chaperon. Samir’s DSP test result came. Made two Panjabi dress one blue & other off- white for the masjid, added pockets for his convenience & black lace he wore only 3 /4 times, masjid allow only simple Punjabi .1st day at school, 8th grade 26th Aug 2014. 

Samir's dad went to Baltimore to attend his nephew's wedding. Samir’s friend Lemon came to play stayed overnight, took him to Dover. Made video also Graduation Day for Samir at the masjid for Arabic studies. Samir came with ear pain & fever, skipped school next day. Elkton doctor gave him antibiotic.  Took white car to BJ’s for balancing the tire. Enrolled Samir in Summer reading program in the library. Nana Babu died. My urinary frequency at night got worst couldn't sleep. Perryville dental clinic for Samir. Only for X-ray from Wilmington dental clinic charged me $45. Amma called told me Shakeel got scholarship in UK. Lemon came to play stayed took him to Philly downtown next day took Glasgow family to NY.  Took video on the trip. In DE 2 months I had to put the AC on rest of the year is cold, fall & spring comes with pleasant weather. Samir's computer classes at Salem church road few of them were there but he learned Samir’s new friend Moiz came Later his family moved to Taxes near his uncle’s house. Samir started going to Fajr prayer. The saddest part in life is saying goodbye to someone you wish to spend your lifetime with you When you truly don’t care what anyone thinks of you, you have reached a dangerously awesome level of freedoms

2012 Samir is in 6th grade in middle school, he is 11 yrs old - I am beautifully broken, perfectly imperfect, beautiful in my flaws. All together I am a beautiful disaster. Filled the tank with 20 $ gas, looking for the microphone for the computer, Best Buy, Rite Aid, Kmart, Cosco all ranges from $20 -$25 finally found earbud & mouth peace-later returned it - too pricey. Samir’s used microphone which worked fine for my present situation. Making YouTube videos with video making tool. Samir & his dad went to North Carolina to his nephew’s house came back at mid night. EKG for Samir's dad at Christiana hospital. Samir was appearing for Dcap exam, did well. Spent the entire day to St mark high school in kirkwood. Made video for YouTube. Low-cost mouth gargle made a pimple inside my mouth cavity. I made another pair of eyeglasses costs me $100 from Kirkwood worked fine with me. Later I had to give that up for some alien power's eyes on the frame also the red frame  that's a nasty way to get someone's credits. Cosco was offering 6 cents for photo printing, got some printed photos for my collection until they raised the price to 17 cents- no more printing photos for me after that. Big gas station was offering free coffee & coke. Borrowed money from the bank for the eyeglasses from my savings returned the money same day no charge was made from the bank. Samir went to movie theater with Glasgow boys, went to pick him up  at 1:30 am. Cousin who was in Elkton rd returned back to NY.  Royal farm gas stations, potato fries coffee with coupon. Cipro for my ear infection. Taking Lisinopril for BP. Towson MD on the way we had foot long sub-sandwich, no internet connection Dunkins offering free service, from Comcast sent cable man for TV & internet to install a new modem. Going up 166/110 with symptoms. Burger king is offering frappes -half price. I had to pour water from the big plastic can I brought from the apt each time when water pipe in the black car heated up while driving for some time (probably a leak in the pipe causing it). Smoke started coming  out each time when I am driving alone. Went to Kia dealer, $70 for installation went to car repair store near BJ’s - $90 also looking for the rim for the tire in the 2nd hand tire store in Elkton. Samir did well in writing ability. Looking for Middle town the rim of the tire. Walmart, car garage 2nd hand tires in Elkton to replace the old one with new.  They are asking $40, finally found one, bought $20 . Spent long hours in the storage in the laundry room for keeping the stuff, Samir & I with Samir's dad cleaned the storage for the entire day trashing them in the dumpster. When we thought it was well stacked with all Samir's childhood cloths, toys, apt old stuff unnecessary items were thrown away we found after few days the storage bin was empty - nothing was inside.  Black car door was fixed which was once hit by another car in Wilmington 1 year back. Change the windshield wiper from Walmart. Samir’s dental appointments, started for scaling. Samir’s field trip to Wilmington, he spent the day in the masjid fair, playing basketball in masjid. Took Samir to economy conference & drop him to his school. Sent some flower pics to my  friend Mitu. Enjoying frappe & wrapper from Burger king on sale. Buy one get one free. Samir fell in the masjid, cut his elbow while playing several times when he was unaware of his own weight. DMV for vehicle inspection for 2 years -$80. Fixing the rear light & stop light bought a tie $20 each for Belal & Shakeel. End of Samir’s elementary school. Samir’s Glasgow friend came to swim. 2nd room in the apt left unused boxes, books letter store stuff just like a dump star inside the apt couldn't even step inside the room breading place for bugs. Bengali picnic in Pennsylvania.  .4th of July firework each year I could watch that from my room. Samir's dad bought a blue van from his Elkton office for the extra work. Samir fell in the masjid came with a swollen knee. My computer running down to zero memory. Went near downtown to the courthouse in response to a case filed from the apartment complex to vacate the apt within a month. Expecting to see someone from the rent office. Taking antibiotic for my dental pain amoxicillin & ibuprofen.My son & I - January cold. My grandmother died in NY. her funeral will be in NY also Samir’s new middle school is in Kirkwood 6th- 7th - 8th grade for 3 years, he will wear school uniform dress code khaki pant, full sleeve white or blue shirt, sneakers & socks sweater, got the bus ID. Shakeel went to Istanbul Turkey for 3 weeks, from Istanbul to NY He went to Ohio Columbus, spent the night in the hotel, met cousin toffee bhai. The money which was sent to me from Shakeel is now in the American bank. Samir's bought 3 tickets for 6 flag - NJ.  Black car came back with a new car door.  Went to court office saw rent office lady she negotiated telling us for not going to the court she will refurbish the apt time to time.  In 2013 we got a new fridge & a new commode. Bathroom shower wall was installed. New Ac in my room also in the living room. Samir had a conflict with a boy in his class in middle school, he shoved him & he fell in the ground in the canteen.  Dean of the school called us - the parents, after evaluating the crime the school didn't take any action, but the boy got detention. All day waiting for Shakeel cooked food at mid night he called from Wilmington bus station took $ 6 petrol went to pick him up. After the lunch went to deposit the money he brought for me, then we went to Farmer Market, Costco, Elkton Walmart came back at 3 pm made noodles then drop him to Wilmington bus station next day he went back to NY, he will be staying at Shimon's bhai's house; after few days Shakeel went back to Dhaka.  Amma called, she received the gifts I sent to her, sweets, some souvenir from his travel. I got a new computer from sale $375 from Best Buy.  Samir came home with infection in his arm took him to his child doc she gave him allergy medicine & blood test done from LabCorp for Samir blood work. Next day Samir lost his new jacket from school. Weather became bad hurricane hit the bay areas.  President election day Obama & Romney. Went to NY in a stormy day & took some snaps with Samir in the snow. Bought a new jacket from Costco for the cold weather Samir again lost it from school.  Samir's score was  highest in the class -6th grade. Samir Glasgow friend’s birthday, boys went to the cinema picked him at 1:30 am. Samir had basketball after school, he came with fever & ankle pain. Bought more school uniform from the mall. Went to comcast in Newcastle cable guy from horizon installed the cable 3 in combo tv, high speed internet & phone $110 /mo . More I am internet based on watching TV, borrowing books from the library, less I am getting social. House rent $900, cable $110, gas for the cars, grocery - weekly laundry. TD bank statement I am allowed to see the doctor social service asking for my income support when my partner refused to give me & I am living on my own money. Samir's dad went to NY for one day. Samir’s music concert near the library high school. My mother wished me on my birthday. Next day went to Masjid feast. Samir's dad had chest pain for the 2nd time. he was taken to emergency he had similar procedure - the stent was placed in the leg artery to open the blocked artery like last time.  A group of masjid people went to see him he was shifted to step down unit. Next day Samir & I went to pick him from the hospital. snow & cold fever caught me making me in the bed all day. It’s annoying to see Samir lost 3 hoodies in total & also see him unhappy when he comes home from school. It will take some time to adopt to Kirkwood middle school but later  Kirkwood soccer play was making Samir athletic ,when he went charter high school, he was fine. Lack of communication ruins everything because instead of knowing how the other's feeling we must assume.   2013 Samir  is in 7th grade in middle school, 12 yrs old.  & TX trip.  I want to travel the world But my wallet doesn’t agree with me. Conowingo taking Rising sun for our way time to time with Samir's dad, went to Newark Charter school to check Samir's name in the lottery list; thankfully, he was in the list. He was continuing his studies in middle school. Presidents Inauguration Day, watching  it on TV. Samir's dad had several visits to cardiologist for blood in the stool he was admitted in the hospital for endoscopy he came back next day. My pressure was going up was the biggest issue for the next 2 years, went to emergency for checkup. Poetry reading in YouTube. I read 14 poems all together, making videos  adding with music & pics. Open new account in TD bank for Samir, got insurance from social service for 1 month only for health, got antibiotic for UTI, folic acid, refill for blood pressure medicine. Got anti- cholesterol drug from Walmart, frequency of urine, cough was making my life miserable.   Bed news!  Belal was diagnosed with Parkinson's disease  he was in medication. He suffered 2008-2020 for 10 long years with medication plus 2 years only with symptoms. went to UK.  Dropped Samir to Philly airport for Houston tour with his classmates.  After 5 days Samir came back from Houston, went again to pick him at 9 pm to Philly airport taking Samir; next day he went to school late with fever. Samir had a fall at school came home with a ripped jeans, cut & bruises. Dropped Samir to his school doing my morning chore all day. Samir's eldest uncle was sick in the hospital in Houston later died in 2017. Another visit for Samir & his dad to Houston TX for 10 days; this time dropped them at Philly airport at 3pm, borrowed some books from the library at 2 pm , reading books week long. 10th day  in the morning went to Philly airport to bring Samir & his dad back to the apt.  Putting the table fan on, weather was good. Samir played flute in the musical group, went fix the flute in Kirkwood. Chicken roast for dinner. After reciting multiple poetry on YouTube my computer broke. Changing verapamil from Lisinopril for dry cough- one of the side effects now I am free from the awful cough.  DMV for vehicle inspection & registration, Newcastle court building with Samir's dad. Samir 's last month at 6 grade he was playing flute in music group also playing basketball. Samir played with Glasgow boys on Sundays. Went to Newcastle billing office developed more pics from Costco. Samir's dad went again to  TEXAS, gave me $25 for grocery. Dropped him to Philly airport taking Samir sleeping on the back of the car.  Dropped Samir to his school in the morning he had music concert  twice near library in the evening, one time i was in the auditorium, 2nd time waiting in the car. I had some weird spell couldn't move even one step someone from street helped me once. Samir went to Movie with Glasgow friends. Picked him at 9:30 pm.  Next day took Samir him to masjid in the evening.

 Samir TX visit age 12 Samir's new haircut- porcupine head! 

On July -the month of Ramadan we went to TX visit for 2 weeks for the 1st time.  2 small handbag/ person, not too much luggage for a week's travel or we have to pay $35 extra for additional large suitcase. Cream / lotions was not permitted, only medicine- a bit strict airport rule for ladies. Samir with his bushy hair stands outside the airport lounge waiting for transport. Mine first but Samir's 3rd visit to Houston TX. The air crews on that flight were also waiting for their transport, crossing downtown Houston in a cloudy day. Temperature was more than 80 degrees. The day was cloudy, we were experiencing a small amount of rainshower on our way to the one -bedroom town- house where we were staying for the week- long tour in Houston.1st day Tuesday - bought some groceries for the week at Houston house. Ready for masjid salah 5 minutes' drive from where we were placed. 2nd day Wednesday -Samir badly needed a haircut. Samir was pointing at the sign saying: $ 3'99 a haircut- special deal. After the haircut, he had a long shower- shampooed, squeaky-clean teeth, nails clipped n' filed, sprayed mama's body mist on under arms -feeling fresh/ clean & looking good. After noon sun on the premises,  when the sun is soft, it was good time to roam around to know your location. went to the local mosque for iftar. In a small two room masjid, a good number of Muslims were gathered, breaking their fasting with iftar (dates, Sarbat, chickpeas etc. were served on the blue mat. going to a masjids under construction for Salah, ate shingara & chaye from a Bangali store. We had huge South Indian dosa with potato mash & 3 kinds of appetizer - a south Indian snack , new entree for us & we enjoyed it.  3rd day Thursday-, went to the local mosque for iftar. In a small two room masjid, a good number of Muslims were gathered, breaking their fasting with iftar (dates, Sarbat, chickpeas etc. were served on the blue mat.   4th day - Saturday, downtown Galleria mall. Big mall, huge lobby, big stores, centrally air conditioned - modeling with the manikins. cell phone company- never-ending deals for cell phones to rent. Wonderfully decorated light- up store entrance. When we were about to return back but lost our way, a big- store-employee came out & showed our way out, the courtesy was certainly appreciated. 5th day- Sunday in the complex premises. Visiting a house. Can't beat the heat. Nice location, wild roses were in bloom, friendly neighborhood who are equally proud. Some areas were for the homeowner to grow a beautiful garden - It's hard to see anyone outside until now. Samir was not in the mood for picture taking, tired after 45 minutes' drive. Nice, quiet & cozy sitting area, a backyard for growing kitchen garden, keeping a deer or parrot as a pet will be your choice, a space for chilling & grilling which would be great in the winter season. A round banquette table adjacent to kitchen area, granite countertop for easy working space, an aluminum freezer & a flat top stove, area for outdoor grilling in the porch- what else do you need ~ready to move in . We were caught in the middle of a thunderstorm on our way back to town house. 6th day, Tuesday. Samir was fasting again, he missed first few days of fasting but rest of the Ramadan he made it to the end, keeping himself busy with TV, computer game, chatting with friends with microphone while playing on the computer - became very busy person. 7th day -Monday, there was a small amount of rainfall & also the day was cloudy. I was sick with fever, body ache lying in the bed, locked in the apt all day. I took pain killer & fever reducer but not much help; only it worsens my stomach ulcer. In the evening went out to the local Indian restaurant for Shingara chaye. Samir was fasting for 16 hrs. - the longest day in the year. Nothing could make him stop fasting & he had masjid feast at maghrib time. Went to Indian market looking for something to buy for the Eid, a peck of tamarind was the only bazaar 8th day- Thursday 9th day -Friday, went to see swimming pool area behind the town house.I did that day. Oriental market - mangoes coconut water, nuts, pineapples leeches, curry paste, masala, noodles with reasonable price, people were helpful & when you smile - smiles back at you. Roads are barren with some wild kind of shrubs, uncut grasses unattended thirsty for water, few or no pedestrians. 

