Lubna's Diary

2021   Emory was closed for Corvid for 1 year

Philly downtown,  Brooklyn NY,  after crossing Delaware Memorial bridge toll booth ... 

Dover beach crossing the summit bridge in the mid summer in 2021

Nov found 30 $ & 4 quarters & a torn 1 $ note in Samir's room went to the bank  to deposited the money hoping I could transfer the money to his account but failed to do. Later it was back to his room. Bought fabric from Walmart for the new dress I was planning to work.  My 1st time trip  to Atlanta  GA  It took 3 days Nov 22,23.24  going, staying  for 2 nights then returning back to Newark DE. 1st day when I fixed my mind that I will have no problem if I follow the instruction went to  the library made some  print-out  for driving directions, checking the map &  from the store bought some chips, crackers, drinks, brownies for Samir. I started my journey full of anticipation.  At 11 AM   for the first  time alone to  Atlanta. Took full tank fuel near Charter school , then got down to 95 south in Elkton going straight south . From DE- at 2 o'clock  102 miles  reached Baltimore, crossed the toll, big tunnel in Chesapeake river , crossed the bridge, reached  - 1hr 45 miles to  Washington DC at 3:29 AM soon entered DC, took 295 came out from DC stopped at governors building then again found 85 south  going south 3 more stops for petrol-Alexandria,  Richmond 233 miles - Raleigh - Fayetteville at 3:31 Virginia- charlottes, north & south Carolina - at last Atlanta, then found my way to down down Atlanta. Got down for gas but gas station was closed. Started connecting with a police again found my way going south, made  a u turns to look for gas station on the other side found one, took gas but coming out  from the gas station  was not easy, couldn't find the exit then I started connecting with siri she found one internal road where I was stuck for almost 2 hours then finally found a big sign board telling me I have reached Emory university  found Publix - grocery store I used to go in Miami.  A  back girl helped me find Samir on the phone, he told me he was talking from TX &  he will come back at mid night next day, that news upsets me a lot. Waiting outside near Publix parking space, went inside nothing new bought a bowl made from maple leaf  as souvenir to take back to my place, went to the bathroom, slept in the car for few hours only for the entire night.  In the morning found a gas station for my morning ritual later I found if I am courageous enough it was better to take a motel for the night.  During the day  I was moving all day in the  campus. Finally found my way to Samir's  townhouse it was not that easy, Druid hall, their library, but couldn't find the cafeteria, ate something from Walmart. Waiting in the car  outside druid hall till midnight, finally Samir showed up. We spoke for a brief period. He took me to a cheap motel for the night location was not so right, I told him to stay for the night,  he left for his town house. He was quick to go out  instead  he was in  the Walgreen for his for meds. Took shower bed sheets wasn't fresh.  Early morning got ready for Samir, he came  to the moteI took my  personal belongings & followed his car to his university  with sad mood bidding goodbye to each other, then started heading north taking 85 north. Journey was long but not much tiring, finally  same way taking 495 in DC  &  295 entrée to  DC. It  was getting dark & I was tired so took 95 north  was showing  found a dark area for the gas station, then  started going back to  DE.  At Baltimore came down, it was passed midnight,  got down saw multiple gas station all closed no one inside. The area was not so  good- crime zone, saw one gas station when made u turn, there  lights are on , inside there  was a man he opened  the gas  station for me , a black guy was standing near the gas pump, asked  me for money, I gave him a banana & some money, he helped me fill the gas tank full, again I started to drive came back  to 95 North,  crossed the tunnel & the bridge & the toll . On the way , there was  road construction halfway, finally entered Elkton & came back Newark DE.  After few days I got busy with Newark DE life alone. Samir dad didn't returned , probably he was at his sister's place in Gainesville in FL.

Emory University of Atlanta Georgia 

Samir's dad  came one day checked the car, told me to change the engine oil from  Walmart, next day  I went to Walmart alone; there  walmart employee changed  the oil I found the car had better engine sound when I was driving back to the apt.  Next day at 5 pm took the car to Elkton gas station near Samir's charters school, car was making weird sound when I reached Wawa gas station, paid for the gas, filled the tank  &  about to drive out, a black guy probably a big  truck driver yelled at me - you've a flat tire!  got out from the car & found it was true . I told him if he could help me, for that I gave him one sandwich & a drink.  With the tool box from the back of the car, unscrewing  the nuts &  bolts, took out flat tire.  Instead of  fixing it with spare tire , he told me if I am interested he will  look for a  new, also told to  find a brand new tire in DE tire store . As I didn't have any other option I agreed.  I was seated next seat  to him in his personal car we drove  back to DE. He looked at Goodrich- next to south gate, not much luck, also  went to  other stores for new tires  where Samir's dad used to take me, I was feeling  uncomfortable. it was 40 minutes  I told him to drop me to Wawa station. He didn't have much choice but dropped me &  left. I cleaned up the mess locked the car I saw the Elkton bus stop waited there, it was cold , time  7 pm. The Dart bus  came on time, made a big round  to Elkton Walmart, went near People's plaza , crossing ShopRite & then dropped me at South gate. Next day  in the afternoon  while I taking shower, Samir's dad  called me & told  me to ask the  Afghani neighbor next door for help  who drives an old car -agreed ( flat tire was their creation !) He took me to the  same Wawa store where I left the car with unfinished work, the spare tire was out next to the car, he called for help from the masjid, 2 Afghani guy came  for help they  quick-fixed the tire &  left.  Afghani started to drive back to apartment complex I followed  his car with my white car. At least the problem was solved for that day. Next day I again went to Elkton for the used tire, after waiting for 1 hour outside a  Paki  guy appeared,  he brought a used  tire from his stock, replaced the spare tire  to  used tire, paid for the tire - 30 bucks, came back to the apt. Next few days I was busy with grocery going to Kirkwood  to check how Samir's dad was settled in his new house in  Kirkwood, but couldn't locate the house. Went couple of times on  route 896 for fuel,  bought a gas container for reserve petrol for emergency, some drinks I was quite known to them as driving  White Kya Honda alone.                                                 On 6th Nov 2021  I was  going for the gas in Glasgow (where there was  more option to check the tire air pressure in route 896), Dunkins  was coming ahead, I changed my mind, slowly changed the lane to check the gas station I left behind. Suddenly the car behind me was too close, hit my car  on the right side with a big  bang ( 1st time in my driving history). I slowed  the car , moved to the nearest dunlins & parked the car. After half an hour the car  who hit  my car  showed up, parked his car  behind me. I got out checked my car also his car, a guy from Trinidad was in the driving seat with his plastered  fractured leg . My car got a big bump on the back & rear left bulb was smashed by the hit ; his car  had some scratches on the  front bumper. I called  the police, after a while 2 police officers came, checked both  the cars & wrote his report, checked my driving license & insurance card. Police told us  as soon we will  get the  notice for court appearance for the hit we should  pay their charges, there was no property damage. Later the bill came  to me $300  which I had to pay from my servings. I went to Walmart, I found out the entire rear bulb on the left side came out from it's socket, I found crazy sticky tape bought from  Walmart,  tapped around the rear bulb  which was holding the  bulb  tightly for 2 years . 

Samir's townhouse in Atlanta Georgia for his Emory education 

My 2nd trip to Atlanta Georgia on Dec 15 after 26 days  In the morning went to same gas station for fuel, took full tank gas $35, at 11am started my journey to Atlanta for the second time to see my son and also if needed I will bring him back home;  this time taking route 13 in Dover I drove heading south, at 2 pm police stopped me for over speeding 10 mi/hr more than the posted speed, at around 2:30 pm crossed the  Dover bridge (still under construction), 2 tunnels  in the Atlantic ocean Eastern side of USA, took 1 & an half hour to cross, it was as big as San Francisco bridge. From the end point of dover where it connects  again  somewhere in eastern side of Virginia.  After reaching the other side of the bridge following the same route 13 which took me to 85 south at Richmond.  All night I drove, taking petrol several times stopping at the gas stations, there was road construction going on 85 south , there was no big rest area, where I could stop & take a short nap , going to a cheap motel alone was not possible for me, sleep & drowsiness' was making me crazy, I took short naps stopping the car for 20 minutes on my way, finally reached Atlanta early in the morning, my cell phone map quest was giving me the direction I was fine;  when I was about to enter  Emory university I took the wrong turn - to the opposite way to opposite direction -another 2 hours  moving toward  downtown Atlanta, looking for how to get down  when I found myself I was lost again going back home.  I took the city road . It was still dark early morning , stopped at gas station I asked  behind the counter there was an Indian guy  how to go Emory ! He couldn't help . Then  I called the police, a big police surgeon & 2 young  police officer helped me fixing siri on my cell phone giving me instructions . Police told me to follow the instruction it will take me to  Emory university. That was internal road, police way-  making frequent right & left turns & stopped at stop lights reached Emory finally.  I looked for Samir's townhouse  I was aware of its' location  I found quickly but no one was there, pressed the calling bell next door neighbor, a lady from south America, showed me her unit when I was confused all the time when Samir was showing his unit  on the phone his  townhouse 3 bedroom 2 bath upstairs & drawing dining & kitchen -down stairs.  I called Samir, he told me  he  flew to NY  at 9 am morning flight same day but  he was held in downtown apt  for 2 days without food , the children were fed by Indians but not Samir, even he was not allowed to go out to buy his own food, lady told me later -ander ka khana say pet bharega ! Later I found they were kidnappers asking for money but also friendly. But those who are getting high for coming to USA, ending up like the family with kids  who came to USA, crossed the Canadian border, ran out of gas  & were found dead inside the car, frozen to death, where there was no gas station was open  for them in that location. I was moving there in the Emory campus.  I have nothing to do , I couldn't see Samir when he was still downtown Atlanta that  made me very upset. I drove back  to campus moving all day in the campus till 12 o'clock noon, thinking how I am going to drive all the way back because I didn't  have much to do there but look for cheap motel to spend the night  will be  bad choice!  I ate nothing but one energy drink from Walmart, parked the car move there for a while & other big stores next to Walmart. I went again to Samir's place, but no one was there, parked there for another hour, saw Indians making their way to find their place in the neighbourhood.  I drove aimlessly in the Emory campus looking for the cafeteria couldn't find it. In the evening  at sunset, started taking 85 north  for going back having that terrible sickening feeling was there building inside me when I left.  I drove all the way  to north, driving all night, road construction was not there. I saw roads are going high up & down like climbing a mountain -that was strange! I stopped for patrol at 3 location  then  crossed Richmond, got down to private road . Found one big lighted  gas station, but it was out of gas , used their restroom. On my way out, I  saw a black polished guy in black coat who  gave me the direction for another petrol pump. I drove 5 minutes found one, there I went inside paid the bill, one men 2 ladies attending  the customers, they looked familiar to me . One bearded police officer  with came  to the gas station  with  Christmas spirit, he told me one of my car tires needed air, he even  helped me pumped the air to the tire. I drove out looking for 495 ended in front of governors building same building last time time I saw still dark & on one was there, it was in route   495, but I couldn't find  295 the  way to go inside  DC. Again  ended up coming back to the front of governors building, I followed the cars hoping that will be easier to go inside  DC which will connect me 95N  later I saw 95 N was still under construction.  Then followed beard police suggestion, Salisbury which was a shortcut  way to take me to Dover, I found the city dark , the lights went out , houses were empty no people in the street, but I had the courage to reach US 1 then I was still looking for the exit to summit bridge, couldn't find it , then turned back & same way to the same gas station. it was still open. This time I saw a big police officer came to the store; he told me  to go straight to the roundabout that will take me to  85 north. I saw the roads sharply serrated on the edges, after driving for 7 to 10 minute found 85 north was  getting wider going north; my cell phone was getting out of charge, needed  the battery to charge. Soon I found  one of my tire punctured  on the rear left side due to sharp serrated edge on the side of the road.  I was sitting in the driving seat,  no  police car was showing, sky was getting clearer-  saw early morning sun. With  the small amount of charge on my cell ph I  called the police -I needed help. The police came  quickly, he checked my car status also  called the tow truck.  Big tow truck came  they started unscrewing the nuts & bolts from the tire, changed the tire with the spare tire in a professional way,  they didn't touch the later, I was surprised to find new tire which was  on the back seat   . I ignited car, engine was good. Both the police & the tow truck left.  After 10 minute in the inter state divided into left & right. Instead of taking right I took left. It was early morning clear sky going North for 2 hours . I couldn't find 95 north that was weird.  Still I was going north  driving hoping I will get down like last time  to  Newark DE but I continued going north in a different unfamiliar route where I drove 2 hour probably  route 270 , then I saw rows of tree on both side  for another  3 hours .  I was going  opposite direction ended up in  Virginia crossing DC. I didn't give up my hope  With all my efforts  I  continued driving north this time it was easy I crossed New Jersey but no Delaware bridge but  saw the rest area   got down for pee. Soon  I was getting New York flavor when I entered Brooklyn crossing queens 495 was taking me to Connecticut, Rhode island then Boston  which was more north. I saw 4 lanes of car moving up   going to Boston , another 4 lane coming down; I never saw hugest interstate. Cars are moving on both direction going further north to Boston Connecticut, Rhode Island. then I made u  turn came down soon saw the  empty toll booth,   but thought Samir made me turned the car going to back where I started. Soon I parked the car under the  bridge I saw  a small store similar to 7/11 gas station right  across the road I tried to connect with  Samir he didn't pick up the phone I could easily see in front  there was BQE Brooklyn Queens expressway. Finally spoke to Samir. NY police was noticing me all the time. I lost all hope that I came all the way to NY  but couldn't take my son back with me . It was getting dark I started driving south.  I  found myself  in 95 south again, car lights were on, in the same dazzling manner, didn't see Delaware memorial bridge - that was strange no toll booth.  I got extremely sad   - turnpike hypnosis  I drove 2 & an half hour crossed Christiana mall exit , big gas station  almost reaching Newark DE  exit 896 at 6 pm . I don't have any idea where I lost 10 hours.  Finally I found myself  next day  6 am in  North Carolina, stopped  the car at gas station got a veggie drink from the store, checked my  status,  one middle aged lady was fueling her car helped me with her cell phone to find out the location where I was, It was somewhere in the east in North Carolina going straight found a shopping complex, bought the  ear  drop as my ear was aching. Then I started driving looking for 85 north asked some people in the street  with all other cars going back & forth on the street but not much help, finally at the gas station asked  a good looking guy  for 85  north he showed  the opposite direction to a rural way  followed his  direction I was  getting lost going more & more interior. I found US1 but changed my mind, it might  take me to a long way to rural side  a strange odd feelings was building up  inside me, then  I saw a lady who helped me showed me the way to 85 north.  I followed her direction then I  came  out of the state North Carolina taking 85 N  going to Virginia, driving for while. I needed the gas  it was getting dark when I took the gas , an Indian guy  who was in the gas station I thought I can sleep in the parking space if I get those drowsiness spell out from my mind. Parked  the car for 30 minutes, them  started to  drive  looking for the  interstate  I lost my way after several attempts I was stuck inside the town;  I was moving thought I will go crazy trapped in  the townsway, soon  police car stopped me for speeding, checked my mental status  & orientation. To  stop the situation getting  any worse I decided that I better listen to them chose to go the hospital. With police ambulance I was taken to a big hospital emergency unit, there I was given the hospital gown , monitoring machine was on  for my ECG, pulse & heart beat, IV channel was opened, they took my ultrasound when I  was brought back to the  same unit it  was midnight I slept till morning I asked for breakfast , there was no response I started to dress up, took out the IV channel  the nurse came told me they are taking me to  the new cabin in  the 4th floor. My meds continued for the next day they told me I can have lunch & dinner but I have to order them. 2nd night I spent  the night in  4th floor in the hospital bed, I ordered food from the hotel it was OK. 3rd day morning one short & stout figured medical attendant with no badge came to see me he gave me the release order, my car was with the police custody, I left behind the car Kya Honda along with my car keys, apt keys - building & letter box keys & some personal items, my extra pair of eyeglasses  they were still holding the car. Hospital authority will provide transport which will take me to  the railway station. On the way I bought a new charger for my phone. The railway station was half an hour drive . the taxi dropped me quickly & left;  I found myself  I just missed northbound Amtrak which could take me to Delaware that day. I crossed passing the French restaurant  which was crowded with people in the rail station, I saw 3 Police officers  standing outside,  they checked my identity. I told them my situation. They took me to a the nearest hotel  next block I  had to pay the hotel charges for 1 day for one room, Police called my son Samir for  Amtrak  ticket which was purchased online. The room was nice, they gave me room key's & left. I took shower after 4 days on the road &  finally I slept. Early morning at 6 am got ready took my stuff, all other the people in the hotel rooms were quite sleeping,  avoiding the lift I  took the stairs , went to visitor's room there I had my  simple  breakfast, got my security money back, my 12 hours stay in the hotel ended.  At 8  AM walked  out to the railway station, looking for the train found one group of people  standing  there in the station, waiting for northbound train, the local train Septa  quick  crossed the station; I  quickly  got into the train with few people waiting for the train for leaving the place as quick as possible to Alexandria VA,  another stop for 2 hours, charged my cell phone called Ali mama who lived in Virginia for 35 years. I saw new people were crowding  the station mostly students going north, with my new charger. I  went out saw people are  again lined up for Amtrak but I had still half an hour left.  I hurriedly got in & settled myself  in the train- this time  Amtrak train, another 2 & half an hour's journey  took some snaps from the train, soon I was dropped at  UD point  at Newark DE . My 5 days in streets interstate had ended finally. I walked to south gate office, saw new people working there, Linda  from the rent office & her team left, I took some food I found in the fridge & slept all day. Called Samir in  NY. Next day at night he came back to Philly airport from New York waited for Samir's dad  who was coming from Miami same time, took hoover & reached South gate at 9 pm. Next day I walked to Lasani bought 3 whole chickens for Samir, he spent his 3 weeks winter vacation spent with me. I went to Costco for my new eyeglass got it after 2 weeks, brought the backpack from the mall.  Samir went to Nolen's house couple of times came late at night Soon Samir's vacation ended he took the flight, flew from Philly  to Atlanta  on 8th Jan 2022.

Going back to  Emory university  after 2 weeks winter vacation, Samir with his dad...

 2022 Jan- my single life began-  I was busy walking for grocery, I needed the walking  stick, it gets extremely painful when coming back from UD. Not much going on in my life. After Samir & his dad left I didn't have much to do in the apt. Sewing my green dress for the past 1 week. Can't find Saima khan on FB. Suddenly she disappeared from us. Sewing machine Kenmore was not working I got a new one  in exchange for brother machine from Miami when I came to back it was badly treated by Samir 's dad. Cleaning the apt after Samir & his dad left. Samir reached Emory  safe & sound. Samir's dad was in Florida for a while. I bought 10 bed sheets all together with my money which Shakeel bought for me from the country. On 18th walked to Main Street crossing UD bridge & also police station, ate some Bengali food  not so good, next time I had smoothie -a Korean  girl was serving that day, 2nd time I also had mango/orange smoothie  which was not bad a white girl was serving. Next  day took the  Dart bus, waiting in the bus station I forgot to take my face mask which was mandatory after Covid. The bus took me all the way, making all those rounds in Wilmington. I was dropped in  front of the mall.  I was looking at the stuffs  witch was  not much of my interest for buying them but I had  Chinese which was enough to fill my tummy from the mall food court.  It was  in the evening, almost ran to the bus stop, bus came right on time, very cold all the passengers were shivering in cold, the bus dropped me  in front of the apartment complex. 18th I walked to the meat  store bought 2 whole chickens & ate some snacks.  Samir 's dad came back  to the apt started to live, he had  Kirkwood house for his confidence at the same time .  Jan  21, 22 23 24 called the police. Samir's dad was prolonging his stay when he had  the house in Kirkwood I was not OK when he had that behavioral problem.  Feb-snowing for the 1st time. Samir was in Emory, but his sadness persists when I called each time.  He needed both his parents  but should be living separate. I withdraw all my money from Wells Fargo & closed the account. Went to Costco for petrol.  March I shopped some personal items & food which I liked to cook & grocery  of my choice, waiting for Samir's spring break. I took 3 days bp meds metoprolol because I was experiencing blurry vision especially when I work on computer. For 3 nights Samir's dad went to Baltimore I was alone in the apartment. He came back on 28th.  I was writing my diary for my personal reason, nothing going on  in my life I needed to go to Bangladesh (after 3 years of Samir's Emory life ended I went to Bangladesh for 3 weeks in May 2023)  but Samir needed to settle down in his life & also his townhouse residency was no good but better then dorm life.  April cold  but not much snow this year, no news from Belal Shakeel or Amma - they completely boycotting me this time for no reason.  Samir was coming  back on 1st week of May, Main Street purchase bought some  bazar, Ramadan started from 2nd of April weather was still cold & continued to the end of May, working on the new sewing machine, suffering from dental pain. Ramadan went well. Masjid was less crowded. May Samir was in Newark DE for 2 weeks he came on 6th & left on 18th. First day  3 of us  went to Jumma, we ate gyro Samir ordered on-line Samir went to  Kirkwood house with his dad also, UD,  Main street, met his old friends. Took bus from the bus ride, bought  round- trip- ticket ( all day pass)  went all the way to Wilmington, on the way, stopped at Christiana mall make a round on the mall , took another bus which dropped me in front of CVS , bought 2 chickens one drink for Samir, took another bus from Shoprite which dropped me right in front of the  complex, cooked chicken curry for Samir, chickens on the fridge for Samir, he enjoyed  & left soon I received a letter from the internal revenue service with $300 cash, next day went to  wells Fargo  to cash the check. Next year in Aug 30th  went to Main street looking for the chase bank for the internal revenue money last time, which was $300, looking for the banker after while the banker came out from his room told me it was not possible  for them to continue giving me tax returns it was only for once, government only gave away that money for high rising fuel cost. I came out thinking it's better I should  not involve myself with government when I saw the $300  from last time was gone from my bag. Walked all the way to UD looking  for chase bank they gave me cash, went to store,  I had a drink day was hot & humid could not walk pain all over my body, went to food lion for grocery taking the  black cart which I bought from Walmart also the sewing machine with Samir, Samir called told me to get the grocery from the ash color car, I took the cart it was too much to carry. I am fine living alone in the apartment, called Samir how he was doing. I don't know how I am going to survive without a car for rest of the year ......2021 ,2022,2023, 2024 the white kya honda still parked in the parking space still I didn't get the keys to drive.  