Ramadan 2014 - in the rural side of USA10th day- Saturday. Galveston sea beach - further back there was the magnificent ocean- Gulf of Mexico. Our short visit to the famous Gulf of Mexico we started at 2 o'clock, after one & a half hour drive; windows were rolled down as we were running out of gas reached the beach with frizzy hair sticking straight up in the air. Some flowers were blooming to welcome us. Stunted coconut like trees were planted on the side isle. Kids, young girls, beautiful ladies, older men - you name it, crowding the beach looking for pure joy only. Some blacks were grilling stacks. Next to me an English old lady sitting under the umbrella taking a short nap. Mexicans lying spreading beach towels, tanning their body under the sun. Kids were playing with sands & shovel, some of 'em were trying to surf- that was an amazing scene. Ocean water was surprisingly warm & inviting, ripple of small waves splashing on me which was hard to resist. Standing knee deep in the Gulf of Mexico. There's the ocean myth which is: never put your back to the sea when you greet, it might not be so friendly. Sheer joy only One & half hour (not the entire day) of playing with billowing waves from the ocean water. With soggy pants & sandy t -shirt, with salty ocean water, sun- tanned Samir was not done yet. Then 10 minutes bare feet walk to the car, another 2 hrs. drive back to the town house exhausted & tired, had shower then had some left-over pizza, then went to bed early at night. 11th day -Sunday -Some flowers were blooming in mid-July 12th day - Monday Houston medical center- waiting in the Lobby.  In the airport lounge - telling goodbye TX. End of TX visit. we are going back today from Houston to DE same route, our flight was at 4:20 P.M. we reached DE at 8: 30 P.M. the air flight was good - no complaints whatsoever. My 2nd visit to Houston TX on 21st Aug 2013 for 5 days. From  Baltimore airport we took the flight to TX Samir was seated in the airport shuttle bus which took us to the airport. The time is one hr. behind east coastline. My cell ph automatically changed it's time to central time zone. 1st day -started nice & fresh at 1:30 P.M by air; reached TX at 3:30 P.M., local time - 3 hrs. of air flight. Samir's skin tone almost matches the passengers seated next to him - a big black guy but they were quite during the entire journey. 3 hrs. of air flight, not much to do except staring at the back of seat in front. DE & part of Philly view from the plane window when it flew from DE. The long strips of highways in the center going north, towards the horizon is interstate 95. Looking at the city planning may be from early 50's still so organized & planned. The interstate was introduced in USA may be in early 60's now it's the busiest & speediest way of transportation can take you your destination in shortest possible time - DE view from the sky. The sky was loaded with clusters of clouds, casting shadow on the ground below, floating like a cotton ball in the bright sunny day. It's hard to believe I'm 38 thousand feet above from ground in the sky. Sky view TX. TX from the sky. Next time I'll be seated next to a frequent flyer, who will not be so obsessed with window viewing.  We are about to land,  we all seated tight & belted up also holding our breath.  At George Bush Houston int airport. High rising building in downtown captured from the car window running 80 miles / hr. On the way to the airport it was very difficult to capture the downtown snaps in a cloudy day from the car window. when the car was moving in great speed. I am happy that I reached back to my place safe & sound. Next  day big mall, can't beat the heat outside. Found a place to sit & relax. Mall entrance -exhausted by the heat, with darken skin tone, Japanese style hanging - lantern on the huge lobby. I had a difficult time to convince my son to take some snaps for my album, finally he agreed. He is crossing his difficult teen age, everywhere he went he was hooked up with cell phone with earpiece.  Sun tanned Samir! porcupine head, always busy with cell phone On July 2013 on the month of Ramadan for 2 weeks my journey to Houston TX. Next day , Samir grown a little bit after his last visit to Texas is waiting in the lounge ready to fly.  This time we were in a house, after driven the rent car from the airport all morning reached there in early morning hour. Samir is enjoying some Indian leftover breakfast. He did some grownups act by helping, making rice in the rice cooker & washing plates in the kitchen sink, no more chubby kid. My room for the next 5 days was as usual like last time. Samir also got a room where he kept himself busy with computer game chatting with his buddies as soon as he gets inside house, once he is in the  room it's hard to find him at all . On 22nd Aug, at a halal Chinese restaurant, where I saw a big wall piece of the Quran displayed, from the waitress to the counter woman- obviously all were Muslim Chinese employees. Specially beef & chicken was more tender & juicy, rest was same as usual. After visiting Samir's (palm bay) uncle in the hospital we went to the big house to spend the night. Next day was Samir's birthday 23rd August 2014, he turned 12 his maturity started to build up - no more small kid stuff. He had a surprise cake to celebrate in the town house, we were planning to go out & eat. We had Indian buffet $11/ person. Halim, dessert & masala chaa was well prepared. it's hard to believe rokto korobi in TX.  Post- birthday -Red Lobster- treat for Samir dining with boathat - jacketed - booted Texans. Birthday boy Samir stepped into 12th year. Love the Lobster topping pizza, studded with wild mushroom layered with cheese. The shrimps in butter (main entrée) & broccoli (side dish) were tender & Juicy. Freshly picked from the garden real orchids. It took almost entire evening roaming in the big produce market. Chinese people were crowding to buy freshwater fish some of them were still alive. If you are thirsty or need a cup of tea or looking for pack of cookies.  3rd day we went to Hong Kong supermarket nearby. It's a Chinese market, full of food products. Fruits of all kinds with reasonable price. Fresh real colorful Orchids. 29th, we had Chinese food at the same halal restaurant, raining outside.  Waiting for cha & singara, - Samir still with his cell phone, can't make a teenager convince so easily, he knows everything for himself. Found the usual Prayer place Samir sneaked in where I was taking a short nap laying down in carpet; after the prayer when all the ladies were gone. Friday 7-12-13. The time is one hr behind east coastline. At George Bush Houston intl airport. Other anxious passengers are also waiting for their ride home. Same day we went out in the evening to return the rent car near airport, . We were looking for the connecting train to Philly airport. I am happy that I reached back to my place safe & sound.  

Tx treat- a platter (for 2 person) of 4 pieces of chicken cooked in tandoor , saffron rice salad with freshly made naan- at Mediterranean cuisine - very tasty treat.  Aug/ Sep Eid ul fitr was observed in chase center in Wilmington, reading books from the library, washing cloths, bed sheets, Went to NY to pick up Glasgow  family. My computer shuts down. Samir is having sleep disorder after Ramadan, sleeping  in the day awake at night. Took Samir to Glasgow movie theatre then to Costco & grocery , picking up Samir from the school. Samir's dad started to use the black Sodano, white car broke down. He took my keys & made a duplicate keys for himself. Samir's 1st day at school in 7th grade.  Bought Sally's stuff . Kitchen is full of glass beads. Went to bear library for Samir,  six flag picking Samir from school. Samir's dad went to Dover. Drop Samir's dad to phalli airport he did some grocery before he went & gave me  $25 drop Samir to school Samir's dad giving jump start to the black car.  bought milk & yogurt from food lion, bought a charger for Samir's cell phone. BP med is vanished from the purse, some magic is playing tricks . got hep to jump the black car. Drop samir to school. Samir played all day in the computer put him to sleep at 10 0' clock. Dropped samir to school. Stealing going on in the apt. Dropped Samir to school with the white car at 40 miles / hr. Black car failed to start. Samir went to DC with Glasgow boys came back by 10 at night. At 6 in the morning the battery is completely down. Ask a black lady for help . A  Chinese guy also tried but  the car fail to start. Asked Ayesha to help but a black guy from the car mechanic gave jump start . Samir's was coming at midnight. Taking rest all day. Went to Walmart looking for car battery. Bought some batting for Samir comforter. $12.from the Wal-Mart fixed my  watch by $3 from the mall . Discard the idea for making a queen size comforter. Went to Baltimore. Wanted to come back before Samir's return but he was waiting in the balcony for 1 hr. Shakeel posted some my father's pics on internet. Went to Elkton to bring back the black car. Oct My period was heavy got alarmed. Sodano's alignment was done  Amma called told me Shakeel is going to Houston. Went to NJ Newark airport to drop the Indian couple. Then went to see the goat in a farmhouse. Shakeel reached Houston TX , visiting Shanaaz. Irman & Ashfaq also. dropping Samir's dad to the farmhouse for the goat to be sacrificed he was going to buy a goat for Eid Ul Adha. He did not go to masjid on Eid. Shakeel sent the money from Houston I asked for $2000. Azizur Rahman & his family is going back to BD. There were good to me . Sat/ sun Samir makes program with the Glasgow boys. Went to Elkton library Samir is doing masjid class. Made kababs'' with qurbani meat. & biryani. Nov Shakeel was in California in Kamrul place. Went out to take some fall snaps near Elkton. Bought a shirt from JC penny, from Costco developed some pics. Took some snaps from Samir's basket play in his school.  Fibric $3 from Walmart. fixed the car tire near Glasgow.  Looking for red tree for the fall pic. Samir went to birthday party - gift $30. Reading book on photography. Temp outside zero degrees outside. Went to Baltimore then drop Samir's dad to Periville, he took the train to Baltimore airport going to Florida for 5 days for Chulisha for one of his twin cousin. He filled the gas half tank & gave me $10. Samir & I went to sleep early After dropping Samir to his school went to Philly then on the way to Burlington coat factory.  Bought a box by $10, made biryani & kababs for Samir, little gas in the tank half of the quarter tank, Samir's dad was getting miser day by day. Went to Kirkwood library brought some books, window shopping at Marshal. Went out for sightseeing, Samir came back in the evening picked him up from Khol. Went to Elkton Apna bazar kmart. stuck with period. In the apt. Samir's thanksgiving holidays started for 1 week.  Took Samir to Glasgow house. Drop Samir to Elkton house daughter's birthday for party then picked him up. Samir went to NY for the day. Black Friday sale was going on in the mall. Bought a tea mug from Christiana. It's cold outside. Dropped Samir to Hannan's house at Glasgow's waiting to renew my driving license from DMV. Went to Baltimore taking route 40 came back before Samir's school ends. Raining outside temperature below zero. Bought a piece of cloth by $3. a Moroccan hair oil.  Took Samir to basketball game with Muslim boys. Snowing outside. Feeling little feverish.   snowing & cold. Went to Delmarva powerhouse.  Samir & his dad went to Terbia feast. Amal called. Amma called wishing me on my birthday.  On 19 Dec one day before my birthday (waiting for the driving license to renew from DMV Samir's dad remembered he had free coupon for the car wash, went for the car wash, while driving through the car wash, I was driving, Samir's dad was sitting next to me. After the washing, soaping & drying- the car was coming out from the car wash  I was trying to turned the engine on  but .... instead in that sloppy exit the car  went down steady & slowly & hit a parked car in the parking area. After looking  at the horrible situation bothe car had the bump but the other car was used  & not in use. Next step was looking for the car owner, went inside car dealer store finally  found the car owner, rose up & looked into situations, took some snaps of damaged part.  Next day, went to DMV with TD bank statement but still they are asking for valid green card 4 more days it will expire on my birthday. Went to DMV for driving license renewal, took the passport, my green card expired.  On my birthday Amma called told me chacha was seriously ill. Shakeel's email saw he was sick lying in the bed Amma visiting him. Belal called twice chaha was taken to Sylhet clinic. Maybe his last few days. Samir's Christmas holiday started. Dec Our beloved chacha passed away just like all his brothers giving very short notice to mourn for him. Rukeya fufu called me told me his funeral went well in Sylhet. There was nothing to say. Rima came from Australia. I talked to her she seemed to take the news strongly. Not a good year to start . After 1 year chachi died after Risa's wedding in Jan 2014 ...started embroidery to pass my time. from Boscov bought some panty on discount.  Black car was giving trouble. Went to Elkton with black Sedano  with the broken side. Very soon this car will break down. The end of the year for that  Samir had to skip Arabic class Samir's dad  went to Elkton Walmart for the gift for the Elkton family's daughter's birthday celebrated few days back. We went to Elkton Walmart for gift, one dress was readymade, another one stitched by me I chose the shiny fabric ,  added some sequence for the dress worked late at night, packaging it  & dropped those 2 dresses to Elkton Pakis 's house.  There will be haters, there will be doubters, there will be non- believers, and then there will you, proving them all wrong. 

2014 Samir is in 8th grade,middle school, 13 yrs old -Stop explaining yourself & telling people everything. You owe no one any explanation of what you do. your life is yours, not theirs . Moroccan friend sister Amal moved out to another complex near the masjid.  I was fallen seriously ill with my heavy period. It started & continued for 3 weeks. Brought the blue van from Alfa, black car needed jump start, white car needed a new battery $110 Walmart price. White car was not in use. Chacha's death after his bypass surgery in '93 in Bangkok was unexpected. Samir's dad brought the flu virus infected Samir then me but I suffered the most.  Samir went to play basketball finally he agreed to wear the Hoodie he was having problem wearing it at school.  He lost number of hoodies in his  previous school years & we kept buying for him, we never got back our lost items. Baltimore trip, Samir was at school he had the home keys to enter. African math teacher agreed to help Samir in math in the masjid for several months.  I was in Christiana hospital for 3 days & 2 nights After I came back from hospital, I took iron tab (slow release) for anemia & metoprolol for 6 months, also went to primary care got routine checkup. On  Feb 24th I  went again to emergency meds couldn't bring my pressure down. They gave e verapamil IV 80 mg & it was effective; because of its serious side effect. I couldn't continue. Again, emergency outdoor my pressure was 170/110 also experiencing arm pain & neck pain for the past 1 week. Took expired date lisinopril, it was out of stock which made me vomit, systolic pressure went up to 170- 180-190. Took ibuprofen for arm pain which me awake all night, blurry vision, someone from rite aid told me to go to emergency I may be having minor stroke - my 2 night 3 days at Christiana hospital began, nerve racking experience for me, which damaged my cornea - wavy cornea later I came to know it was a Fatwa thrown by one of my cousin sister in Chittagong. After when I was released from the hospital, I felt very weak, my head was spinning all day. Same day went to Charter school in Wilmington for Samir's pre admission test he appeared. White car was running very slow finally broke down. For cold & rain, windshield of the car had a big crack. Went to Bear for estimation Samir's braces, did some poetry reading for YouTube with bad eyesight. Getting fake bills for lab tests my insurance should be covering all when my  I am suffering somebody else's illness.  Went to Limestone eye care center in Bear. To check my vision, they told me to get a prescription where they sell eyeglasses & get a new pair of glasses. Didn’t gave me any cure for the wavy cornea. After coming back from the hospital, I was maintaining a blood pressure chart, it was making me very sad also. Samir's music concert in Newark high school again. After visiting west side health center my pressure went up high, this time systolic >200 mm of hg. On- call dr gave me labetalol. In the morning I was released from the emergency. At 11am went to west side to see the dr after taking thiazide & metoprolol my pressure went down to 155/99 at 5 pm. Taking double dose of metoprolol. But it had the side effect, which was causing diminished peripheral blood circulation, my skin was dry & rough nails brittle some part of my part of my skin turned dark. Started to walk in the early morning, taking pic as well with my point & shoot camera , some of them came great which  uploaded in my website  All of a sudden Meat seller -a guy across the road  next to  West side health center died of heart failure, I was in there , saw ambulance came to take him to emergency hospital. Arabi friend came downstairs in our building. Primary care prescribed me high dose of vit D once a week also gave me Cipro 75 mg for 7 days for  the infection. I was seriously lacking of Ca went to Wilmington funeral center waiting outside, Arabi guy died needed funeral service before he is buried.Samir's dad was helping cleaning the body before he was buried it was voluntary job but lesson learned . After having cardiac symptoms like tachycardia, chest discomfort, breathlessness, I've stopped my medications.  My eyesight was giving me lot of vision problem when I worked on the internet felt like it was pulling from inside, my vision gets blurry & made me uncomfortable and heavy period was making me anemic. Taking Samir every Friday after Jumma & his Glasgow friends to taco, sometimes gyro sometimes Chinese.  Initially I used to go later it was Samir's dad job. My Jury duty in Wilmington was denied for not having citizenship. Newcastle Sylheti lady became my phone friend. Huge restaurant bought food came from the masjid.  Pest killer came to the apt complex, sprayed insecticide inside the apt complex.  Arm pain all day. Samir's dad takes Samir every day during Ramadan before maghrib they take iftar together comes back after Sehri. Samir successfully fast for 30 days Eid Ul Fitr in Wilmington also completed 30 Rozas, praying 5 times a day joining the taravi, coming home after sehri. Spent the night on last 10 days for Sabe Kader in the masjid. Samir's dad took out all the boxes with his tax work behind the sofa & dumped it in the 2nd room. Samir started 8th grade in middle school. Samir burned his computer in the corner hitting the table lamp - that’s strange!  Samir had problem in the bus with junior kids, they screamed became unruly & didn’t listen. Back home Amma had a mild stroke in her sleep, paralyzing her face on one side, her bp was not controlled. We became all sick, Belal was not ok also! walking outdoor- making it daily routine. Samir made 28 $ working on masjid’s parking lot. Next day he got $80 it's not a good idea to let those kids work for money for too many times. Went to 6 flag NJ with masjid boys with the money. New Jersey - six flags.Flock of Muslims gathered that day to see the grandeur of spring garden as well as zoo animals & roller coaster rides. After reaching the destination Samir disappeared with a group friend to have as much fun as possible going for the rides; I hardly saw him during the entire visit. After One week he again went with friends to a similar park in DC - how come kids like him have tons & tons of energy! Numerous stalls with Muslim feminine products - cloths jewelry, perfume, hijab, pots & pottery which was brought from their homeland were displayed.
A big plastic mat was spread for prayer. Initially it was a bit hot but when temperature cooled down & fresh breeze,  then it was a pleasant evening. I found this  Moroccan lady friend, Amina as a companion, enjoying skyline view. Restaurants were buzzing with people, fuming with talks & laughter, hassling with kids but I liked the warm environment. Old style restaurant was there to satisfy the hungry customers, food was cheap & amount was good but for the drinks, soda was sold out like an expensive piece of jewelry- $2.50 a can. Sitting beside the beautiful- display- of- water fountains was breathtaking & refreshing enough for the visitors in a hot & humid day. I lost one of the soaks which I wore with my shoes that day; without it I could barely walk, my feet was swollen & aching with pain at the end of the day. Ladies & girls came with snickers. I took pain killer. Also, my head spins whenever I see a crowded public toilet.   

 The day before EID Ul Azha, visiting a farmhouse looking for a goat to slaughter. Samir was happy to see a farmhouse even though he had plenty of field trips from his elementary school. Our car - black Sedano was parked out there as beautiful as the weather catching so many people's greedy eyes, I think I'll chose the white & brown color goat with a tuft of beard hanging on its chin It's hard to convince Samir to pose for my photo shoot. Farm animals are having their final evening stroll, beautiful weather, Samir was looking out for a goat to take home. The farmhouse was located near the urban side, but the owner was not there, we were waiting as well as taking pics There were chickens, goats' sheep, cats & dog also a pony under the glorious setting sun, beautiful farm view- so peaceful. visiting a farmhouseSpain visits for Shakeel met Ashfaque there. Kirkwood BDese growing vegetables in their kitchen garden, my partner bought spinach. Goat qurbani on Eid ul Adha, again my BP more than >200 meds didn’t work, went to Christiana they took my chest X-ray.  Released me  at 11 am.  Metoprolol 25 mg twice a day. Submitted my green card in Dover INS,  fees $490 for citizenship. Heavy bleeding with clotted blood. Uncomfortable cardiac symptoms can’t sleep at night. Got my driving license showing my temporary license, bought bating for Samir’s king size comforter, fixing it. Caravel exams for Samir. Freezing 20 degrees F outside. Dec-Made appointment with the cardiologist. 1st visit He gave me life saving device 4 electrode to monitor my heartbeat, also went from stress test, supplements could make pressure high, taking one a day, going to social service for my health insurance. Amma fell in the bathroom. she was in ICU CMH,  it was decided the orthopedic surgeon will put screw & nail to fix the problem & 6 months of hospitalization. Life goes on ... for better or worse but  when I visited her it was May 2023, after 20 years. Dropped Samir to Newark Charter school for entry exam. Samir’s music concert after that went Perryville railway station to pick Samir's dad. My horrible sickness huge amount medical bill was sent to me when I was insured all the time. I may be suffering from someone else's illness! My new health insurance card came also for my son & his dad from the social service.  
3rd visit to Houston TX, Samir grown  big crossing his difficult adolescent  period. 

From 24-31 dec 2014, went to Houston TX for 6 days with my life saving device on. Our third visit to TX after one & half year- Samir, finds his way to his roots. Wilmington railway station. train dropped us at the airport  Our flight was at 4:30 pm reached at Houston TX at 8:30. We took the train to Philly airport which - stopped at Philly downtown Penn station, made a u came back to airport. waiting for our flight to Houston TX. Samir with bag & baggage at Philly airport came out as usual we rented a car   in the houston airport, drove all the way to brother in laws house. Methodist hospital on 30th in the waiting room. We got the rent car which will take us back to the airport. We had tasty Afghan food (Pakistani style) same day. Beautiful Houston downtown viewing from the 22nd floor Wall to wall window paneling. Sitting on the window aisle for hours not getting bored.  Thursday 4th day - streets at night. For weeklong tour to Houston in Summer I saw rain with thunder in the morning, afternoon or at night but within an hour or so, sun was coming out from the clouds making the weather just right for us. But when temperature goes up to 90's & up, it gets unbearable. Friday before going to Jummah at local mosque. We had Shick kebabs for lunch from a takeout Indian store.  Saturday 5th day - a platter (for 2 person) of 4 pieces of chicken cooked in tandoor, saffron rice salad with freshly made naan- at Mediterranean cuisine - was very tasty treat. Samir gobbled as much as possible- food was delicious. After the meal Samir, his tummy heavy with Mediterranean feast couldn't move. Sunday In front of the Macy's - returning some of the items -the size didn't fit. We were looking hair cut -badly needed, looking good after the haircut. We had tempura - Indian cuisine for lunch- pricey for new entrée but we ate as much we could. Sunday -Bought this woolen throw - sweater from Ross going back  home on Tuesday. Yesterday, on Monday we had halal Chinese for lunch even though rain was making us homebound.

Samir waiting for the train Coming back from TX reached Philly airport after one hr delay at midnight. Spent the night at the airport couch; Window view from the train in the morning train was traveling 100 miles /hr.  who knows - it was hard to keep track of every event but enjoyed it at the same time. Finally reached Newark station, from there we walked to the apt complex with our small luggage on the shoulder. Journey by train from Philly airport took the railway train which stopped at Wilmington then onwards to Newark DE station. We hard after  few days Samir's big uncle died Only three types of people tell the truth: kids, the drunk and the angle.

2015  Samir 9th grader in middle school, he was 14 yrs old . Worry is total waste of time . It doesn't change anything. All it does is steal your joy and keep you busy doing nothing.  TX visit was by air I took some snaps on our tour, Shampoo & the color had no effect, bleach was making my hair all white. Appointment with Cardiologist From the cardiologist office received 6 electrodes hooked up in the monitor device like cell phone. Some batteries with a charge, placing the electrodes on my chest was initially a bit troublesome but I learned it marking sure they are placed in exact point. During shower time I took out the plastic electrodes & then reattached them after the shower. Also, I found cell phone handy to talk to the operator if I made any mistake. After 1 weeks tour to Houston the entire kit was parceled back to Houston address. Still taking Metoprolol 50 mg which was prescribed by my Christiana hospital doctor. 2nd visit App with cardiologist on Jan 12th. My BP 200/110 taking 100 mg double dose. Cardiologist changed Metoprolol to Losartan K- angiotensin 2 receptor blockers & 25mg daily also gave me statin - cholesterol lowering drug once a day. Next appointment after 4 mo.  Meds I got from Kirkwood Walmart. Samir lost his home keys. Went to LabCorp. My bp 184/100 still high. Insomnia chills after taking Losartan also frequency of urine especially at night, increased appetite, nerve pain, muscle ache,  joint pain of all kind making me really sick. My hair started to fall. Next door Bengali guy moving out. He left his junk in the black car without our permission. My partner bought  those trash in  the next room, in the closet some- in the balcony. It was hard to get rid of  them. 2nd room became a big pile of junkyard it was horrible situation day by day. My partner cooked food restaurant- style for that family & I drove  them 1 hour to the airport.  Samir fell in masjid took him to hospital for checkup. His literacy program was giving him award giving ceremony. Snowing heavily. Calling on call doctor for my dose adjustment, some other on- call docs from the center responded. Dental pain took antibiotic Ampicillin for 10 days.  Samir’s 2-night 3 days embassy suite hotel trip from middle school ended fine.  He walked to the apt carrying his small carrier from the hotel.Samir's dental appointment for bracing began on 2018 for 24 mo  I accepted a new promotional offer from the bank I had the savings account,. For 10 consecutive purchases with in 60 days showing them the purchase receipt they are offering $100 for the transition I will make in my debit card. Finally, I did get the money, deposited to my account.  Samir's dad went to Florida. Samir took the 5:30 bus to school he had fever. Got Tylenol walking to in the dark, Rite aid taking pain killer & fever reducer. Samir's dad came back from Florida. Took the black car to mechanic got it fixed. Samir went to Dover from school competition he received a medal,  he took haircut from people’s plaza. Went to NJ tandoori grill with Glasgow party, Samir's dad & Samir was invited. Royal farm gas station was offering bagel & cream cheese for $1 & a large cup of coffee. Black car getting heated up $400 for the radiator, the leakage in the water pipe causing that,  it evaporates the hot water making the tank empty. Taking the blue van to Elkton office.  Shakeel sent money from Houston to Shahnaz's place.  Samir's dad brought the virus from outside making me sick took 10 days course antibiotic. Samir's dental appointment in Middletown. Went to Bear cardiology for blood test. Samir's dad  went to Florida for 3 days, dropped him to Perryville railway station at 2 pm on the way picked Samir from his school. He went to science fair in his elementary school waited their then brought him back to apt. Taking gentamicin for my eye infection, my flue was receding. Hooking up the white car with a nylon rope with blue van I drove Samir's dad took the car to the mechanic it worked. White car was abandoned in the parking lot.  Aberdeen to drop the rent car came back driving the blue van. My computer charger broke. BP 180/120 at night. Samir went to Dover from school. Came back at 10pm, tired white car wash in the garage still it was not fixed, brought back the car, looking for the bulb for my sewing machine.  Appointment with Cardiologist- 3rd visit. He prescribed more medicine.  also, Cholesterol lowering drug.  Baltimore trip was cancelled for political unrest. Samir last month in Middle school. 1 & half mile only 10-minute drive.  taking sincerely Bp meds as prescribed. Samir was selected in charter school- good news. Found primary care for Samir. Amma was still in CMH. Samir ‘s new computer. Went to Philly with Samir's dad to India grill for Glasgow party. With Glasgow boys Samir went to Atna conference, Samir's dad went separate with some Bengali. Baltimore trip, dropped the white car near Christiana hospital in the car repair. Samir went for pretest at Charter school for 3 days. He went Hershey’s Park in Philly downtown came back at 6 pm appointment with cardiologist 4th visit at bear location. It was cancelled after few days at middle school graduation ceremony for Samir- formal dress. Appointment Dr Rene Badillo from Thailand blood work for Rene.  Christiana 24 hours urine collection for my arthritic pain.  Ramadan same as before fasting whole month Eid Ul Fitr. Samir wore brown color awful Panjabi, on Eid Ul Fitr he wore bright maroon Punjabi also which his dad bought than all those colorful Panjabi were gone from the living room closet. LabCorp for fasting blood work, continuing morning walk. Panna chachi  visiting NY. Soccer play from Newark charter school for Samir. Apt with OBGN someone broke the sliding glass door in the balcony from outside at our south gate apt. - installed it quickly.  Pakistani died at Wilmington gun shooting. hip joint pain making me awake all night nerve pain muscle pain all coming to together, Looking for monogram for his school uniform Samir exclusive field trip in 9th grade  in Dover. Several times  Maryland university, Philly & Massachusetts Boston. On weekends Samir & his dad both are going to Gym in the complex. Nina apa  died  suddenly. Looking for DSLR $219 Nikon (affordable) Samir school uniform blue shirt with a monogram, taking Elkton Dr's mother to NY came back same day. Samir made $100 helping the boys in the masjid parking the car. Khaki pants & socks came. Samir with a classmate walked to Newark high school (first time experience) to watch soccer game. fried chicken for lunch. Weather became cold, & windy, stopped going out. Hurricane supposed to hit. Samir & his friends went to DC. Braces for Samir from Middletown dental clinic- total cost $5000. Heavy period every month. My meal for the day - small bowl of ice cream, at night, noon- rice with vege & dal  in the morning - a cup of tea. Samir's dad Canada trip was cancelled. Black car completely stopped working.  Starter needed to be replaced. My partner went to DC to pick Elkton family‘s relative. My BD passport will expire in April 2016. Ayesha downstairs moved out, found a house in a different location. Made appointment for my nerve pain sciatica- naproxen, Aberdeen for Samir. Cardiologist 4th visit he increased the dose Losartan from 50 mg to 100 mg, but my pressure remains the same. My bp 195/124. High diastolic pressure. Went to Salisbury near Dover came back at 5 pm. Samir & his dad went to Elkton party. They finally deciding to go AARP driving safety 4-hour class in the masjid for 1 day.  $20 for the class  also looking at hungry mooslolese to take away my driving privilege which I got legally. Next day my partner bought a table (2nd hand) from yard sale - that means my insurance was not approved. Called on call doctor for skipping metoprolol.  Black Friday sale 2 king size comforter with a cooking pot a full-size bed sheet with 6 pillow cover, one went to my son another one for Samir's uncle, since he was using it during his visits in Delaware. I felt pain between my shoulder pain, breathing heavily, my stress level was very high. Samir's dad kept vanishing cooked food giving to neighbors & continued - God knows what he was up to.Mother & son on Eid dayMy pressure was still higher level. Samir's went to Florida from Philly airport went to pick him up.  Newark high school music concert - Tues/ Wed/ Thursday - Samir's dad came back from Florida. My knee was severely inflamed, all fluid drained out. Cantt work. calling on call doctors for help. fundraising dinner at ISD. went to Camden in NJ came back at 3:30 pm from Philly. Went to Bear for more lab work Christmas holiday Samir & his dad went  to Insurance guy’s wedding went to Cardiologist ‘s appointment. 5th visit Dr Meleni sac MD prescription was making confusing.  Relationship should be about helping each other deal with the stress the world brings. Not adding unnecessary stress to each other's life. 