University of Delaware on the way to Main street ... 

 June Living alone in the apartment since Samir went for Seattle job for 2 months which finishes on 1st week of August on computer programming, Samir was still eating out prices gone up specially  AC was on only at night living alone in the apt. Samir's grocery arrived  finally after several calls from online; a bag of shrimps, bell peppers cold drink Samir's dad moved to Kirkwood house  again, he is suffering from neurological / mental disorder, tremor was  similar to Parkinson, gets worse when he was in  south gate environment, poked by his own people. Samir called from Seattle he found a room in the basement, sharing with another room mate, no furniture, attached bath on the way to kitchen saw that from his cell phone. Every day he catches the bus also walks to the bus station later he got a bed, table & a chair. Seattle was 3 hours behind us & colder today Amal & her daughter came I made noodles for them. On the way she dropped me in front of food lion I did some grocery  On June 22nd  Samir's dad  came in the morning  taking me to the post office  went to  farmer market for grocery.  Samir was in Atlanta on June 27th for one day he will be going to Orlando airport to return back to Seattle. He got scolded by his dad badly for unnecessary trips, when he was in Gainesville Florida in his sisters place. too much sisters company was making Samir come back to Atlanta .  My Farmer market bazaar was almost finished. June 27th again Samir's dad was showing madness  & situation goes out of his hand  again people behind him doing some nasty job or he may be losing his status in the world.  My bedroom broken door was never fixed how horrible were his people gets in my absence. Police came & saw his illness along with  his madness. Samir called  from Seattle, told me his dad's car got hit by the car from the car behind, he was doing fine  now in the emergency. He was going for Physiotherapy after that, later got walker for support & using transport for the sick people. Police took away his ash color car. His weird kind of tremor,  anger not accepting the crippled life, always  irritated, picking up frequent fights, making horrible situation wherever he goes, making  dirty & ugly in the apt,  probably it was time  he should mind his business & go back to his usual way of life back to the country & stay away from me when  I am sponsoring Samir from the beginning to the end. My domain name became now Lubna- Suriya. world  on the web,  it was going to expire on June 30th, but I bought  another 1 year time again now total  for 2 years. Surprisingly some Paki's bribing wells Fargo employees, they took the domain money for the  2nd time from the web, now it remained for 1 year only . If it was not me I should be getting all the credit for the domain name which should running on it's name- i.e . auto generated  . It makes 8 cents / day  &  $54  in a year so it was  still working.  Suddenly shutting  down the  computer was another nasty job  the Indians were doing when I was  working on  my website,  sometimes my entire work  I did that was deleted.  My amazon .com  purchase didn't arrive, neighbors were active, the purchase should be knocking at my door, when I was  surrounded by illegal Indians, few unknown BDi secretly living,  others  were white & black but I wonder where they look for sexual connection.  Even Police was taking bribe that was strange!  The theft in the apartment was too much I continued to live  alone  2021 2022, 2023  for  3 years after Samir left for Atlanta  for his 4th year. Samir's dad moved to Kirkwood house & frequently visited  BD  in his own way. The car I left in Virginia was not returned . Some Paki was going crazy using my personal stuff left in the car . Samir was having  trouble height issue  & the BDese were bugging him, using his stuff  because of  his town house when Samir was placed  there with my  credits  July- My white car was not returned  I needed that for my grocery, walking by foot with the shopping cart  for 2 years.  After sister in law's son got married to  the Chinese girl . Chinese  got too personal stealing condiment from my fridge, & keeping the rotten eggs  in my fridge. 4th of July  fireworks  was as usual  for short time.  Eid ul Adha was on July 9th spent alone that was horrible.  I went twice for grocery to shop rite & food lion  now it's middle of July another 1 grocery remaining , doing  exercise in the morning  for my health, cooking  for myself, working on my website. Samir  came on 2nd week of August  from Seattle. Next mouth, He was doing summer job in Seattle I have no social connection; some Arabi ladies were still my friends they came once to see me, but I avoid Bengali, Indian, Pakistani for fear of theft.  FB was only option to know what's going on in their life. July 2nd I needed  more grocery went with my cart even on  thunder storm I waited. heat was irresistible  Turning on AC  for 3 months  June July August on the summer season. I could hardly find Samir on the phone taking  dart bus privilege for going to the mall.

Riding the local bus for the grocery, working on the  library, my personal new HP computer was not giving me save as privilege 

Aug  Samir came back on 15th for  8 days from Seattle after 1 and half   month of summer job, got busy with his friends,  saw him only during his  sleeping time  I used to get him, he took the flight to Atlanta for the new 4th year for the next semester midnight with his dad he went out next day to Main streets I took the 46 bus,  went  to Shoprite near old Baltimore pike on the way  I couldn't find the bus  there was  no walkway , only option was walked back to Newark hub for 12 miles , I reached Newark hub , bus 33  took me to halal meat store, next 2 days cooked chickens for  Samir was back to his own environment for 7 days,  busy with his old pics , uploading them from the album on 22nd  left for Atlanta by air.  I did some shopping & walked back to the apartment.  My website was giving me web address, I can open it accepting my domain name lubna-suriya .world where I have 10 gigabytes domain space.  Shakeel's account was deleted for unknown reason. Walking out with my black cart for  grocery from ShopRite.  grocery  3 times in a month, sometime going to the mall cooking for myself I was living alone in the 2-bedroom apt, watching TV connecting with FB which keeps me busy  but no social life - theft continues.  September- Britain's Queens Elizabeth's funeral on 8th watching live on TV. 0n Sep 12  from Newark transit hub took me to Farmer market after the grocery bus dropped me to Newark hub. bought the all-day bus pass which gave me unlimited bus ride till midnight. Sep 23, Oct-took some changes from the bank for the bus ride made a round trip to Wilmington went to food court $8 for the small pack shrimp & noodles - too expensive.  Samir was skipping this fall break, he was busy with classes from the Main street bought 2 pillowcases. My knee joint was giving pain. Blurry vision from the 2nd trip. watching YouTube on TV in the morning taking noodles  for 5 consecutive days. Nov - sewing my maxi & Samir's palazzo pant it took for a while for perfection finally came out not so bad. Bought the mucus relief for my bronchus., gargling,  took the bus on Dec 5th  to the municipal building behind  that police station to inform them about the car I left in Virginia , waited there for 5 hours  when a black police showed up, I told them about the car kia Honda which I left in VA last year on 20th Dec. For the white car I left in Virginia in police custody After that  I spoke to towing company which the Virginia police gave their ph number, but I didn't have anybody to pick up the car, spoke to VA police for the car they couldn't help. My personal items I needed where I left my eyeglasses the red jacket some personal stuff which wouldn't be nice some unknown people randomly using them along with my car it took almost 1 year to return the car finally I found it on the back of the building in the car parking space but keys were not handed to me. Samir's dad was using the car with his spare keys. I saw some of my stuffs on the back of the car. I also came to know police were taking bribes from the local people & delaying every thing for me. There was no car keys . Once  I saw a tag telling me to  go the see Simon eye center ( was it decided I will fell in wilmington & will break my eye glasses & how those counter women gone crazy putting glue on my broken glasses , same way the kirkwood dentist went crazy  ) but the  eye center  was closed  that day. Finished sewing my maxi which I wore in BD in the airport, also Samir's palazzo pants needed some adjustment Dec 18 Samir wearing a thin jacket with a suitcase &  backpack came back  home at 2 am, next day with Glasgow boys he watched movie, busy again with his Newark friends, spent night at Hanan's house came home next day morning. My birthday but no news from Amma, Belal & Shakeel. Samir ate the  chicken with Samir's dad (which was cooked by him) Next day I went to Wilmington by bus then dropped at the halal store I made whole chicken roast & a side dish veal curry. Samir's 14th days began in Newark. 23rd mall extremely cold went to Christiana mall  Christmas holiday was celebrated. Took the bus on New Year's Eve windy & extreme cold came back not much there which interests me. Samir was going to Main street also gym in the mall as he used to do.

Samir enrolled  himself in Emory University in Atlanta Georgia for 3 years after his graduation  from Charter high school Newark DE in Aug 2019;  3 years course for graduation from Emory University . In the summer he also did summer- job in Seattle Washington.  Aug 2019 - Aug 2020  1st year ..... Aug 2020- Aug 2021 Covid ..... Aug 2021- Aug 2022 2nd year ..... Aug 2022- Aug 2023 3rd year.