2016 Samir is in 10th grade, 15 yrs old  in charter school. Some of the best moments are never captured by cameras and are not posted in any social media platforms. They are kept private and are cherished together with best people. Samir went to St mark high school after his school hours, his monthly checkup from braces in the dental clinic, went to Christiana hospital for medical book, found grey ‘s anatomy in Newark library. Party at Glasgow for Samir & his dad my bp 184/114, taking to cardiologist prescription meds, pink eye- conjunctivitis for the past 1 week. Made photocopy from Alpha.  Went to DC with my partner also taking TCBY to BD embassy.
95 North Interstate Drama began on the way back from DC, caught up in the snow emergency all the way to Baltimore for 2 hrs. It was my first-time experience on interstate. Amazing sight in I-95. Car driven with minimum speed at 10 mi/hr. It was   snowing like shredded cotton balls, but weather was clear all the way to end.  Inside the cars the passengers were quiet, also the kids. They didn't come out of the cars hoping there will be rescue squad will be the only option for their present crisis. The cars were stuck in random order, came to a complete stop in the interstate also surprised to see how the car in front turns 360 degrees couple of times within a minute - spinning & skidding to the side isle. Some cars with zero motion got stuck on the chunks of hard- rock- snow & their wheels spinning 60 miles/hr. & snow coming out like a jet.  Police cars were running, speeding with us. Emergency vehicles were engaged in clearing interstate then piling snow on the side isle. They are trying to rescue the cars those couldn't move & those who were out of gas due to slow speed. Snow will be cleared in the morning; it may be a temporary crisis or may be turn into something unthinkable; weather became perfect only after when we crossed Baltimore. Eid Ul Fitr July 2016For the embassy requirements, collecting passport materials. Sent an email to Shakeel about machine readable passport & 17-digit birth certificate. Shakeel stated he can’t help in his email reply. Taking Samir in the blue van to car dealers in Virginia looking for new cars, same day returned back without choosing any car on display. Next day my partner went to NY came back after 2 days with cold & cough which made us sick too. Went to TD bank for money order $110 for my Bdi passport took passport photo from Costco. Went to dental clinic from Samir’s broken braces after eating a bowl full of nuts, the knot went loose. Called the cardiologist, talked about my eye symptom - increased eye pressure, blurriness, he told me to see an eye specialist. Later I found out my eye symptoms were due to taking high dose of Losartan 100mg & 25 mg of hydrochlorothiazide, also. I had arm pain, difficulty in breathing  difficulty when coughing, choking in the middle of the night. I found Bengali eye specialist Pathak Prachi she told me to check my eye with a recent prescription & buy a new eyeglass. Hooking the white car with cable wire with blue van took it to the Goodrich for estimation bought it back to the parking lot. Samir went to Atna convention in Baltimore spent the entire day. On 19th Feb My partner was planning to go BD alone for 3 weeks -1st time.  He stuffed his bag with used to pants for his relatives in BD. He is going on from Dulles airport DC. Small hand carrier/ bag 15 lbs. each 2 big bag or carrier 50 lbs each, from Perryville he rented a car, filled the tank with gas driving to the airport at 11am. BD flight was at mid night.  My son & I were in USA, his school was open.  Next day Samir went to Atna center for fund raising dinner at night. My flu symptoms keeping me in the bad, cooked chicken the way my Samir liked. Eid Ul Fitr 2016 - same yearSamir's dad gave him a gift card to my son which Samir will be saving for his next field trip. $10 to me. Filled the gas in car & bought grocery for the kitchen. Samir went to Dover field trip came back at 10 pm. My current medication from the cardiac center metoprolol, Hydrochlorothiazide & Losartan, taking every day. After dropping my son to his school, took some chocolates for the stuff & for the cardiologist & for the center  A new stuff from Philadelphia came to the center, started to asking questions about my meds & how I was feeling about my health, she was concerned about how I was seriously affected & experiencing new symptoms & I needed on call doctor. Later I got a call from the cardiologist, told me cardiology appointment has ended & I needed to see my primary care & continue my medication. I sent a job application on the way which I did to Newark library & Elkton library & BJ but with no response.  My partner came back from BD.  I asked wall mart about cylindrical lens for my astigmatism after I came back from Christiana hospital, they told me $12 for pair of glasses & $100 for prescription glasses. went to DC with all necessary papers. Samir's trip to UD, black van was running fine but heats up after 10 minutes & then I had to fill the empty water tank with 1 gallon water. Black car bumper got fixed. My son & his dad went to DC, came back same day. Spring break for Samir from school. My 17-digit birth certificate came by mail. went to DC for passport. sent self-addressed envelope to Bangladesh embassy. My partner’s party came in groups spent for 1 hour in my living room. Video chatting with Belal in Kumar Para, it was amazing to see his new flat room by room   with Belal’s camera. Also called Ivon in Virginia. Called Amma saw her in the video. Took Samir to Tetanol school in Brandywine after school sports activity went for urine test at westside registered nurse Tamiki Begum saw me. Wilmington court hearing. Samir went to Philly with the masjid's boys. ISD had cleaning program at Christiana River, went to Camden NJ came back at Esha. My health insurgence has ended.Samir's Boston trip 2016Samir was getting ready for Boston trip. His 1st trip alone with Ben, organizing his cloths, his carrier, 3 nights /4 days in Massachusetts, Boston, earlier my partner came from Florida picked him at 10 am. I saw blood in my left eye probably my pressure went up, on- call doctor from west side clinic told me take double dose of metoprolol.  Took the meds. Samir's dad went to Houston.  I was coughing with fever. Samir went to NJ field trip. Came back at 7 pm. Next day he made program with the Glasgow boys watched movie in the theater. on the way missed my turn - it’s outrageous! made a u turn then waited outside  at Glasgow  parking space. Samir came out from the cinema hall. Picked him at 1 am, back to  the apartment.  Ramadan started.  Samir & his dad were going every day to the masjid for taraweeh. Samir's last 10 days  in ramadan. In 9th grade Summer vacation started. Fasting continued finished all Rozas 4th of July firework, crowds in the parking lot as usual. Glass boys came this year, served chips & drinks. My partner bought food from masjid as usual - somebody must be paying for it. At the end of Ramadan Samir got sick with fever, took meds. Samir started fasting again going to taraweeh coming back after Sahari.  Eid ul Fitr in the center near the stadium, huge crowd. Tingling & numbness in the arm, arm pain after coming back from the center. my bp went up 200/120, took metoprolol.  25 mg on call doc told me to take 100mg Losartan immediately. Checked my pressure from rite aid.  After coming back, Samir's dad went to NY. couldn’t find the cardiologist - my contract was ended. My period started heavily, huge bleeding for 10 days.  installed Viber in the computer. Samir's dad  went to Virginia to his nephew’s place Belal called. Trenton NJ came back after few hours. moving in the city Chester, found the bank. Very hot outside 100 degrees outside. storm coming every day in the evening. went to Dick's for Samir’s soccer ball. From the masjid black car suddenly stopped in the middle of highway in dark while going to Bear Walmart, raining heavily. My partner called TCBY, brought us back to masjid. Early in the morning with a rope brought back the car to apt complex. Shakeel went to London. Appointment with registered nurse at west side center. my wt. 170 lbs. shortness of breath, heavy breathing, fatigue tiredness dizziness, muscle pain joint pain, insomnia. high BP comes with arm pain, neck pain, high cholesterol heavy bleeding during period, blurry vision  Samir with his dad  went to Harshly Park in Philly came back at mid night. Both went to Virginia to attend nephew’s newborn party. Black car getting repaired new radiator from BJ, installation charge $100 brought back the car went to NY for some Glasgow relative coming from Pakistan, after dropping them to Glasgow it was midnight.  Samir & his dad went to TX for a week. At 6:30 taking the blue van dropped them to Perryville, they will take Amtrak to Baltimore airport & come back before Samir’s dad's 16th birthday. My life began alone at south gate for the next 10 days. Calling Samir every night every day early morning going out for fresh air for 15 minutes. weather was good temperature at 90s..Bp 164/105 when it went up took 100 mg Losartan to brought down the pressure. Naproxen for arm pain. My joint pain aggravates in the cold. Samir & his dad reached Baltimore airport then with rent cart came back to Newark DE. Next day rent car was returned  back next to BJ's to the car rental agency. Made one online purchase but the wrong parts from the sewing company came to me, made another order for the right part with shipping handling. After 5 days the package came by DHL after installing the part, sewing machine was working fine. 9 o’clock in the morning went to westside health center for fasting blood, made another appointment for tooth abscess, nurse gave pain killer & antibiotic ampicillin. went to Kirkwood Walmart for the medicine got only 3 days' supply. Taking antibiotic for 3 days only (which should be for 7- 10 days course), Abscess shrunk only 50%. made another appointment with west side health center this time I had to make appointment with registered nurse for another 2 days antibiotic course altogether 3 plus 2 equals 5 days coarse, but antibiotic should be for 7 - 10 days.  Took Samir's routine brace check at Middletown dental clinic. Samir's dad went to NY came back early morning. Eid Ul Adha at ISD went they're at 6 am to catch the first salah. Spent most uneventful day only few people showed up. Most of the moosolese were still sleeping or getting ready for 2nd salah. While going to drop the library books I borrowed the black car came to complete stop near TD bank parking  space it was making peculiar sound, called my partner, with some help black car towed back to South gate parking lot. My partner went to NY with Glasgow family came back at 4 am. Dropped Samir to his friend’s house at paper mill rd. Samir's fall break began. Brother-in-law came for 1 week -  his 1st visit.  Pizza for dinner. Dropped brother-in-law to Baltimore airport, on the way stopped at fall fair took some snaps. 1 foot long Sub-Sandwich for $6 halved it for Samir.  Gloomy weather continued for 1 week. Samir’s school closed for expelling a teacher when it was student’s fault. Samir came back with hot dog outfit from  school party. Samir went to Middletown to play with Indian boys (new friend).  the only way to win with a toxic person is, not to play. Leave their playgrounds.Halloween fairHalloween fair with middle town white boys. Samir went to a Halloween fair with his friends waiting for his turn- $10 ticket fair. On my way back home, crossing this newly built Summit bridge new car brake for the black car. Dropped my partner to Philly airport he was going to Miami, took Samir to Glasgow to play with the boys. Went to Philly airport  at 10 am missed the airport exit, crossed the bride heading 95 N turned back taking 95 S, cursing all the way  looking for Philly airport when almost reaching arrival lounge Samir's dad was waiting in the departure lounge (wrong lounge but he found it was less crowded  - what a day!  Brother in law's 2nd visit- Home Depot for appliance, fried chicken for launch Chinese after Jumma. BWI to drop Brother-in-law Black car went back to Kia Sedona for inspection.  Brought back the car from Toyota dealer. both of the cars got filled up the gas full tank car wash for blue van. Grocery from Farmer market. Went to  Federal office in new castle My partner going to  Bangladesh for 3 weeks- 2nd time this time. 1st of Nov - 27th Nov, he took the rent car to NY from JFK airport plane was delayed 3 hours. Dropped Samir  to his school. Took him to Main Street, to meet his friends were waiting for him. Election day. Black car was heating up again. while pouring the water with a 1-gallon container some water with a sudden jerk spilled on my face but the water was not hot marrow escape from fetal consequences!  same problem I had even after placing the new $400 big radiator car was behaving the same. Veteran day holiday, took Samir to Jumma after school, sleeping all day. cooked goat meat & polao for my son - special treat from mama. Music concert in Newark high school for Samir. Dropped him to Glasgow to play he went to Applebee's with the boys, picked him at 10 pm dropped him to soccer ball court at Main street at 11 am, weather was very windy & cloudy bought him back at 5 pm. Next day took Samir to Elkton health center for his physical checkup. from there took him to mall for soaks, a green hoodie for school. sports. thanksgiving holidays started. Chicken Roast & polao for dinner. Dropped him to UD tennis court. Hockessin limestone rd.  Samir's dad’s plane landed in NY He came back with a rent car at 11 pm. I am with heavy period with menopausal symptoms. Samir's after school activity everyday even in harsh cold weather. My son again went to Middletown Halloween fair from 6 pm to 11 pm.  dropped him to the library. We saw police car blocking on the way, cars were turning back & media people with big camera.  Brother-in-law 3rd visit for 1 week. -  went to Baltimore airport. Brother-in-law 5th visit sandwiches for breakfast. My partner with Brother-in-law moving together.  