2023  Samir went back to Emory for his 3rd year got his graduation (corvid in the middle) for Emory Atlanta GA Jan After Samir came from Emory her left on 8th took Philadelphia flight From Main Street; taking 33 bus  My found my single life there was lots of theft.  Feb My usual grocery list from ShopRite, food lion & farmer’s market was tomato. cabbage, broccoli, potato, bell paper, shrimp, eggplant, tea, noodles, spinach, bread & jelly. Sometimes I go for chicken from desi store, some meds, some beverages.; 3 times in a month for grocery, spending my dollars which Shakeel brought when he was in USA after finishing master's 1 year course in Main. Nothing more in my check list. Chicken, noodle soup cinnamon swirl, pineapple slices, honey, hair color, almond milk become part of my  my dietary list cost me a little  when I will have my family joining me. I finished Samir’s Palazzo pants, bought 3 greasy liquids for cleaning purpose for the kitchen, tablecloth for my shelf. Watching Indian movie March went to creamery ice cream store  it was expensive. Bus ride each time was not right when I bought all day pass, thinking buying the coupon from wilmington, I will get some discount from online purchase.  April cleaning 3 closets - never touched, I told Samir after he enrolled himself in university, I will be moving out, there whether he likes it or not. May 10th Samir was back going as usual to Nolen’s house. Came back with Latest news Samir & I are going to Bangladesh by Philly airport. Arranging my personal belongings for 3 weeks trip to Bangladesh. 

My trip to Bangladesh for 3 weeks in 2023                     

14th May Monday, Newark DE Packing & unpacking continued since yesterday. In the  morning, took 6 of my hand made salwar kameez & some maxis for home wear, some meds for my discomfort but suitcase remained  empty. Yesterday In the evening went to Walmart after almost an year with Samir, finally chose the purple small carrier where I kept my handbag which fitted well inside & my white snickers (the extra pair)  good for when running in the airport &  another pair 1 and half inch cork heel was for social visits. Before this trip, took out most all of my wall hanging pictures from the wall, emptying the room for the intruder, as constant theft-  can’t stop  from the apt complex, people who were shameless enough  will talk in my mind & stealing  my travelling experiences for their internal circulation &  go to  the press which made me look for the website We skipped the lunch for the day. Samir called the hoover, it came on time, spanish driver. Suitcases were lined up, 2 big carrier & my blue suitcase, 2 small carrier went back of the taxi. It took 35 minutes to reach Philadelphia airport. We lined up for checking-in counter, showing our passport, got our boarding pass, our big luggage was tagged & taken inside; after brief- custom- checking, we were inside  the departure lounge. I checked the flight information & boarding time on the way, seated inside in the bowl chair for almost 3 hours, waiting for our names to be called. Samir went to the bathroom. Soon people were filling the place mostly European white, some Chinese, black, Indians with kids & babies as usual with lots of noise 7 pm - 9 pm was the boarding time. We were called to show our tickets in the tunnel before stepping inside the plane. Samir’s dad was in the wheelchair, always had to prove his senior citizenship & his sickness. We were seated inside the plane in the 3-seater one. Samir got the window side, I was in the middle Samir’s dad took the aisle seat - same row. He was behaving better surprisingly. 8 hours flight time from Philly~ Doha. Soon dinner was served A complaint to the Qatar airlines  when I saw the Indian hostesses with dark red lipstick got active with their courtesy, they served us cubed chicken with some gravy, pudding, plane polao, a bowl of veggie, orange juice & a cup of tea; one of the hostesses was acting weird,  somehow I came to know they had special information about my latest purchase - the white jeans from the Indian bengali  source, airhostess was very active moving back & forth, dropped some chicken gravy twice on my new white jeans- that was her stupid carelessness. Later I found more stains in the pants. I  saw one good  looking American guy sitting behind us  that might be creating the situation for her. Crowded the plane by Americans, Indians European whites, Chinese some American blacks - but no BDese except us. After a while we were crossing the Atlantic Ocean & the Mediterranean sea, the turquoise blue ocean - no stopover, ignoring the Europe it was a long but not so boring journey. I was watching on the tv monitor which was displaying in the plane, moving to its destination all the time;  movie options was there to pick but mind was busy with what's going on in the plane. Samir slept  all the time in this journey. We maintained USA time. Most of passengers were sleeping, some of them putting their headphone, watching movie in their monitor. In the morning Breakfast was served than lunch, sometimes it was not so fresh but my stomach was full. I lined up for the bathroom, found it was clean, floor was mopped  but not wet,  toilet tissue was rolled & toilet was flushed. From the window  I saw the amazing view Doha, the capital city of Qatar in the Arabian Peninsula surrounded by Arabian Sea; at 1 pm in the afternoon plane landed, going behind the time, came out from plane smiling at the plane crews. Found Airport roaming cars free of charge, which took us with our hand luggage only to the seating area in the airport. Samir finally went to the bathroom he was holding it  for 8 hours since  we got into the plane. Our 3 hours waiting period in Doha airport. I was amazed by the airport setting in an expensive way. To rank Qatar now, it's  the 4th richest country in the world. I went out for a stroll looking at the duty-free stores stuffed with Merchandise but came back quickly empty handed  for fear that I might get lost. I could charge the cellphone, my charger supposed to hook up in  one of the slots, but did not match. Samir came back, we took another roaming round which took us to the departure lounge, our big luggage was transferred to the next plane. We got inside the new plane also Qatar airlines . This time I was seated behind Samir & his dad. Noisy Bangladeshi passengers with children mostly chatgaiya- all Quieti BDi residents  going home. Desi moosollese were covered, talking in their own dialect, moving back & forth, babies were crying- 3 hours chaotic flight journey. Food was served once as usual. Finally, the plane landed in Dhaka - the capital city of Bangladesh looked the same from the air, nice landing. We came out of the plane one by one at noon Dhaka time, after 20 years coming back to Bangladesh  what a treat, can't believe! I had a mixed emotion that I can’t express! I was surprised to see the changes which was not for better but for the worse, airport didn’t grow any bigger, political people were engaged in the airport lobbying their massage, trying  to hook the passengers. I was looking for the money exchange, found one, got some Bangladeshi currency  then I thought local bank would be a better choice for that bit I had no choice  We were waiting for our luggage to arrive, soon I saw my blue suitcase showing up with Samir’s & his dad’s luggage. Samir’s dad was acting weird when I am holding my US passport.  Samir’s fat uncle with a big Pajero car came to the airport outdoor, we were outside in the airport lounge  For the time I felt the Dhaka heat- sometimes it went high as 104 degree F. Samir’s dad left with his uncle quickly,  they’ll be staying in a hotel near airport. Samir stayed back with me, bought SIM card taka 280 for the cell phone. I insisted him to come with me to grandma’s house where I will arrange his food, but Samir denied all the time. He didn't have good time also & deal with his dad's craziness. Samir's dad & his uncle came back;  this time Samir went with them. I  didn't have any choice, took CMG with my suitcase  behind - no choice, it took  almost 1 hours & a half ,  bending  my neck when it was hard to see felt like prisoner in the grilled CMG, scooter was far more better, gave me tough time in the bumpy ride; going round the pouroshobha building was not my choice, also went all the way to agargaon , cost me 500 taka scooter fair, streets were unusually busy with people,  crowded  weather was extremely hot  & humid, which was suffocating me, finally reached home -our Cantt house; same old  white house, became a ghost house, white gate, same garden, same old place; went inside after calling the darwan several time he appeared after a brief period then disappeared. I  took the verandah, went inside,  I saw  my mother sleeping in her bed in her room, extremely thinned out, at first she couldn’t recognize me then she started crying, I saw the Aya attending her; I didn't like the environment, it was too quite & dark, another girl was working in the kitchen, it took some time to get used to the place,  it was 5 in the evening, went upstairs,  my old place where I grew up since 1975 -  now 50 years of residency,  guard took my suitcase upstairs to the west room,  awful heat was coming from west. Pakistani weather, AC was not working, windows were not in a good state, frequent storm was making it worse, downstairs was much cooler. Found my flat & tall wardrobe, my dressing table as usual, my blue big wall hanging picture which I had the courage to buy once in my medical years; I asked the girl to take me to CSD crossing the over- bridge, can’t recognize the place it was much bigger, too crowded stuffed with store products, bought ice cream 270 tk ,  packaged noodles 158 tk, coke 28 taka- total taka 436,  it unbelievable- too pricey! all my money  spent on all those bdi product ! climbing up & down  the  new introduction- the bridge was painful for my knee. At night I was very tired, slept turning on the ceiling & table fan for my convenience .      
1st day, 17th May Wednesday Dhaka at cantt house Next day, I opened my closet with my keys which was with me in USA all those years, my stuff was ok inside the closet.  Spent my day looking into my stuffs remembering my old-time memories, my childhood costume jewelry, my album, shoes books, my flower making tools, letters, my scrapbooks, my clothes  my 1 or 2nd time worn sarees . Something was telling me half of my stuff Half where I found my childhood memories & the albums were missing .Using Abba's bathroom which badly needed renovation also the other one upstairs. House on the south, was now office building was too close. One employee was  continuously talking standing on the stairs all the time, later I found it was the room up there actually was kitchen for the office building. I was sleeping half of the day couldn’t get out of the jet lag.        