Samir went to Gettysburg high school from his school. Went to Chinese dentist at people's plaza for antibiotic, got it from rite aid. erythromycin. Hibachi grill  treat after that brother-in-law left from Philly airport. Indian family leaving at Elkton, son went to jail for theft seeking help. Windy weather extremely cold. Samir came back from Hockessin sports also went to Glasgow in-door play. I am on internet all day. went to DMV at 11 am with blue van following the white car for vehicle inspection certificate. Got temporary it for 1 month. Amma called wishing me on my birthday as always reminding me how old I am. Christmas holiday started heavy period. Samir went to May flower restaurant with boys at Main Street. In a cloudy day Samir went to Chinatown in Philly from his school. Making a home pant for Samir for sleeping time. Singer George Michael died at 53. My partner's brother's 6th visits for 1 week in Jan dropped him at Philly airport. Sometimes you have to accept truth & stop wasting time on the wrong people.

2017 Samir is in 11th grade , 16 yrs old in charter school 
Started writing on the website, collecting all the articles from the Facebook when their note app was deleted. Lost my ATM card in New Year’s Eve. Looked everywhere, next day went to the bank,  told them about my lost card & called customer service. Bank representative cancelled my card & told me, the new card will be sent to my mailing address within 5 business days which will be automatically activated after using the card on the ATM machine. Samir's dental apt  was at Middletown. Taking the blue van went to Dover to a Indian family house (wrong time for visit).  No news from health insurance company. Samir went to Philly by bus.  He went to friend's house in  paper mill rd it was near Pennsylvania border. Samir's dad was going to Texas for 5 days from Baltimore airport driving in slow speed 60/m/hr. Black car for Samir's school only right side under the car was broken, drives 40/m/hr. Dropped Samir to paper mill rd taking the blue van to his friend's house at night, rain & cold made my driving  difficult - couldn't find the entrance for housing society  - the sign board was missing;  when I went again to pick him up. I was running out of gas . Cashed  some money from ATM machine from Rite aid gas station, filled the gas tank then I saw a girl driving a car ahead  of me. I asked her to help me showing the address, she told me to follow her car;  soon  found my way to housing complex   sign was on the opposite side, found Samir's friends  house , came back  with Samir to the apt at 11 pm. He went to movie with Glasgow boys next day. Deposited money from Wells Fargo to TD bank, balance was now $800. this money will be given to Samir on his 18th birthday as a gift from me. My partner went to a funeral at Kirkwood, went  to sew & vac near Marshall bought rolled hem foot by $12 for Kenmore sewing machine. Dropped him to  his sports activity soccer field. Went to Baltimore- Washington Intl airport for Brother in law on the way we had sub sandwich. Samir went to Ben's house at paper mill rd. Samir's uncle's arrival -6th visit for 1 week. BP meds works for me. Went to car repair store at Bear, working on a bed sheet -more embroidery work.  On 20th Trump took the presidency in USA. BWI airport to drop Samir's uncle . A letter came from social service for case hearing for health insurance. Went Baltimore state building, paying the $8 toll, on the way picked Samir from his school. Call from Dhaka.

Naim's marriage in Dhaka. Samir's dental appointment, on the way went to DMV for vehicle inspection certificate. Samir's school was closed due to snow emergency. Looking for Samir's school. Windy & snow picked Samir from YMCA working on the fabric- waistcoat. went to law office near ACME. Samir's dad went to DC came for 1 hr  to the apt on his way then went to NY, next day he returned back. Returned the library books. My period started, heavy bleeding menorrhagia , my abnormal apatite stopped probably for the vitamins I was taking. Bought a big grey handbag from  Boscov, good for stocking. Took Samir to ISD for Jumma, went to Ross for Samir's summer dress. sports good from Dicks -spiky running shoes. Moving around for Samir stationary cloths, Samir’s school pants, shoes.  I quarreled with Samir's dad &  talked to the  police,  that he  should stay somewhere else this time. Samir's dad was coming & going. Both went to NY. Bought sewing mat $30 from Walmart. Belal called from London. Went to Baltimore with Samir's dad, picked Samir on the way,  it was snowing. Samir went to friends at route 40 Middletown dental center for Samir’s monthly check up for braces, TD bank, post office, ShopRite, ice was blocking the cars to move, difficult to drive out from the parking lot. Samir's dad went to DC. $20 from Wells Fargo bought fabrics & refund the money back to bank.  Baltimore trip. Samir went to Mall to watch movie. Went to pick Samir from St Mark's school, he was going for sports event. Samir's dad was going to Florida for 5 days 3 pm flight Bought a new charger for cell ph dropped him to Philly airport for 1-2 -3- 4-5 days,  again went to Philly airport, on the way went to Kirkwood Walmart, Bear Walmart, car-dealer for oil change. Dropped Samir to Middletown high school at 11 am & picked him at at 6 pm. Weather was cloudy small drizzle of rain fall, took some snaps. Fixed Samir school pants always ripping in the waist area, poor quality fabric. went to Philly downtown at 3pm - it was raining heavily. Caravel school for Samir for sports. Sick since yesterday.  Belal called Samir was coughing after sports. High school sports event spring break started. Samir went to Main street at 11 am came back at night masjid youth club, Baltimore trip was canceled. Glasgow for Samir returned back at 5 pm. Samir went to Fairfax sports activity rain all day Samir's dad went to Baltimore then NY came back mid night 80 degrees F outside, early  school's early. Brother in law  was back again, coffee  & doughnuts from Dinkins. Samir's school started after the spring break.  Amma called from Dhaka, bought a looking mirror $20  from the mall after breaking the previous one. Samir’s race track at Dupont School at Fairfax  He won a medal,  Then he went to Alpha party at Elkton. My arm pain, can't sleep headache, u tubing, took 100mg pressure med another 50 mg, my pressure was high for 2 days, picked Samir's dad came from car dealer at Main St. Toothache was terrible all night called the dentist at people's plaza at 4 pm got the prescription meds from Rite aid, Amoxicillin 750 mg BID for 10 days. dressed up for Baltimore & the trip was canceled, took the white car to Christiana hospital library at 2 pm looking for the parking space hard to find, new building constructions which was  going on, then went to pick Samir from school He took the bus home. bought a book on Parkinson's Disease from the library. Towson , roadblock on I 95. On the way federal building, sandwich for lunch. Baltimore next day brief stroll at the fair on the way, 90 degree F. Samir's dental apt. Samir's dc field trip . Bathroom sink was blocked, Plummer came & fixed it. Ben's house at paper mill for Samir. Samir's dad bought food from masjid. Bought fabric from Elkton Walmart, sewing the blue dress. Belal called. Dropped Samir to Caravel school. Banquet invitation from ISD , Iftar at itna center . Ramadan started, went to masjid in the evening food was coming from masjid . Samir's last 10 days in 10th grade. Heat was too much. Samir's after taraweeh came at midnight. My partner went to NJ, temp at 90's Samir started his driving lesson class in school. Also driving in the street with the instructor. Belal called from London. Sewing the blue dress, bought a blue shoe for the dress by 18 $. Samir was going to Smyrna taking I 95 for driving lesson was cancelled for bad weather. Eid ul Fitr was at Atna, early morning greetings ended at 9 am. Samir's dad & Samir went to Samir's tall cousin's marriage with  a Chinese girl in the masjid in Virginia. Night 1. spending alone in apt. Night 2. cleaning the apt, sun drying Samir's cloths, little rain for relief, went out for a ride, dropped the book on Parkinson's to the library. Night 3 Chinese neighbor next door left. Night 4. driving the blue van went to Walmart. Elkton, Bear. Samir &  his dad came back at 5 pm. Belal went to UK & Shakeel  in Australia news came all of sudden - big news! Firework in 4th of July. Samir's friends came, chips & cold drinks for snacks they stayed till midnight. Irregular bleeding started on 17th lasted for 2 months. Walmart for bp meds, videoing Samir's spaghetti making. Samir's Kirkwood soccer center for Samir's summer sports activity. Drop Samir to Ben's house at Main st. My partner went to NY came back at midnight. Called Belal in East London.Samir's new room 2nd room in the apt which was used for Samir's dad tax work was becoming a waste basket, horrible state with leftover food, loose papers, official letters 2 kinds of big screen computer, fax machine, 2nd phone, photocopier unused books. It turned to a beautiful single room for Samir alone for his convenience. Table with desktop computer, queen size bed with frame, closet full of clothes & shoes, some toiletries. books, comforter with decorative pillows, cabinets were occupying space letter it was thrown out in the veranda. All credit goes to me for making his new room with new look with holy Kaba picture hangs on the wall, looks much cleaner & nicer now, Sanir became the owner of this new room His dad's big pile of tax work went under the table in the living room.  Samir's room was complete Samir went to new castle soccer play took some pics at Delaware river. Ross - looking for Samir's backpack. Swimming pool was open took some snaps there too. Samir's friend came to swim. Samir's dad went to NY came back next day morning Took Samir to friend's house in old Baltimore pike & brought him back.. Samir got his driver's license from DMV. Samir's dad taking his stuff to the storage outside time to time. Samir started to drive in the street - good news. Birthday month for Samir. Fall weather started. Eid ul Adha at Chase center, maintenance from apt complex installed a new wall around the bathtub. Finishing my striped maxi.  Samir's museum visit at Fairfax. Met School friend from his school on the way drop her to her house. Belal  started  calling from East London.  He was under medication for Parkinson disease.  My both knees were very painful, can't walk. Samir's Middletown dental apt. Enrolled his name in the gym near police station. Called Rokeya fufu in NY. Florida hurricane making headline news. London train hit by bomb, went to clinic at Bear July Samir came back from Ohio trip.Cosco -big departmental store 2018 Samir was in Charter school, 17 yrs old . 