2nd day 18th May Thursday Dhaka at home -  Woke up late in morning, 2 of the girls were taking care of my mother; one was engaged changing her diaper, giving her shower, combing her henna color hair, helping her with her food;  other one was cooking food in the kitchen, mopping the house,  cleaning the bathrooms; one guard was outside, cleaning the garden, watering & cleaning the drain but I still found dirty garden; my Orchids which I bought from Holy Cross college in 1983 in the bottom palm tree both were gone, Vogan villa which used to give us year round flowers was not there, red & white Korobese  are not that great  anymore-  it always happens when owner of the house no longer living . I saw a man sleeping in the outhouse turning on the ceiling fan under the mosquito net for free- that surprising & the out-house grill was closed but outside appearance was dirty with paint containers which was strange!  Fridge in the veranda (not ours) was under Darwan & the other maid's control was full of CSD product, under whose instruction they were using our house & electricity & the fridge. 3rd day 19th May Friday Dhaka at 10 A.M.  One hour rain shower with thunderstorm was a  brief relief that was only for 1 day, but rest 3 weeks was horribly suffocating hot & humid. In the house looking at all the rooms I saw lots of changes were made, beds were strangely  inferior quality ! In the  study room, my medical books were missing-our past pictures ( when they were honored ) were forged the entire lo Books from my medical years including Grays Anatomy, some of our family albums were missing ( some body  were very carefully forging our genuine pictures where my father was honored all the time which may be historic in my opinion; next door house in the east became 6 storied building with empty flats. Shakeel & Belal both were absent only Amma with her employees - that’s the latest news. Many years of memory- Our Cantt House stuffed fully with 60 plus years of memories after Belal's birth; my glass fitted Japani  kemono doll which my father brought from Japan in 1981 was not in good shape.  I found the glass covered was once broken tapped poorly. When I saw the servant kids playing  with the black doll which my father once  brought from USA in 1977,  holding the black Gorilla  & big black doll (with shoulder length hair & a comb/ curler set once came inside a 3 feet box )  The cuckoo clock was broken in our curved staircase. I had number of dolls in my childhood one with green saree from Islamabad another one was with golden hair white doll from Chittagong along with Belal's boy doll were all missing. Dressing room was once full of past clothes surprisingly empty. In the drawing room, the beauty came out when I placed 2 newly arrived wall hanging pictures side by side.  It took more than 1 hour to clean those decoration pieces which had many years of memories. Sitting in the verandah as usual, under the ceiling fan was better option now but neighbor's house in the front ( rd # 8)  was crowding the place with their special way garage activity, the peaceful atmosphere was gone. On the back garden new coconut like trees (not fruit bearing) grown big thin & tall in a strange way. Shakeel’s unit was strangely quiet, looking odd, old & dark  built  in 1987; some illegal sexual activity was going on &  I saw no one, inside that unit, door was  strangely locked couldn't find my way to terrace. From the kitchen our British style white gas oven was stolen right  in front of my mother's eye when she was lying on her bed. 3 people from  next door from the west came carried the big heavy stove out from our L shaped veranda going out of the gate.  In the evening I went to see our Ansa Amin's wife next-door neighbor in the east. I took the garage way  to the ground floor, asked the guard  in his guard room if I could see any member of the owner's family, he told me only Ansa Amin's wife will be available maybe after one hour, instead of going home I went to CSD building for a cup of tea,  the girl gave  me  I fourth cup of  cold  awful tea.  I came back quickly to the same place, sitting there on the tool for 2 and a half an hour was a hard task, guards were  uncomfortable about my presence.  Cars were coming & going in the underground garage. The lady  appeared in the sitting area in garage cum office room, our conversation lasted for 15 minutes only. I didn't mention that I was also interested in the plot. I came out & went straight home  next plot before dark. On 1st June when Samir came to see me from Sylhet  I came out of the house  looking for Samir.  Later I came to know , the guy who was driving the car dropped Samir  in  front of next -door house & he drove out  quickly.  The guard told him to walk all the way to the end of the garage room in the basement,  where there was one room at the end. Samir found the room, Quickly somebody  locked the door from outside, Samir was scared obviously, after 1 hour again somebody opened  the door for him, his mind was with fear how  to get out of the building, quickly  he went out . One guard  at the entrance he  didn't stop him & finally  he found his way out from the gate . It  was a criminal act in their part to threatened  just crossing 18  boy . When the  lady I spoke  that day , with  her instruction  it was done including the driver who brought him from the airport. The lady or who ever behind should do  some kind of explaining to the  legal authority because  they lost their property at one point for becoming American & the house was made in pakistan time & Nazir shaheb the bearded father  got hold of the property just like Mrs Daud "Dokhol" long years & that 9 storied building was built 10 years back  by illegal source of money  probably my American money.  5th day 21st May Saturday Dhaka at 10 A.M. Went to Sonali bank for the first time it was closed I went early.  I went with my bank papers for 3 consecutive days (21st, 22nd, 23rd), without any work done, moving with the Banker, from one table to another, they told me the worse thing - my account was deleted because of no account activity;  the previous banker Bhibhuti babu left without closing my shanchay potro (the stock) still in fluid state, there was no information about me & my account  in the computer system.  I remember I wrote a letter to Bhibhuti  to close the shanchay potro  as I was stuck with my American life, but he left my account open, I had 10 lakhs plus 2 lakhs in total from share. Another 2 lack's during my  last visit to BD on Samir's birth issue spent on his cloths/ food, my clothes & CMH charges, Samir’s circumcision, General hospital bill, emigration fees, Samir's 2 passports (Bangladeshi & US), Biman air fare. Sonali bank manager who was sitting in the glass room, told me to bring more papers.  Went out looking for Rizwan’s house on the other side of the road, after making lots of noise in  the gate  it was locked. 22nd May Monday, Dhaka at 10 A.M.  Wore my brown patch dress, Sonali bank was  closed,  bought one ointment for my painful Sciatic nerve from local dispensary (Sattar market) on the other side found mango drinks not cold, tasted awful,  checked the other side of Rizwan’s house  entrance, it was also locked, took the internal road, rickshaw took me  near Adamjee college, walked crossing the road , walk passed Shaheed Anwar, found another  rickshaw  which took me to railway crossing , walked for a while then found a scooter with people  sitting face  to each other, which took me to Mahankali (New DOHS)  where I got into  the BRTC bus where passengers gave me some space to sit . Bus moved  towards railway crossing took me to Mohakhali,  crowd & congestion of Gulshan;  surprisingly, all the rides were not so difficult. The bus dropped me to Gulshan 1 market where I wanted to buy some dresses  but the store keeper was not there . Heat was too much, my head was spinning, I might fall then It would be an embarrassing thing  that awful sister was still nagging in my mind. I bought some singara for Amma it was good also not cold drink. Crossed the jammed road, awful crowd, found a big building with a Bank, went inside the open space, found another  internal road, found a rickshaw, which took me  to Bonani  going round the Gulshan lakes, it was a long way but finally I was out from the traffic jam. Stopped at new Aarongs, remembering they had the food section in Aarong near shangshad  bhobon where I had yogurt drink, found those drinks, rickshaw puller was waiting outside, after the purchase I was out,  asked the rickshaw  to  drop me near the old  Aarong . but it changed to hands & crafts store, found a place where I could make a call? The salesgirl was good, gave me her cell phone, no one was picking up the phone on the other side;  guy from the store helped me find a scooter outside;  which took me to cantonment from the 3rd gate,  I stopped at APL. After a long time  I saw Nishat Zoraida who was  once in  Sylhet Medical College, took some pictures with her, riding back home with staff car. Samir called from Sylhet for the first time.  On 24th May Wednesday Dhaka.  Belal called twice from London also Samir from Sylhet.  Went to  Dhamal court, also CSD looking for Samsung internet connection, they were denying everywhere! Amma was looking better now. Next day I took the rickshaw from inside road to kachukhath bazar on the way I  saw Muslim modern students crossing in groups. Went to khachu Keth which used to be the closest bazaar in the cantonment for grocery, bought some okra tomatoes.  Eggplant, lemon, ghee- prices were too high as usual. On the way went to Neighbor Habibur Rahman unity’s house where she served me some Kabobs & saw her after a long time Dr Habibur Rahman, then walked back to Nazma’s mother place, it was difficult to get her! finally found my way in & managed to see her where she gave some desi sweet.  Next door Farida untie  was also long-time neighbor was in Banani.  May 26th Thursday Dhaka at 10 A.M. Taking help to ride the rickshaw puller for my knee  pain, rickshaw dropped me near Adamjee college, walked taking the footpath to Shaheed Anwar School, find my way from the teacher’s flats,  saw the old canteen bought a drink, some Singara for Amma, saw the girls in the assembly,  found  my school friend Sharifa  Shereen- we had  long years of memories together in school, more than 1 hour chat in the teachers room, the teacher staff was crowding the new open room, she agreed to dropped me at Khaleda’s place, Along with her sisters,  her unit  was now  special Thai flavored, entertained me with some Thai  food, had, some good old time chat. She showed me the internal way to cross golf club, walked & I found the open-air verandah  of the golf club to sit, didn’t want to go back so quick, golf course was next to the golf club.  Few foreigners were playing. On my way out with my purchase-  one chicken drumstick inside the bun may be 2 months old  & smallest  ice cream which cost me total 170 takas. Walked back home passing old post office was not so crowded &  the petrol pump moved to the back of the CSD building ; came back to our cantt house saw Amma sitting with the Aya watching TV. In my room  using under eye pad I brought from USA.  May 27th Saturday Dhaka. Went to Sonali bank again  with the papers it was closed. Checked Rizwan’s house but gate was closed but found my way following somebody’s car, getting in their driveway. Some portion of their plot was taken my General Hospital & the hospital became big. Went inside I saw Rizwan also film actor Haroon, sick with nerve damage, both the sisters Shazadi/ Nowshin were absent & their mother Noorani untie also, spent some time there but not much help. Adnan & his family lives near Shaheen School, no  sign of Joni's family  &  their Sylheti mother.  May 28th Sunday Dhaka Taking the CMG from CSD, crossed the 3rd gate than to Banani Aarong, it took me to the internal road to Aarong, found the store was not open, sitting there in a tool when I went inside, the things which interested me was not my choice ; took some yogurt- based- drink, not much there to buy I have to save some money to return back also. Took a rickshaw from Aarong. He dropped me on the side of the rd,  crossed the jammed traffic was a struggle, heat was making me sick walking all way back also. Found CMG  which took me near CSD. Came back home empty handed. Bought red sweet from the same store. May 29th Monday Dhaka Going for Gulshan 2 market in the morning. I quickly got ready, saw BATA bought a black sandal tk 3500/- only purchase I made from the country (actual price may be 500 tk), on the way I fell while crossing the isle, a girl came & helped me getting up was not  so easy when my knee joint troubling me too much in this trip . Made a round in Gulshan 2 market same as used to be, nothing new, didn’t buy anything. It was getting dark, took  the rickshaw, gave the hundi note to rickshaw man, found CMG halfway which took me back to cantonment from 3rd gate no sign of ‘ Senakunja. People were telling me they are planning for making a mall in the army cantonment - what a weird idea!  May 30th Saturday Dhaka Went out looking for WIFI connection in Dhamal court  there was none-  this was my first time visit,  I saw a man working on the tailor's store there are couple of them side by side, some small restaurants a good option to have a cheap meal, some electronics store, then walked back to the CSD, looking for the Indian family who used to live in front of our house but couldn’t locate their flat  or may be they refused to see me! their parents were gone , none of the sisters live in the country. I was  behind CSD building crossing the new gas station, went inside building. On the ground floor there were number of stores, previous stores were gone, a store was selling some snacks items, came back home cooked some khichuri with eggs for Mrs.  Habibur Rahman, she came in the evening took some snaps with her. May 31 Wednesday Dhaka . It was 2nd day, waiting for Samir to show up, he kept delaying, Samir's dad was holding him.  His coming to grandma's place was the first time when he left for USA 22 years back, he was only 5-month-old then; I was not in the mood for going out, weather was hot & humid from the beginning, waiting for Samir, cooked the gravy, chicken didn’t go well, finally throw the chicken out. Sleeping in the drawing room with AC on. Sylheti Major Fatah ‘s youngest sister, new in this location came to see us. 1st June Thursday Dhaka  Our father's birthday, mama's treat still waiting for Samir. He arrived catching  the 6 pm flight from Sylhet, somebody drove him to our Cantt house, they were looking for the wrong house next door. Samir was getting out of the car. Grandma saw Samir for the first time. Took him to CSD for cold drinks sweet, Kulfi, he got 3 kinds of sweets mama's treat.  Same day at 9 pm Samir went out with the same guy to play soccer ball near CMH, had fuchka  came back at 11pm. Tired, went to sleep in the drawing room with AC on. Our flight will be on 4th of June at 9 pm Dhaka time completing 3 weeks in Bangladesh, Dhaka-Doha, Doha-Philly by Qatar airlines.  2nd June Friday in Dhaka Took Samir to local masjid, waited for the younger Maulvi but he didn’t show up. He was the one who  gave Adhan to his ears , when Samir was few days  old & took 800 tk for his good health & well being. Temperature was 104 degree F -the highest  Amma was not properly taken care off, neighbors' theft from the west side. I was surprised to see the high price in the stores, how did I lost all desi credits! food was very expensive, didn’t have chicken in this entire trip, based on vege & dal. Aya showing her rude behavior when my mother was crippled on wheelchair &  I can’t talk. At night packing the suitcase. Brought down the heavy suitcase & the small carrier myself climbing down the stairs to the drawing room.  Samir stayed only 3 nights with me.  I was very much disappointed in this trip - my 5th visit to Bangladesh. Samir left for Uttara hotel in the evening, where his dad & his fat uncle will be staying. Heat was unbeatable.  Putting back some of my stuff back to closet. 3rd June Wednesday Dhaka   dropped the letter to masjid & the 1000 tk like last time for Samir’s good health to the local mosque at  rd # 8.  Found the sanchayapatra in one of the drawers.  In a hurry I broke one drinking glass which was under the sofa, sudden change of plan - I had no choice but to go; rushed into the bathroom, took short shower, dropped my keys in the commode-found it ! I had to take a scooter to get a ride to airport before midnight; next day going to airport will be too risky. Dressed up quickly. Small carrier & hand bag, green suitcase in the verandah, walked out to the road,  looking for CMG found one, he agreed to take me to airport, the passengers inside got down in front of their house, knowing I was in a hurry. I found my way to the house told Ayas I had no choice but to run like that. I gave 2 of my old  dresses to the  Ayas  for working in the house. I wore my new maxi which I made myself & snickers . Made 2 pleats & rolled into a bun I couldn’t wait to say goodbye to my mother, she might react differently, with my small carrier & blue suitcase on the back, the CMG took 30 minutes to reach the airport, 300 tk scooter fair.

Dhaka airport  I found my way to get in from gate # 1 ‘coming back was easy but going out …. I had to face the entire military force,  some airport authority told me  it’s the wrong gate I should try  the other gate as I don’t have any ticket to show them. I got-out found another entrance, I saw army but they were not so enthusiastic about me, security people were too much,  but Air Force was active, I was looking for bathroom it was dirty, even the trash can was full not emptied, stinking smell was coming out , floor was not moped.  Some new people got engaged in cleaning the airport.  I waited. I took one chicken burger & vegan' roll tasted bad & 2 months old   from the self, 1 lychee drink for dinner, another one for Samir. Technique of wrapping the big luggage with plastic thin sheets was a new introduction . Emirates pilot with his smart air hostess & crews crossed impressive way several times, hajis lined up for Qatar airlines making a big queue, haj may be little early  in this year.  From 9pm to next day 9am I was in constant threat how to resolve the problem that Samir’s dad was ineligible for this trip from beginning to the end & he was sick in a weird way, but Samir can’t do anything about it & I am not quite about that. Samir's dad should be staying back in the country with his own money, he could live comfortably with Sylheti privilege, get well he had 35 yrs of experience when Samir should be flying with me.  Airport  female employees were guarding, asking me questions. I am going nowhere I told some air force employee, It was a horrible siltation lot of explanting to do I also told them to clear the confusion, it was  the internal conflict. They thought, it would be best if I stay back with my mother & Samir & his sick dad should fly.  But that wouldn’t be possible when I am the one who was sponsoring Samir’s extended study with my money. They kept asking me to show some documents with which they are confident about my coming to the airport one day earlier. Can’t deny that it was the dumbest idea for airliners to send passengers like that  without a ticket - that worked amazingly quick. I slept in the chairs for 6 hours it was not so good, a big fan from other side was giving us some relief when airport AC was not cooling the entire airport. Next morning  with a raised voice cousin Farhad & Naz appeared, I  was not expecting them but told them about my situation, ticket was  never shown to me, it was in their flight information, they insisted I should go home for the day, they called Samir, he  had no choice but to  send the original flight information on the phone which was  photocopied,  I got my one , it cleared everything, my name was on the top of the list, the real document was forged & no one will know what was the reason they had the power to change flight information . We chat in a room upstairs after a while they left. Waiting for the gate to open for departure lounge, I was sitting in the airport in the open sitting area waiting  for Samir with his dad & uncle  to show up! I didn’t see them at all.  2 hours after the security check I got my boarding pass, got my blue suitcase tagged, found one seat in the departure lounge, sitting in the bowl chair after crossing the emigration I saw Shakeel talking, it’s unbelievable that Indian guy resembled Shakeel so much! I was emotional about the whole thing, Samir’s dad  came after a while leaving behind Samir. Sitting there with a firm face, but  no sign of  Samir, We will be soon catching the next flight, that will be a risky thing, the anger was building up inside me, felt like punching his face. I inquired the emigration officers about Samir’s status & ask him if I could see my son, they denied I knew he was sitting out there crying, he will hate to go back to the hotel where his fat uncle status was not so right who knows how long  will be the next flight  for him - couple of days. The Naval officers showed up telling me about Samir couldn’t make in this flight, he might have to catch  the next flight.  All passengers were instructed to walked to another lounge both side there were different shopping stores as before , we were seated for an hour in the sitting place, lined up again, one after another we entered the plane, found my seat behind Samir’s dad.  Samir was with me. 3 hours journey to Doha. one time Samir's dad was standing  for 1 hr next to his seat. It was less crowded this time, We came out of the plane, found those roaming car they checked our hand luggage, The sweet I carried with me in the small box was with all time but  disappeared when I came to USA. Roaming car took us  same way going into airport longer inside the airport, no over-enthusiastic airport stuff came to help us out  of the way this time, I saw different shopping places on both sides excellent expensive way off displaying their products, finally we found some sitting place where other passengers were waiting for their turn to catch their flight.  I found the bathroom to freshen up, some airport authority came took Samir’s dad to the hotel with sleeping arrangements outside the airport where he could get some sleep he looked sick . I came out, saw he was taken by the roaming car for the hotel service, it was 2:10 pm local time.    

5th June Friday 8AM  Doha Departure time, maintaining the local time. Samir will show up any time at the end he was too in the hotel room with his dad, I was expecting him any time seating in the passenger seat, bulletin board was giving flight information, local time, waiting for the gate number which will be given at the last minute. I went to currency exchange counter, Dirham is the currency of United Arab Emirates UAE in Doha airport that day, 1 USD equals 3.46 Qatari Riyal & 29.80 Bangladeshi Taka (on July 16th, 2023). I exchange $10, jewelry store was dazzled with the golds, worth watching, I needed a cup of tea badly came out from my seating area but I was scared I might get lost but flight information was all over the airport just follow their instruction roaming car will take the passenger to the right gate- to the departure lounge. I couldn't resist but I bought a small ring 22 carat which cost me a fortune.  I lost one red zipped pouch with few of my personal ornaments (6 pieces) I was alarmed! It may be in my closet in the Cantt house. Samir appeared after a while, we lined up for our flight & waiting for our turn, we were boarded-in after 1 & half hour, no sign of Samir’s dad, finally he was seen when we were entering into plane. 3 of us got 3 different seats this time, food was served as usual I was not that much hungry, same menu but we ate , another 8 long hours. Finally, plane landed in Philly airport, got our luggage back. I was just  wondering if we could look for Emirates airlines  which stopped at Dubai next time when we fly. Samir called the Hoover, it rushed in, soon we came back to South Gate Newark. Tired, we found the apt the way we left, went to sleep early, in the morning emptied the suitcase checked the mail. Samir got busy with his friends as usual. my normal life began in USA but theft continues.....  

My aftermath coming back from BD trip after 20 yrs -  I had all the details written down  scribbling small -small notes  for my diary while I was in Dhaka in this 6 weeks trip, it was hard to recollect the exact date/ time. I missed both of my brother's  presence at home. I didn't get the pics which I took during the  visit for unknown reason( got a new I- ph from Samir in USA). 3 weeks in Dhaka, heat was unbearable unlike other times, more than 100 degrees F; political parties doing their messy work in random order, it was hard to recognize my old place & our old house. Cantonment was supported by 3  check posts, roads are narrowed down by the dividers, soldiers parading  in the road ,army vehicles like jeep trucks motorbikes. which was common thing was not there.  Buildings were raised in an unplanned manner in a small space with shortage of water, electracy & gas; prices are skyrocketing, unbelievable! 50-taka chicken is now 500 taka! Unnecessary over bridges when we were accustomed with our previous way. It became a bazaar area with people, chaos night & day with CMG, scooters, private cars. The garments female  workers lined up crossing from Pallavi to Banani in the morning then returning back in the evening was stopped for unknown reason after the fire  in the garment factory in Rana plaza in 2013.  It's hard to find government in the country when they were busy on TV how to get a big donation from us citizen. Buses were moving without maintaining traffic law;  trying to cross the jammed road risking life in hand only your lord will help you pass through... but to my surprise ordinary people like rickshaw pullers were cooperative & people's attitudes getting better after long years gap.  I am  Lubna Mahmud went to USA in 1998 &  in 2023 came back as Lubna Mahmood Chowdhury - SAME PERSON!  Theft was enormous from the area,  also neighbors( in the west), they were getting too much in theft business, poking their nose into our family affair in an annoying manner. Luchh-a getting sexual with area people & Luchh-i with aged man  forging our past pictures was too alarming!  Iraki fatwa on my mother's face twice during her sleep made her lose most of her teeth, her jaw dropped to one side also she had face distortion. To Shakeela Banu & her team  backed  by  Malaysian Chunnel,  unlike student behavior …. their evil motive was not only brought so much hardship during my student life in Sylhet, ...... also back home my mother fell in the backyard, in her bathroom, undergone surgery & hospitalized for 6 months, moving with wheelchair; my mother’s healthy tooth was taken  by underprivileged half dentu! Under whose instruction that day my son Samir had that sudden kick twice on his BUTT. It was inflamed! both of  our pet dog Alsatians were killed  from the same source. Pls don’t ignore that they get too dangerous by some outside power! 