He was the only one selected from High schools in Delaware. Air flight was for 2 hours. Took private Taxi - Uber, 1 hour from airport to his destination school in Cleveland He was stuck 8 hours plus 4  total 12 hrs   his way to high school he needed police help. After he arrived, they gave him a reception only 1 student from out of the state. He got one roommate, used common bathroom; breakfast/ lunch & diner was included. All day busy, attended conference seminars till midnight. Topic was on economics & leadership one entire day at amusement park with roller coaster rides, another day 1 hr drive for visiting Lake Erie; came back with souvenirs, memories & good experiences. Samir's dad was cleaning his mess for month long, more unwanted stuff got in. Amma called. Samir got a new Piano from online purchase. $130 playing it on his room. he lost it when he came back from Emory for covid. Baltimore trip. Things are disappearing from the apt in alarming rate also theft by the weird neighbors specially food items.  Samir & his dad went to a Bengali wedding in Baltimore came back at midnight Dropping Samir to Ben's house. Shakeel was going to Australia with scholarship with accommodation.  Samir's school was closed for  fall vacation, practicing piano all day.  Walmart fabric for $5 calling Florida to the dentist Aziz found him still working. Miami Dade public library, pine bark condominium, Miami university Miami masjid in north Miami familiarizing the old Miami again. My partner went to the dentist. Dropped Samir to Ben's house. Samir's dad went to Florida thru/fir/sat/sun. driving him to Philly airport at 7pm. came back at 10 bought taco, chicken spaghetti for lunch Jumma for Samir. He went to stadium for voluntary work. his’s school program to Townsend Dover.  started at 8 - 5 pm tired slept till 9 in the morning Philly airport for Samir's dad at 9 p.m. leaving Samir sleeping in the apt. He went to school driving. bought a red glove from the store. Samir's after school conference till 5 pm. Shakeel called from Dallas airport. visiting for the 5 days in USA now going back to Australia. Elkton Walmart for half a yard for fabric. early morning went to Wilmington chase center for Samir - walk for Alzheimer's pt. came back at 4:30 p.m.   Samir's school friends came & had pizza in his room. My partner returned the new dining set - invisible ghoosh. Samir has dark lines in his face. putting ointments. Hena fufu is sick. Finally, Samir's braces have been taken out after 2 years. Samir's 200 meter race on Dupont high school , he won the 3rd price came with a copper medal. Halloween party at Lawson's house. Concert in the stadium. Samir went there as a voluntary worker, trip back to her home . Dentist's apt at Middletown picked Samir from his school, we had Arby's Vanilla smoothie on the way. Samir's race tracking in school. Samir went to Red Lobster with his dad. Mechanic is fixing the bathroom leak. Hena phupu died in NY. She was suffering from colon cancer. Samir went to a friend's house near summit bridge. Hundreds of mosquitos are attacking the apt they are coming through any outlet window, veranda, people working on the roof for new installation to stop leaking water. Samir went to Bob carpenter center at noon selling burger at McDonalds voluntary work at food court near BJs. Belal called. Cloudy weather toilet stopped flushing. I have pain in the stomach. Samir's thanksgiving holiday started Samir jogging near the neighborhood looking half pant for Samir in J C penny & Marshal. Amma called in the morning my stomach hurts. My partner going to Baltimore airport to Fl for 5 days taking Perryville train Samir missed his bus, dropped him to his school, $10 deposited in Wells Fargo. Charter school was not in the elkton police zone, only the gas station nearest was the dividing line( Mason dixon line) between MD & Delaware.  After picking Samir from his school, that day Samir was driving the car in Elkton rd, we crossed one intersection near ACME, turned east  near Christiana park way , entered  two lane rd going east, After when  we reached the  intersection near the nursery on the right, to take the jungle narrowed rd on the left,  we  narrowly escaped  head-to-head collision for few seconds with a 18-wheeler Canadian truck. All the way I cursed him for not stopping at intersection & not following the road rules to wait . I. called the police they came at night to see Samir. I told him he is only 16 years old, but the truck should be slowing down when he saw Samir turning left to to take internal rd  but speed up but in the driving in the  No truck zone even when he saw the kid made a hasty turn. After the event I saw that truck several times in route 896 buy hr was driving fine. Took Samir to Dover 1 hour drive for 4 hours, bought some donuts on the way, came back before dark. Samir went to Stadium for voluntary work. Dropped Samir to his school.  School bus driver was sick Bus, he couldn't come. Took Samir to St Mark high school for math competition. Samir came back from school at 4. Took 20 $ bill from Wells Fargo for emergency, drove to Perryville with Samir, picked my partner from the railway station. Samir managed to get back his license back. From wall mart bought some fabric & a measuring scale. Sewing the green bag. water bottle cover Samir went to the hokey stadium behind the stadium behind the car dealer center. went to smile center for retainer at 9 am snowing for 1st time of the year.  Went to the Dentist at Glasgow for antibiotic Amoxicillin for 10 days west-side apt for Seborrheic dermatitis in my scalp need prescription shampoo Ketoconazole got it from rite aid got a pair of earring Samir's friend. ISD Imam went to BD for Rohingya issue. My partner went to dentist for dental cleaning. Amma called wishing me on my birthday. Samir Christmas holiday from 22nd Dec - 2nd Jan food was served Christmas party near Ben's house. Snowing temp below zero Sometimes God sends an ex back into your life to see if you're still stupid. 

2018 Samir is 17 yrs old -12th grade in charter school 

Jan Feb  Snow & cold everywhere. Temperature  is at 19 degrees F, 1st day 11th grade in charter school for Samir. For inclement weather school was closed, 22 mph wind. Samir's dad brought viral fever, coughing badly. Ben's house for Samir. At 6 am early morning school bus will take Samir & his classmates to Pennsylvania for indoor track. My flu got really bad, blocked nose, sneezing, taking 6 hourly vit C contentiously for 7 days, my stool got  excess bile product, cutting down vit C 2 tab a day, avoiding antibiotic. Samir went to stadium for voluntary work. Shakeel is in Dhaka. Ali mama Moinul & Shahnaz also. Shoprite halal chicken tasted bad, but Samir liked it. Downloaded free movie maker. recovering from flue. Someone's funeral in the masjid. Samir's dad went to TX, bought grocery for 5 days with full tank gas in the white car. I had fever blowing my nose. Checked Samir's dad's flight on time departure from Philly airport. $10 deposited in the bank. Dropped Samir to his school cleaned the apt as usual, cooked spaghetti & beans for Samir. Went out to pick up Samir at 4:30 from school. After school outdoor activity, chilling cold outside made me really angry, they will make my son sick. Called the school office. School bus stopped coming to the usual spot waiting near the stadium parking lot.  E-mailed the school principal for not letting school kids go out in the cold for outdoor tracking in this chilling cold. Also wearing thin shorts without any warm clothes on - it's a torture & will be a long health issue. Prepared tuna & chickpea pulao for dinner. Sunny day- bus stopped at 7: 15 following the bus dropped Samir to his school. Chicken for dinners for Samir. Took Samir to indoor sports in Wilmington at 11a m brought him back at 5 pm. All night till 6 am awake. 2 white boys came at 1:30 am from school to do homework with Samir. Dropped Samir to Yusuf's house near Baltimore pike. Cleaned the windshield with a piece of cloth for snow & rain went again to pick Samir up. Temperature went up during the day. Went to Philly airport to pick Samir's dad. caught in the bad weather. He had a bumpy ride on air for 40 minutes, had coffee & donuts on the way back at Donkin'sSamir's workshop on the car - 2018 I had extremely bad throat, taking ibuprofen. Coach instructor told us Samir had swollen & tender knee. needs to see an orthopedic. His outdoor activity was canceled. Shakeel went back to Australia. sleeping all day with fever stuffy nose & coughing. ketoconazole shampoo for fungal infection on my scalp. Still itchy. Samir's friends came with pizza. Sewing a new dress. My flue was receding. Samir went to a party at route 40. Repeated dental pain came back. Still in the bed sleeping. Jaw was badly swollen. Cardiac symptoms in my chest coming & going. We went to Bear Walmart for oil change. Costco sale was going on didn't buy anything. Belal called from Uk. utubing. Samir's dad brought the virus. again pain & cough successfully transferred the virus to me. School function after school for Samir. He went to main street for lunch with friends came back at 11 pm. Sewing the old green dress which I bought  from middle eastern market long time ago. Samir went to UD tour came back walking after 4 hours. Went to Costco for limited time. Samir friends came over arranged some food for the boys. Looking for the car battery in Kirkwood. Samir's  dad went to court house early morning came back 5 pm. Another court experience in Wilmington with formal dress. 2nd day higher court dinner after court, waiting outside for him in the car. Samir went to Dover at 11 am from school. Weather became extremely bad, storm windy 30 mph, hair cut for Samir, dropped him at Kumon to his tutoring class teaching small kids. He got $66 -deposited in the bank i.e 2 weeks wages. Samir's dad driving the blue van following him I drove the white car went to masjid. Took the white car to dealer. Coffee near Christiana hospital  -was our usUal treat for a while, then Bear Walmart for engine oil. Samir's dad took the black car to the gas station near ACME, to check the break I drove the blue van back to the apt. Later Samir's dad brought black car back. Maintaining 3 cars making the white car is drivable for Samir which was parked at complex parking lot for few years, had to clean inside & out. As Samir was in 12th grade he will be allowed to drive on August. Samir school was delayed for 2 hours for the snow. Walmart - Elkton looking for tire for the white car, found one from Glasgow. Samir went to NY came back at 2 o'clock at night, went to pick Samir from school. Samir's dad taking out unused excess stuff to the storage, organizing Samir's room. Samir's dad was going to Houston TX for 7 days, dropped Samir to his school then dropped Samir's dad to Perryville railway station. His flight to Houston from BWI at 12 noon. Cooked chicken pulao for Samir. Weather is windy & cold dropped him to Kumon at his usual time & picked him at 8 pm. Spaghetti & beans for Samir, at dinner, next day chicken &  rice. Went to TD bank to deposit his tuition wage. 7 $ an hour for 3 hours teaching math  kindergarten kids after school toast for breakfast. Next day peanut butter jelly sandwich. Samir school was closed for snow emergency yesterday they had early dismissal Took Samir to Jumma.  Samir 's dad came back- Aldy's smoothly was on sale.

My kitchen in DE apt March My period continued for 1 week. Took Samir to 8:30 class in the morning, picked him at 12:30 then dropped him to Nolen's house. Samir's dad came back from TX, he went to somebody's Kulkhani. Made apt with orthopedic doctor for Samir, he had difficulty in running. On the way to Elkton smoke came out from one the houses in the community in Glasgow, fixed the white car wiper. Arby's vanilla smoothie on sale again. Waited outside in the car, Bear cardiac walked -in  center. At 10 pm picked Samir for Kumon. For blue van looking for car battery going to-from bear Walmart. Samir's dad  called the manager after having a dispute with the return policy with the salesperson.  While returning the used battery it was credited if new battery was bought from Walmart. Salesperson refused to give credit. The manager came for a brief period, heated quarrel was going on; we came out without buying any new battery. Near Royal farm car heated up needed 1 gallon water. Later I came to know  there was only one battery for blue van & black car Only.  we have to pick which car we are using, black car in parking place, when blue van we used  was working fine. Samir went with Samir's dad to TD bank to deposit tuition salary. Made 2 pillow case for Samir's bed. Samir missed Kumon class went to Atna in Baltimore with the Glasgow boys came back next day at 5 in the morning.

April  Belal called from London, video chat with Shakeel in Australia. Samir's spring break. Busy with household cleaning. Samir's Kumon tutoring class. Dropped him at 3:30 & picked him after 2 hours. His supervisor was visiting Dubai. Samir got busy with white car washing & cleaning. Samir's painful ankle needed X ray. Took Samir to Kumon ar 8 in the morning. Went to Giant, picked him at 12 pm from $ store next to Kumon. He went to Newark library. His friends came over, had pizza. left at 9 pm. Samir & his dad was busy cleaning the car. South gate rent office changed our door lock. New Ac on the top floor. maintenance work was going on, putting a ladder outside. Samir's sat exam. looking at Dick's/ JCPenney & Ross for Samir's sports wear. Claymont high school for Samir's sports activity. After school party with formal dress code. Samir's school prom day rented tuxedo for $ 50 for 1 day. Early dismissal from school. Yousuf's house party. Came back at 2 am. Samir's dad was working on annual tax return for Samir's computer. Made a big bag / small bag for water bottle with fabric. Kirkwood Walmart for black battery. Bear Walmart bought a cupcake tray from $ store. Caravel racing competition for Samir, picked him at 5 pm. Caravel race-tracking. Samir started learning to drive. Samir's dad was going to Chicago for 7 days. departure from Philly airport. Dover from school competition, came back at 7 pm. blue van needed jump start. Kumon 8:30 - 12 :30pm noodles & beans for dinner. Next day dal fish kabab for dinner for Samir.

May Samir took the white car, driving the black van, the car needed jump start, after returning the torn shoe, which was from Ross.  Samir's dad went to Philly airport on the way I was caught into traffic jam, then I notice Samir's dad didn't shut the trunk door & door was only hooked with  the car, I was driving in I 95 speeding 65 m/hr  and the hood was making sound from the back, came back to the apt, within half an hour got ready to pick Samir from Kumon, in the parking lot when I tried to back the car but couldn't move, the steering was locked. probably the antilock was active because the trunk was not properly shut & the force of air was passed through from the back of the car. I  couldn't drive the blue van because battery was not working. needed jump start.  Suddenly a black guy in the complex was going somewhere I asked him for help. He saw car but couldn't do anything, he left. I called my son told him I can't pick him up, he told me he will get a ride back to apt, at 8:30 pm Samir came to the apt, all the time I was worried how I will manage without a car Samir went to school by bus Samir's  dad came back from this trip from Philly airport to Newark by train. Samir 6 days trip to Taxes from school. Since morning he was organizing his stuff for TX trip. Some biscuits if he gets hungry between mealtimes. Samir went to school only 15 of his classmates selected in this trip out of the rest of his classmate, the shutter bus took them to Philly airport, plane flew at 2:30 pm 3 hours flight reached TX at 5 pm 1 hr behind east coast, from Dallas airport for a  week went to big 5-star hotel - 3 students for 1 room with breakfast lunch & dinner in between conference. Water park eating out & lots of fun. We spoke on the phone every day. Samir informed he was doing fine when he was not reachable on the ph, called Ben, Calab & Nolen.

June Eid ul Fitr was on 15th. Kumon at 8:30. Belal started calling from UK installed WhatsApp. Shakeel called from Australia. last 7 days of Ramadan. Samir & Samir's dad came back after Sahari. New castle federal office, railway station downtown with Samir's dad took some snaps. Eid ul Fitr at Bob carpenter center. Aldy for grocery. Samir went o Zaid Belal 's house.  Went early morning  at 5 am to drop Samir & his dad to departure lounge, they are going to Miami- by frontier airlines for 5 days. $10 deposited in the bank came back to the apt.  My single life began in Newark DE. Heat was increasing 90 degrees outside. working on FB. watching NHK on TV. Samir cancelled his coming back alone both Samir's dad by spirit airlines. At 2pm Samir's dad's cousin Hira died  of colon cancer. - breaking news. Bought some grocery from Elkton & Shop rite. Christiana library for 1 hour, at 1 pm went to Philly airport at  3:45 half an hour delay Samir & his dad showed up, drove back to the apt after weeklong visit to Miami. Salim bhai Makhan phupus son died in Chittagong. Samir went to Dover beach with Glasgow boys.