ASIA-PACIFIC NEWS As Bangladesh reels from the deaths of hundreds of garment workers in a building collapse, global retailers' refusal to pay for strict, nationwide factory inspections is again focusing scrutiny to an industry that has profited from a country notorious for its hazardous workplaces and subsistence wages. 

July Aug   throwing the trash, checking the mailbox was my way of life in USA, not much there to be proud of myself. After BDi visit victory for going & returning back, sadness for my family back there , my  brother's &  mother's misfortune & torture. theft in the cantt house it's bengali way to you once you were great but now we are ignoring you ... Here  was us Samir's dad  sickness , my blood pressure related crisis & Fatwas & Samir running after his life was a treat to all of us.  we are also running behind him.  Shakeel called twice He wanted to send the money from Uttara I thought I would be better if I deal with that issue next time I will go back to the country.  Going  grocery for 3 times in a month as usual  after my computer getting annoyingly stubborn not opening for my website work, it  was temporary shutdown. I thought  of using library  privilege, my  grocery from ACME  on my way back to apt,  Samir was still stuck with Seattle job for the end of Aug, Sep, Oct, Nov, Dec  grocery  for 3 times in a month continued riding the bus, using the all day pass , cooking my food, Samir came back from Seattle for 1 week on 4th of Oct he was with me for 1 week only. Wore mama- made - sleeping dress very comfortable . The half roast was for Samir. He was busy with his dad's going out, bringing food from outside as usual very busy. Once he took me to Walmart, looking for sewing tool it was better buy online. Winter was coming this time little early. Started to sew just repairing old dress, utube on big screen was my pastime. Belal called several times from uk, 

Samir's coming back home,  had mama's- home- coming treat & going back to Atlanta again quickly...

Nov 5th Sunday My single 1st trip to NY for 1 day  Things were going as usual; 3 times in a month going out for grocery sometimes by foot sometimes by bus paying for the ride. Nov 5th  Sunday It was like all other day, I went out  in the morning from my apt to throw the trash. Samir's dad was sleeping, nice sunny morning to begin with...  I walked out little further to  check the recently built  new big buildings- all closed for Sunday, walked little more to the south saw  the train station next to UD, also closed.  Railway station which was inside  was closed. Early morning Amtrak train going north  crossed with high speed -  I missed it.  Next train will  be at 3 pm . I went down to the  track. Another train septa  (cheap fare)  went hurriedly at 10 am , next train going north will be at 3 pm -long hours wait. I was with my home dress  carrying only my hand bag. I walked out, crossed the street, found a bench at the bus stop waiting  for the next bus, it came after 2 hour. I told the bus driver to drop me at Greyhound bus stop . I might check the railway station also, Bus moved with usual speed with few  passengers dropped me at Greyhound bus stop. Got down went inside the glass fitted room, no one was there only one  black guy dosing in the sitting area waiting for his bus. A little boy was in the counter, after a while his mom came a black lady, I bought the ticket from her for NY, it will be going  for NY at 2:40 but it may get  late another 1 hour. I  left the charger in my apartment & my cell phone charge was almost empty.  I walked out & found the railway station , bought the charger from the store, walked back to the bus station. For afternoon snacking,  bought a small chocolate & a drink both expensive from the vending machine, I  remembered I didn't have any breakfast in the morning. Sitting there it took 1 hr  for cell phone to charge, both the  bathrooms were locked  & out of Order. Some passengers started to come.  Went again  quickly for the bathroom to the railway station came back but no sign of grey hound bus.  Finally at 4 pm saw the bus moving in, outside passengers were lining up.  This time only my green handbag was my luggage.  I found a seat in the front row, when all other passengers were seated properly, slowly bus  started to move,  running north taking  95 north , soon we crossed Delaware memorial bridge, entered  New Jersey, another 2 & half an hour  journey  by road, continuous  driving north picking 295. I took some snaps on the way . Entered Manhattan after the toll  4/5 lanes  car cueing for the Holland tunnel. Finally we reached the bus terminals after sunset, where all passengers were instructed to wait for their luggage , I was with my only hand bag walked in, then got down taking escalator same kind  of crowd - all in a hurry . Mom & their kids, some Chinese, South Americans speaking Spanish - a big  mix of people,  it was like  united- nation- assembly in USA . But people were behaving good. Our subcontinent people crossing quickly none of  them were desi people. I tried  to catch a Chinese guy to help me get me  the ticket,  Soon I found my way to subway going Queens Broadway . Local bus service was also there.  Somebody helped me showing  how to buy the ticket & the way to  Jackson height 73rd street at the Indian patty  which was  after 8 more stop. I got down at Jackson Heights, I was without warm clothes. I find my way to get down in the street. I had a long way walk, street vendors selling ready made ladies wear which was in all different sizes & shapes, found one orna & a shawl for the cold-that's all was my NY purchase. After a little stroll found the Afghani Place for kabob where we used to eat  in the past. Couldn't find the Indian grocery this time. People were rushing in. In the counter I ordered Bihari chicken, beaf tikka  to take home. Found a place to eat where other people already seated, gave me some space.  I ate some of my purchase & took for Samir hoping he could enjoy too. I walked  out, Pan Wala was not there this time,  I found similar store bought  more chicken tikka it was good . People were as usual, normal crowd  even when  I was alone in that Indian patty. Some Indian women were alone came for grocery like me. Again climb up to catch the subway rail which took me to Manhattan to  Penn station, walked one block. Amazingly beautiful  Manhattan  as usual , with high rising  building. It  was 10 pm, crowd was normal,  cars were moving in equal speed .Police was controlling the situation. Found the station asked a black girl probably  railway employee about the ticket  for going back to Philly- she told me to get visa card , I did what she told me, came out of the Penn station . walked  for few minutes, found CVS got the visa card also told behind the counter person to activate the amount of money for Amtrak train fare. Walked out & went back to Penn station. Found the usual  sitting area  looking for that  black lady -the railway employee, found her. She told me to get some small notes found it in the  coffee store, bought a drink for my next journey. The employee helped me with my computer work & got the ticket for going back to Penn station Philadelphia. Next step was run  down  to look for the train, It  didn't arrived  again my bad knee was  troubling me, hurting all the time , climbed up again  asked the lady in the waiting room , she told me to wait for my gate # to show for philly station on the screen which was hanging up on the wall in the big hall room. It will be in the  bulletin board  just like the airport. Waited  there less than 1 hour.  Then find my way  going down using the escalator.  Amtrak train  ticket collector was right at the doorstep, waiting to board us in. Found  passengers were already seated. I  found a seat in the front row, train started to move. All the passenger were sleeping,  dozing inside the dark. Crossed New Jersey.  After  more than 2 hours,  stopped at  big Philly station, walked inside the grand hall room in the Philadelphia which was familiar to me . I asked the Philly police, they told be better wait for the ticket office to open, it was 3 AM or go for the computer to purchase ticket they will accept cash which was  difficult in NY.  Went to the bathroom at big Dunkin's to  freshen up.  Found a bench  in the hall room,  didn't care found myself comfortable lied down in the bench my handbag was my pillow  & slept for one  an hour. There were few passengers like me waiting sitting  in the long wooden benches.  I asked a  black guy he helped me buy the ticket.  He used his card & I gave him the cash, walked down, saw the sign board, Newark DE train  will be  showing at 6: 11 AM  Felt the early morning January  cold but new covered railway station- 4 tracks coming & going. Some people started to gather, train came just on time.  May be I got into  the  wrong train or waited  but  few minutes difference difference instead of going straight south to Newark station, I went to airport station. This station always confuses people when last time I had similar problem. Got in seated next to the window the ticket collector  asked for the ticket told me I took the wrong train which was  going to the  Philly airport. The Ticket collector helped me get down to next station also helped  me find another railway employee who helped me cross  the other side of the railway tracks  & helped me got into the next  northbound train going to Penn medicine. Train came soon . Got into the train  moving north,  got down one stop before Penn station saw Penn medicine center, looked for the  train goring  south to Newark DE.  My wait period was 1 hour, Found Penn medina hospital building opposite to the railway station, it was cold so climbed up the stairs, waited inside screened room, saw the hospital going passengers coming  & going,  another 1 hour wait period,  then climb down, train arrived exactly on time which was on the screen,  now the train  was going south I was in the train this time .....  ..... smooth journey.....which brought me back to Newark DE found my way out, walked all the way to near Goodrich sat there for a  while in the Sunday morning extremely painful  knee joint. walked back to apartment- that was my end of my journey to NY & coming back. 

NY 73rd street Queens, riding the subway Philly railway station, grand hallway, railway multiple lines, waiting for the train.