Coming back from Ohio trip

July Samir came back from Ohio trip. He was the only one selected from High schools in Delaware. Air flight was for 2 hours.  He took private Taxi - Uber, 1 hour from airport to his destination school in Cleveland. He got one roommate, used common bathroom; breakfast/ lunch & diner was included. All day busy, attended conference, seminars till midnight. Topic was on economics & leadership one entire day at amusement park with roller coaster rides, another day 1 hr drive for visiting Lake Erie; came back with souvenirs, memories & good experiences.
Samir was going to Ohio from Philly airport (AA) coming back after 7 days. Took Samir to Philly airport at 8:30, After waiting for some time we went to downtown Philly, had coffee at Dunkins; then returned back when we heard the plane left Philadelphia. His first flight was delayed for half an hour, Samir reached Cleveland Ohio safely, couldn't find any schoolboys in the airport to receive him, some students were coming from other state didn't show up also! 100 degrees F outside. Samir was courageous enough to hire the local taxi, the Spanish driver got lost, he was in the street 12 hours & in the police station 2 hours, they contacted  with the school, they acknowledged Samir supposed to be a student from DE coming that day. Soon the taxi took him to the school, again 1 hr for traffic jam reached there at 6 pm in the evening. Samir got a room with another senior roommate, talking on the ph in low voice with us - his first dorm experience. Next day food in the dining area with other students, he spent the day at amusement park in Ohio, big meeting place with he students as he was  the only students from the state of DE. One day conference. meeting all the students welcoming Samir, no sound from MD cousin, 5 days in a row. 3 other people who knows about Samir's Ohio visit. 4th of July firework without Samir. Called Amma & Belal.  Went out at 11 am had coffee then to Philly airport plane landed on time for Samir. He returned back to DE safe & sound, he came out alone at the arrival lounge, Samir back to his room. Black car is leaking, heated up quickly, looking for the car mechanic - an Afghani wasn't at his work.  Shakeel was going back to Bangladesh. YMCA Glasgow for Samir started swimming . Kumon for his monthly check. Samir went to Glasgow party, party continued till midnight. Samir got restricted driving privilege from school till midnights, after midnight he can't drive alone. drove him back to apt. Nolen house next day.  Black car was heated up black  with the mechanic. getting fixed. Writing on coffee on FB. Caleb's house for Samir. YMCA for Samir, dentist appointment in Dover. Fall weather was getting cooler, table fan worked fine me. Samir's new room needed cleaning up. All the content in the cabinet was going to storage, his room looked much roomier. All the trash gone out from Samir room. Samir's dad carried  trash to the car & put them to storage. 

August Samir's birthday month,  he turned 17, will be going 12th at end of the month. Khaki pants for school. Samir's dad went to Miami for 7 days. 10 $ before he left. dropped him to Philly airport. at  6:30 pm. Samir slept till 11 am. Job Interview in the municipal building at 12 pm called the maintenance for bathroom & kitchen faucet. Samir went to YMCA next day he went to masjid then mall with masjid boys, he was walking for his excess fat 15 minutes' walk. YMCA with Glashow boys.  Intermittent raining, Samir's dad returned back from Miami, picked him from the airport. Glasgow party in Indian grill for  new baby sister arrival. Khalajan  was in US.  Eid ul Adha in the masjid. Samir & his dad went to prepare mutton curry from Qurbani meet. 1st packet was fresh, 2nd one from old stock. Belal called video chat with him. went to car mechanic. Training at municipal building for Samir, went near west park elementary school for Sat exam at Newark school it was cancelled, fall weather started. Still hot walked out for fresh air, it was getting toxic relation with Samir's dad, withdrew $100 from the bank, by Amtrak crossing philly station  went to NY came back next day in the morning. 

September Sleeping half of the day. Samir's 2nd day at 12 the grade after 3 pm he goes to west park for tutoring & look after the elementary school kids, he gets 9$/ hr for 2 hours comes back at 5 pm, took the white car to Marshal. Samir went to Glasgow at 9 pm came back at 2 am, his restriction order driving till midnight was lifted. Memorial Day holiday. School was closed for Samir, made some chicken sandwiches. Shakeel called.  Busy with internet work. Called Amma.  Samir went to Nolen's house, raining for couple of days. Organizing old stuff, went to Costco for Samir's passport photo. Romsha's wedding with Dave (Australian) went to Newark library made print out from my articles on FB, bought a tea cup for me from  the store. Samir after school coaching at west park, YMCA Gym, Samir's ph & computer went both out of order needed to be replaced. Printing more articles from the printer in the apt. New TV installed,  took the old one in my room. Brought the black car from the masjid. Samir was fasting for 10 days for Muharram, working on the black printed fabric with my old green thread cut - work on the chest became a beautiful dress, $600 computer & a new apple phone on Samir credit. Baltimore trip went to Bear Walmart for engine oil.  cake mix for Samir.  Amma called from BD, Afza mama came to in USA at Ali mama's house. 

Oct I bought some bazaar from Elkton, had a cup coffee from royal farm 16 oz. heat was at its's peak, still suffocates me, it seemed world is getting warmer each year. Samir & his dad went to fund raising dinner in the masjid. Samir had exam at school at 7 pm went to Costco for Samir for another passport photo shoot -this time a lady Cosco employee took the photo. day off for Samir from school. Went to alfa to get his health report. Samir went to school with casual dress. Samir's dad bought 55 inches TV HD, previous tv was 42 inches  computer $600. I got Samir's used apple iPhone. The food which came in the apt every now & then are- parboiled rice, halal chicken from ShopRite   (I couldn't eat) lentils 3 different kind good quality rice also I used for khichuri & polao, vegetables  were beans, tomato, bell paper, carrot celery, egg orange juice mushroom. For Samir some American food-quick n easy fries, fish stick, noodles/ beans for snacks like Crosand, bagel etc. Summer vacation from school for Samir. At night high school party, weather was getting cold. Samir filled out forms for scholarship, booklet from different university from all over USA started coming to Samir every week. Samir's dad got busy with his brother staying somewhere else. Samir went to Caleb's house came back at midnight. On FB watching reunion at SMC. Samir with dad & uncle went red lobster for lunch. Samir changed his fb account got new phone $150 apple Samir went to Chinese with Samir's dad &  looking for good university for Samir out of Fall weather has begun. 31st Halloween Delaware. 

Nov Samir's half day school off. Halloween party in the evening. I made fudge brownies. Samir spent the day with Neel in Chesapeake Bay.  Ben house Looking for car mechanic for the black car. Elkton group left Alfa their new office next to old Walmart. Belal called from UK he needed help for editing the microbiology book. Andaleeb - Gen Shafiullah uncles daughter responded. Winter weather was coming soon. Samir school was closed went to pick Samir from West park. Thanksgiving holiday. Samir goes to mentally retarded school to attend them for 2 hours their school closes when their parents picked them up. He came back without his hoodie jacket. Samir went to Glasgow thanksgiving party till mid night also to the mall came back at 2 o'clock. Spent the night with boys came back to apt at noon - had extreme fun. Couldn't turned on my computer, cleaning the window with the glass cleaner. Somebody hit the black car parked in the parking lot, flat tire with a broken bumper. 17 degrees f outside, below zero cold rain & snow. Samir's dad called the police. noted down the damage. Samir couldn't bring the jacket from elementary school. Next day. Samir brought back the hoodie, but he refuses to wear. Samir's started wearing it. looking for computer repair store in Kirkwood. She asked money for diagnosis they will charge money for fixing it. We have to pay for the repair- estimation cost plus fees for repairing the computer 35- 50$ looking at Walmart for the new computer. Lanova computer which I was currently using other one HP will cost 300 -350$ Samir went to Dover from school by bus. brought the computer back to apt, with screwdriver opened it halfway, closed with a scotch tape tied where the wire was attached to the computer, it started working. Belal was feeling better, less symptoms after the taking the meds, went to Philly airport at night to pick up TCBY & his wife, dropped them to their new apt coming from BD.Samir with Delaware friends

Dec Samir's dad went to DMV with TCBY, went to Wilmington for court appearance I was waiting in the car. Went to pick Samir from school car dealer will come see the damaged black car, they will give  us an estimation. Suddenly my ph locked was searching for Apple ID, security question  etc , even after typing my password, couldn't open my ph . Samir & his dad were going to Miami Florida for 7 days from Philly airport. Since the ph was out of order, couldn't open my google account & YouTube also, sending 2-digit authentication code number I didn't get the ph number, looking for 2nd option sent code number to my AOL email account.  first it was hard to open my  aol email because there also I had another set authentication code number, thankfully I had another email address, using it  I was supposed to get a code but still couldn't open my google account & YouTube. Nolen & friends came after I pm to Samir, went to staples for help, got my old ph sudden dropped near the mailbox one day & the screen was broken into small pieces still using the phone with 4 years back photos.  I could see the screen & take pics & make calls. Elkton doc's nephew  was getting married in NJ. Took Samir & his dad to Philly airport at 6pm $20 deposited to the bank, grocery in apt, full tank gas in the white car, some gas was there in blue van for emergency but didn't use it. My birthday my ph was dead but I can receive ph. calls, no calls from anywhere. Amma was completely quite all the time, didn't wish me as she used  she to do, went to marshal bought a water bottle for  the room. While depositing my money to my ATM card was stuck in the machine,  turned my car back to the bank to recover ATM card on the way the guy who was behind me handed me the atm card. escaped the crisis again as mind was too much touble with the complicated situation I was in.  Uneventful week. No ph calls from no one! no one knocking at the door! once a day I had 10 minutes car ride to Elkton. Everything went well went to Philly airport to pick Samir & his dad from the airport, we had coffee on the way. With welcome quarrel again they are back to Delaware. December cold. paratha dim bhagi for Samir's breakfasts Samir's dad went to nephew's wedding in NJ came back at midnight. went out for a ride with the blue van. With the unused gas went to Wilmington for ride, had dinner with readymade pack of noodles. New Year's Eve Christmas holiday Samir's friends came at midnight to celebrate 2019. Taking Samir 1 hr. drive out of town to the educational center for wildlife existence & preserve.

My partner's madness going extreme- he brought masjid-based fatwas which affected my eyes, risky right turn, risky driving sometimes risky taxing, when I am about to get down out of the car he kept the car in motion, gives me driving instruction non-stop verbal abuse  proved that he was the better driver but when I needed help at car wash, he was quiet. Throwing Clorox on my clothes when last time he went to BD was strange, showing unaccountable madness all the time inside & outside - it's time he should step down.... Never trust a person that has let you down more than two times. Once was a warning, twice was a lesson and anything more than that is simply taking advantage.

My room 2019 Samir is 18 , his legal age , after his high school graduation  2nd day after 3 pm Samir went to west park for tutoring & look after the elementary school kids, he gets 9$/ hr for 2 hours, comes back at 5 pm, took the white car to Marshal, Samir went to Glasgow at 9 pm came back at 2 am his restriction order driving was till midnight was lifted. Memorial Day holiday. School closed for Samir, made some chicken sandwiches, Shakeel called. I was  busy with internet work, called Amma. Samir went to Nolen's house. Raining for couple of days, organizing old stuff. Went to Costco for Samir's passport photo. Romsha's wedding with Dave in Australian went to Newark library, working on my articles on FB & printing remaining articles from the printer in Samir's room, bought a teacup for me from my credit. Samir got busy with  after school coaching at west park, also  YMCA Gym, Samir's ph & computer both went out of order needs to be replaced. New TV was installed, took the old one in my room. Brought  back the black car from the masjid. Samir was fasting for 10 days for Muharram. Working on the black printed fabric with my old green thread  patch- work on the chest, it came out to be a beautiful dress. $600 computer & a new apple phone on Samir's credit.  Baltimore trip, went to Bear Walmart for engine oil. cake mix for Samir. Amma called from BD, Afza mama came to USA after Munna Khala left Ali mama's place. Bought some bazaar from Elkton, I had a cup coffee from royal farm 16 oz. heat was at its peak, still suffocating me. It seemed world was getting warmer each year. Samir & his dad went to fund raising dinner in the masjid. Samir had exam at school at 7 pm went to Costco for Samir for another passport photo, this time a lady from Costco employee took the photo. Day off for Samir from school. Went to Alfa to get his health report. Samir went to school with casual dress. My partner bought 39 inches TV HD; previous one was inches 34. Samir's computer $600, I got  his used phone (Apple) from Samir on May 2019  

Samir got a new room -the food which was coming in the apt every now & then are- parboiled rice, halal chicken from ShopRite , lentils 3 different kind good quality rice which I use for khichuri, & polao, vegetables - beans, tomato, potato, bell paper, carrot celery, eggs orange juice mushroom. For Samir some American food-quick n easy fries, fish stick, noodles/ canned beans for snacks - crossand, bagel with cream cheese etc etc. Summer vacation from school for Samir. At night high school party, weather was getting colder. Samir filled out forms for scholarship, booklet from different university from all over USA started coming to Samir, every week my partner got busy with his brother staying somewhere else. Samir went to Caleb's house came back at midnight. On FB watching reunion at SMC. Samir with his dad & uncle went to red lobster for lunch. Samir changed his fb account, got a new phone $150 (apple), he went to Chinese with uncle & his dad. Looking for good university for Samir out of Delaware. Fall weather started. Samir's half day school off. 31st Halloween.  His halloween party was in the evening. I made fudge brownie. Samir spent the day with Neel in Chesapeake Bay. Ben's house Looking for car mechanic for the black car. Elkton group left Alfa, there new office was next to near the old Walmart. Belal called from UK he needed help for editing the microbiology book. Andaleeb - Gen Shafiullah uncle's daughter responded. Winter weather coming soon. Samir school closed went to pick him from west park. Thanksgiving holy day. Samir went to mentally retarded school to attend kid for 2 hours after school until their parents picked them up. He came back without his hoodie jacket. Samir went to Glasgow for thanksgiving party will be going on till mid night also to the mall came back at 2 o'clock at night. Spent the night with boys in Glasgow came back to apt at noon - had extreme fun this time. I couldn't turned on my computer. cleaning the window with the glass cleaner.Living room DE apt Somebody hit the black car parked at the complex parking lot, got one flat tire with a broken bumper. 17 degrees f outside, below zero cold rain & snow. My partner called the police, they noted down the damage. Samir couldn't bring the jacket from elementary school. Next day he brought back the hoodie, but refuge to wear, my partner started wearing it. looking for computer repair store in Kirkwood. they asked money for diagnosis charges will be there for fixing it I have to pay for the repair. Estimation cost plus fees for repairing the computer 35- 50$ looking at Walmart's new computer. Lanova the brand name of the computer which I am currently using other one HP will cost 300 -350$ Samir went to Dover from school by bus. Brought the computer back to apt with screwdriver opened it halfway, closed with a scotch tape tied where the wire is attached to the computer, it started working. Belal is feeling better, less symptoms after the taking the meds for his Parkinson disease. Went to Philly airport at night to pick up TCBY & his wife coming from Bd, dropped them to their new apt. Samir;s dad went to DMV with TCBY,  went to Wilmington for his court appearance. Went to pick Samir from school car dealer will come see the damaged black car, will give us their estimation. Samir & his dad both are going to Miami Florida for 7 days from Philly airport. My iPhone suddenly was locked, asking for Apple ID, security questions etc. etc. even after typing my password, couldn't open my ph . My  ph is out of order. couldn't open my google account & u tube also, sending 2-digit authentication code number I didn't get the phone number, looking for 2nd option google sent code number to my AOL email account. At first it was hard to open my AOL email account because there was also another  authentication code number was required, thankfully I had one more email account, using it I was supposed to get a code, but code no was not on mail section. & u tube also. Samir came back from Nolen's house after I pm. Fake friends' Fake family Exes, Grudges, Bad habits, Anything toxic, Doubts. Samir's 12th grade graduation May 2019 

Went to staples for help for the computer. They never helped , when I bought the mouse little better quality, I paid $2 extra I found it was little smaller than the one I used to have when I came back from BD. Samir & his Dad & I started off our journey by air at 5: 30 pm driving the car taking I 95, reached Baltimore airport BWI at 1:30 am,  spring weather was  still there. One small hand luggage & my handbag was the only luggage I have in this journey. Looking for long term parking space, parked the car then took the bus straight to the airport  in the departure lounge. $ 8 per day for 3 days 3.8 = $24  for car parking .Ride was fun, full of anticipation for visiting the new state which we crossed briefly while travelling from Miami FL to NY.  We had to wait in the lounge, half an hour delays different combination of passengers waiting like us. Hooking my computer on the plug point where we were seated it took us  for a while for about half an hour. Samir was also got  busy with his computer. Mama & son sitting next to each other, apart from bumpy landing the one & half hour flight was fine. The plane landed in Atlanta we came out with  other Baltimore passengers. Looking for the bathroom. Sitting in the airport café lounge, waiting there for about an hour, ate some home - bought cookies - that's all. Through the wall-to-wall glass fitted window in the café viewing the runway, saw domestic planes landing & air crews driven back by the airport vehicle with uniform & badges. Freshen up with some lipstick, combing my hair in a bun now ready to go out to see the Beautiful city Atlanta 2019 what they had to offer us in this visit. Atlanta tour for 2 nights & 3 days. Anxious people around us. My son with his backpack only luggage he could carry for this visit also my laptop. Shuttle took us to the place where we could rent a car Lined up for rent -a- car $ 30 per day, walked for a while found the brand-new car with full tank gas. Looking for a hotel near Samir's college - but  it was wrong hotel Big 5-star hotel, $100 per night, 2 bed in one big room, attached bath, closet with ironing board, TV, cable fridge, micro-oven table for computer- work, all day AC, window with a magnificent view. Samir got busy with computer. After the journey, Samir found his time to have some quite sleeping time. hotel room with- Window with a view Next day visiting Samir's college in their sitting area. After a brief introduction about college dorm life use of library, workload & study pressure, we were sectioned into groups, our team coordinator took us  to show us around the campus. Busy college, buzzing with students - normal scenario. Knowing more about the college students from all around the world how they could engage themselves in their spare time. Star buck coffee- popular among students. $100 per night breakfast included - reception desk downtown Atlanta - looking for halal gyro drinks with refill. downtown Atlanta cloudy. 3rd day time to returned back, after checking out we returned the rent car - in the airport lounge. day shuttle ride views from the shuttle. Atlanta airport. getting our boarding pass big place in airport for shopping place, Samir was waiting with our luggage. going back to Newark DE My old ph sudden dropped near the mailbox one day & the screen was broken into pieces; I   was using the phone for 4 years took photos. I could see the screen & took photos & made calls. Elkton doc's nephew was getting married in NJ.  Samir & my partner both are going to Miami Florida for 7 days from Philly airport.  Took Samir and my partner to Philly airport at 6 pm $20 deposited to the bank, grocery in the apt, full tank gas in the white car, some gas was there in blue van for emergency but didn't use it. My ph. was dead, no call from Amma on my birthday. Went to Marshal bought an extra water bottle for me.  My ATM card was stuck in the machine when i was depositing money.  Turned my car back to the bank to recover my ATM card, on the way the guy who was behind me handed me the ATM card - escaped the crisis again. , no phone calls from no one knocking at the door.  Once a day I had 10 minutes car ride to Elkton. Everything went well went to Philly airport to pick Samir & my partner from the airport on the way we had coffee. with welcome quarrel they are back to Delaware. December cold. paratha scrambled egg for Samir's breakfast, both went to nephew's wedding in NJ came back at midnight. went out for a ride with the blue van with the unused gas went to Wilmington for ride. had dinner with readymade pack of noodles. New Year's Eve Christmas holiday Samir's friends came at midnight to celebrate 2019.Throw out your trash before 2019!!! Rumors are carried by haters, spread by fools  & accepted by idiots.

Mother & son in 2018 Our road trip to Atlanta Georgia 23rd August 2019 crossing west Virginia on a bright sunny day at 5:30 pm , by rent a car, we- Samir's dad , Samir & his uncle, our  luggage on the back of the car. I had to squeezed in with Samir with his piano, . Leaving south gate for the fast time for Atlanta Georgia.with his Piano by his side which was sliding right & left hitting us which he dares not forget along with his guitar in this trip 3 big loads of his cloths in the laundry basket on the back of the rent car left for Atlanta Georgia, AC was on so far, 14 hours journey was not so bad. Our road trip to Atlanta Georgia Birthday boy Samir was bidding his goodbye to his old place leaving behind 18 years of old memory but anxious about his new university life in Atlanta. Drowsy half of my journey but the scenic route was quite pleasant it was cloudy, a little rain was fine. We crossed Baltimore Washington DC then in Virginia we looked for Macdonald, found one, went to restroom, ordered McChicken & fries with soda that was our lunch for the day - then on our way to Atlanta. Few people but Macdonald was 24 hours open at our service. Samir seated in front switching his seat with his dad time to time, glued to his cell phone as usual. Breathtaking view-smoky blue mountain, clouds floating on the pick,   Smoky blue mountain on the way to Atlanta. Dunkin's coffee in the evening. I 85 south going parallel with I 85 north Entering Georgia, stopped at rest room & got some snacks item (puffed corn, small cone ice cream lastly coffee) for rest of the journey. Gas stations are open at midnight.  At 3:30 am we found a motel Samir & I ; One room took shower went to bed . Next day Saturday- I was amazing to see a huge welcome celebration at Emory campus, Yellow t-shirt volunteers  were actively helping the newcomers with their luggage taking it to their dorm rooms.  Bright sunny day to begin with, in a big brown box volunteers collected Samir's stuff to the Dorm. I was  waiting outside his room  looked nice with a view, bathroom facility was  in the corner of the 4th floor. Taco for lunch 3rd day Sunday -. we moved to a better hotel dropped Samir to his campus. Parents Day we went to Samir's cafeteria Parents gathered in the canteen, introducing to each other, discussing their own experiences when they were students & how they dealt with the same situation. Our hotel  one room was for me & Samir  another one for Samir 's dad & his uncle . Campus was busy with roaming security guards, guardians  & buzzing with fresh comers. We found Mcdonald's near the hotel for mc- chicken & soda.Few people at Mcdonald's, playing  familiar music, next to the hotel Tuesday Brandsmart - big retailer store looking for small fridge & microvan for Samir's dorm life. Sub- sandwich for dinner. From the hotel to Emory on the way viewing downtown Atlanta. CNN - big news building located in Atlanta, for dinner we ordered domino pizza with mushroom & olive topping better than what we had in DE $ 6 each My 4th day Wednesday , after taking a good shower with shampoo & conditioner a nice outfit I made, picked  for the day-raining on the way weather was still hot & humid. Having lunch at an Indian restaurant- Dal makhani, tandoori chickens' paneer curry, mutton, masala chickpea pulao. Bengali misty at buffet Indian Hindu style restaurant  I saw Americans black loves to eat Indian food. Brandsmart 5th day thursday  day sitting on the stairs for continuous walking all day. Same Macdonald -apple pie in the evening Only masjid we found half an hour drive, few blacks inside, inside the hotel lounge, waiting to be checked out, on  6 days in Atlanta, Samir (from Bangladesh) is sharing his room with another Indian boy, double Decker bed, a small window facing the street space for cloths & memorabilia...A study table with a chair side table AC in summer & heat for the winter a wash basin; spaces for keeping their personal stuff...both of them got busy quickly. Don’t be afraid of being outnumbered. Eagles fly alone pigeons flock together.

                                             My 1st visit at Emory university Atlanta,  

2020 Samir is 19 years old Emory university at Atlanta Georgia

Jan/ feb/march - Samir visiting his friends places, dental appointment in Middletown. Air flight information 2 luggage 44 Lb  each.  Samir is in Atlanta.   Bought a plastic container for the fridge from TJ Maxx. Fixed bed for the next room. I have 1 bed for myself another one for Samir's dad using the sofa & he got Kirkwood house for his confidence . finishing the white- ash maxi & brown maxi & the orna with mixed colors. Taking preparation for citizenship interview. It will be  on  march 10th the, Philadelphia. Bought more fabric, my eye glass is broken fixing it with crazy glue from Home Depot. Samir spent the evening with the Glasgow boys. Dental apt for Samir, dropped Samir to Nolen's house. Samir is in Emory working on the multicolor dupatta, fixed the Samir's  bed headboard & footboard &  the frame, took me more than 2 hours until I found out his room looks good that ugly dirty room converted to personal room for Samir. My citizenship exam on 20th March, sewing the brown maxi re-stitching it,  my partner went to NY came  back after 2 days, bought  lipstick matte  which was once with me in Miami '98, looking for new color. Belal went back to Sylhet, he is recovering from his illness, went to law office in 141. Bought 12X mirror, coffee from royal farm usual place. 24th apex center -  for eye glasses & prescription. Samir went back  to Atlanta & will be back on spring break in April, went to Philly airport to pick him up . Apt at INS office at 12pm Philly downtown I passed the  civic test the interviewer was the lady in Bronx lady.   Samir went back to Atlanta, dropped my partner & Samir to Philly airport, they are going together. Deposited $20 to the bank. Bought 3 outlet multiplug dim light. sewing using the sewing board with fabric.  Samir is doing online classes, working for Emory, all stores were closed for coronavirus, not going out at all. Bought a pot for boiling water from FM Samir was not going out also. Joann closes for COVID. Online purchases will be the only choice. Still weather was cold. May- trip to Atlanta compact car no credit card, unlimited mileage pays at pick up. free cancellation. Avis Budget rent a car  deal. I bought 2 pillows for Samir from walmart.  Eid Ul Fitr- unobserved for COVID. Making a website. For eye irritation taking anti Histamine from 31st June for the summer AC is on. For Delaware summer using  I use it  only for the months June July Aug. Finished my web site with photos, articles, blogs & videos.  Lubna Mahmood Chowdhury photography . Samir got busy with Nolen, Caleb & Glasgow boys. All day busy with my website building & planning, the website took almost 4 years to finish. It's almost 4 weeks- a letter came from emigration on 7th of July for my oath ceremony. Same place - Philly downtown.  We started at 9 am waiting outside in the car, went inside at 12 noon. Samir & his dad was waiting in the car outside, everything went well, there were 7 candidates for the oath - got our citizenship certificate, took picture with one of the candidates. Next day went to passport photo in Main st, filling up the form for the us passport. uploading my YouTube poetry reading  in my new website. Amma 's date of birth was corrected in her BDi passport. My the application needed 2 passport size photo fee- $150. We might have to go Philly again they will charge us double, but delivery will be quick. Newark post office took the application. Bought some colored pencil, pencil sharpener colored ball point, fitted sheet for Samir's bed. Black Kia Sedona was in the parking lot. Emory couldn't come to a decision. Students went home some were in the campus. Dhaka weather was hot & humid, 100 degrees. Fixing my website almost every day. Aug Eid ul adha-called Wells Fargo for credit card. Credit card was denied. 23rd Samir's 19th birthday in the apt.  Sep Iron tablet from Costco.  Baltimore trip on 15th. Appointment with the banker. Closed the checking account.  Returned the faulty hair band to rite aid.  Belal is back to UK. Avocado was on sale . Triple antibiotic for cutting my thumb in the kitchen again can't control theft in apt. Nov 27-3rd Dec looking for my purchase from amazon.com which never arrived surprisingly, which was a small tool $6 for the sewing machine. Cold came soon, writing the blog on rivers of Bangladesh.  Planning & drawing on my bungalow in Dhaka bd,.  My new US passport needed entry permit to the country 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22 went to Wells Fargo for card renewal. Based on my assets on BD I asked for the credit card but surprisingly it was denied! went to apple cell ph company for the sims card. Looking into my purchases in the year 18, 19, 20. Went to Cosco & mall for the ph. On 29th drawn all the money from the bank leaving some kept the account open, only saving account later reopen the checking account.  thanksgiving holiday started.  Dec- 1- 6th went for covid test with Samir was at Newcastle. I am corvid negative. Fall season still working on my bungalow planning. 27 28 29, 30 1,2, 3 looking for my online purchase did not arrive something wrong with the state of Delaware!  From the grace of God, I am fine now.

Writer is  Lubna Mahmood Chowdhury