1.  Next day  I slept  all day with fever, taking pain killer, watched some Indian Bangla movie.  Bilal's  birthday  was that day. While I was working on Diary  I accidentally deleted the entire note, panicked started  to build up, started  connecting the website people Then found my original one still on the screen in the different window,  copied it but not the pictures it was a great relief that I didn't go for  writing  same script twice all over again . For pictures, next day taking the  bus went to Main st hub took more than 5 hours job to fix those pics for My Dairy again. 
2.   After 1 & half month On Dec 16- my 2nd trip to NY  at 12 noon,  I went out walking with my grocery cart  found my seat at the bus stop took bus 33 going to Wilmington DE, I was dropped at Wilmington train station, found the screened area where railway employees were checking their customers, I enquired about the time  & the train will take me to NY There was train 3 pm & went up to the railway lines waiting there  some passengers came. Train was on time  got in found a place to seat in the dining area, train started to move crossed Delaware then Philadelphia  as usual 30th st but there was no passengers to get down , entered NJ Newark liberty International airport, Penn station , Newark MJ, New Brunswick, Princeton.  township Somerdale , lendable vale, Elizabeth  & so on ... Finally reached NY at 7pm It was Penn station I started to move  looking for the subway found  one entrance  again got into the same jamming thing finally came out of their ticketing system, with my cart climbing up the stairs climbing down   was difficult with the cart, finally seated with 2 other south Indian girls . It took 35 minutes to reach Jackson heights, got down took a wrong turn walked passing 73rd st went opposite way  for another 25 minutes - it was a long walk .  Asked a car man he pointed that I was walking all the way to 92nd st  leaving behind 73rd street while going back I saw street vendors selling  hamburger which I used to see Spanish people selling in Miami & Mexican produces in the street , wine store, restaurants grocery stores, flowers,  all earthen decorative clay  pots & pan, getting into a big confectionary plus grocery  store,  bought some juice for the trip which was a relief,  walked further more found the Indian patty at 8 pm ; walked  & found a small hotel had my lunch plus dinner, took some cooked meat,  from another store took sweets for taking back home- that was all was my purchase . I came  out from the store window viewing  for a while I walked to the subway there I went up to the rail way station  -the train was waiting  got into the  train quickly , it was  crowded as usual. Train started to move to Manhattan on 34th st got down a Chinese told me I got down early I better stop walking, following her instruction I took the stairs going underground  sometimes taking the lift finally reach the railway tracks, got into the train which dropped me near in Manhattan 34th st, then walked for half an hour in the streets of Manhattan , the Christmas vibe was going on. Took some snaps from my cell phone, found railway station got inside  looking for septa, found some group of people gushing  into the train going New Jersey .Hurriedly I got myself in standing with a some people in the doorway with my cart  for 1 hour,  both the compartments on  both side were full. We were going Trenton after that we will  all got down in 30th street in Philadelphia with grand hall room, went to restroom checked the bulletin board , next train going  to Wilmington DE  after 10 minutes , I had to run for the train waiting there 5 minutes  with some other passengers got into the train which took me to DE  paid  train fair on the way, reached Wilmington railway station  at mid night. Got down a group of 4 all students started connecting with me they told me it was not wise to spend the night in the railway station when dart bus will come 7 in the morning, another option was sit in the railway station for the  next available train going for Newark DE station.  They called the uber  which took  20 minutes  to reach south gate  Paid  the fare.      

My 2nd trip to NY on 16 th Dec by Amtrak & came back by septa stopping at 30th st Philly next day.

On 24th Dec went out for grocery  waiting for bus 33 stand which  took me to Wilmington , on the way went  to the Christiana mall,  held up with road traffic accident, did some grocery looking at the crowd before Christmas eve, on the way did some  grocery from the store close to me & walked back home. Samir went to Hong Kong  then Bangkok for week long vacation that's the latest news!.  

2024 Jan- Miami trip after 20 yrs January 20th cold was not that much, we had snow for 2 days also temperature was didn't go down below zero degrees, Samir  was calling me from Seattle, Samir's dad  left for Kirkwood house, no news from him. Did grocery for the month of January. I broke my  cart  after when I went to ACME in the rain from the library it was completely out of place when I went to  Food lion the the wire was coming out & pricking my legs all the way to my apt  when I chose  to walk taking the stadium way.  It was quite an experience ! Went to Elkton  Walmart taking 46 Dart bus, which  dropped  me at Peoples plaza bus stop,  Cecilton bus showed up  little late taking me to Walmart. I had 1 hr with me,   rushed in to see for 2 items it was cloth dryer which was broken & I needed a new one,  the black cart & some under garments, Bought those items found the bus which dropped me to the same spot in Peoples plaza .Took the wrong bus 40 which was taking me to Bear. I told the bus driver to drop me anywhere on the way. The  2 items was getting heavy. Bus 40 which took me to Bear, dropped me & told me to cross the road , stand on the opposite side for bus 40 going back to Peoples plaza. carrying those 2 items to cross the intersection was too much,  found another bus stop on the other side  ride signed, carrying  heavy 2 items was big thing, , took the same bus 40 going  back  to peoples plaza, Bus 46  came going ogle town, got into the bus,  crossing Middletown it was  going opposite direction  for Dover bridge . I asked the bus driver I took the wrong bus , he told me he will drop me at the next stop where I should be taking the same bus 46 to going for People's plaza. Soon  the bus dropped  to similar bus stop in the car parking space , waiting period half an hour an isolated area some parked car but  saw no one , bus going to Peoples Plaza came on time. got in than bus 46 , saw few people, it stopped at people's plaza , picked few people then going straight to Delaware stadium & it dropped at in front south gate , came back  walking to my apartment with those heavy items . Next day the entire morning I fix cloth dryer & the new black cart.  The cart & the cloth hanger  was manually assembled was not an easy task .The next thing was - apartment Keys were missing  I was ok, but I lost my apartment keys , called the police, they didn't show up..  On April 28 Sunday  woke up at 7 am  hurriedly took shower, dressed up wearing my brown pant & blue top & white shirt on the top, took my ash & back coat soaks & blue leather shoe from main street, in the drizzling rain, holding the cart , in one small plastic bag took another pair of saddle shoes walked out exactly walked out to bus stop where the  I found office was closed & no one inside , walked to  the bridge went opposite side standing  next to the musicum there I saw a man with a video camera told me  I better go  Wilmington  to  take the right train going to Miami Florida which was my destination.  For half an hour looking for south bound train , one train came from south going north with great speed going north, it crossed  3 times  , crossed  the bridge again, saw  a young  & aged was standing there  waiting for Amtrak going North  to Wilmington,  train will come at 9:44 am , some students in the car came & joined  , Amtrak going north was on time got in the train , soon we were in Wilmington railway station , came down, saw another Amtrak train on the opposite track  going south, ran to catch the train got in found a seat it was going Baltimore.  It was not that much trouble reaching the destination & I had number of times  train journeys,  Once seated &  relaxed & window viewing not much there to see also. We stopped at Baltimore station , found similar  to Penn station in Philadelphia , went to bathroom took donuts   for breakfast sitting in wooden bench.  I asked for a point for  charging the cell phone, found one, as my hair was wet  comb my hair into  a pleat it will be fine for the rest of the day. waiting period was 2 hours.  at 1pm  bought ticket for Miami  at 2:11 pm  in January 28th ,  it was  207 $  going Miami FL,  came down  to railway tracks after they were showing the gate number in the screen . At 2 pm train came got coach seat, my cart was on the top it will take me to  Miami  FL . We were moving south one small stop at DC a  school  boy was seated next me got  down,  stop period was 15 minutes.  Found another seat with a window view, where I was comfortable,  train started to  move on from DC - to  north Carolina- south - Carolina-saw the big buildings  of Atlanta downtown- entered Florida ., train moved on to - Daytona beach-Orlando - Palm bay - Delray- Boca Raton- Fort Lauderdale- - Hollywood ( one of Samir's dad's cousin's place, family works at Dhaka bazaar bazaar  ) last station was Miami Florida .  Further south was  Hialeah , Flagler street - fountain blue where I spent 2 years 1998 & 1999)  In-laws were some in south Miami Miami still living , brother in  laws family  Kendall  & in Palm Bay,  sister in in Gainesville. Spent the night in the train ; in the morning small  cake  & one apple pie at lunch time . A boy like Samir  he was friendly ,  talking  to me he was  going Florida , soon he  got down in Jacksonville in the at 9 am his family came to pick him up.  Rest of the time train was moving south.  Samir called  told him I was going Miami. At almost 7 pm in the evening we've  reached  Miami got the cart  found Miami  railway station, not so big but better then  last time  I came in 2000. came out  saw Miami after 20 years . it was evening , a bus  was waiting  for passengers soon started to  move. Passengers  found their way out clearing the rail station. Some black employee got engaged mopping the floor cleaning the bathroom , winding machine was out of order people are getting less , the train  which brought me to Miami will be leaving at midnight . I asked some in the counter - a   young black women she told one train will  at 8 am tomorrow  - $200 another train in 11 am $160 . Station opens at 7am, Indian cab driver came asking me about my situation . I told him about masjid  called once no one picked the phone. They said they could arrange something for me  in Dhaka bazaar  which was owned by in-laws I didn't want to take any favor from them . After a while the cab driver left. I called the police ,after  several  attempt  2 young  police officers  showed up. After showing my  current Delaware Driving license  & previous  Miami ID  telling I  was in Miami for 2 years in 1998, 1999 before I moved to Maryland. They took Samir's  phone number in Seattle &  arrange Holiday inn for night stay. I don't have any choice but to act accordingly. They called a taxi cab , black lady was driving she took me to Holiday inn 10 minutes drive hotel was  was not available , Samir was in charge of the situation, found another same hotel  20 minute s drive near Miami intel airport , this time Spanish  girl was driving  the cab ,took checker fries for dinner on the way. Taxi took me to another Holiday near Miami airport 20 minutes drive . Hotel was open. I was checked in  for the room  it was in the ground floor a room with no view but  2 big beds I used  one, took  great shower  than had a cup of coffee from coffee maker which was not working properly took my fries & rest of my  awful chicken from checkers , went  to sleep for 2 hours only , disturbed , got out before at 6 am  dressed  as usual, arrange the bed , throw trash in bin,  watched TV for a while , exactly at 7 got out of the room went to see the checking counter the guy was there, checked the breakfast menu one donut & a one  glass of water took some snaps  inquire about the  time to leave for the airport will 8 am he said at 8 am  there will be shutter service  taking me to airport . At 9 am   got into the  hotel van  which  drove me to the airport 20 minute , walked in from the departure lounge,  looked for  the frontier airlines found.it , no one  in the counters , they  were empty , some passengers were waiting in the bowl chair , walked some more saw different kind of stores , Disney world , café , shoes people are crowded buying - I didn't buy anything this time,    found  one store for ladies wear , picked one throw which  fitted but double price- bought it. Came back to sitting area it was 1 pm. checked the screen on  wall.  the ph  frontier  airlines, on 30th January 2024 ,flight confirmation , at 4:55 arrives.  another 5 hours , going to Philadelphia airport lands at  7: 51 more info in the screen counter # gate #flight will be showing  2 hrs. before check in.  Bought a cold drink & apple pie. was my lunch . At 5pm lined up soon checking in showing my itenary- all Samir's credit I was sent to the departure lounge with other on- board passengers . There  were another  group of people  were sitting , waited there. People started to line up for custom checking.  For 1 hr we lined up, went through custom checking my hand bag one plastic bag with extra pair of sandal in the cart , can't take any food item I  had to hand over the drink which was much needed for me when the plane  was providing food expensive.  In the plane air hostess took my cart  couldn't take it , it will be in the big  luggage area  down under the plane.  I was seated  in the middle  between  2 male female passengers , plane was crowded  with passengers, the talk & children moving was making the environment worm. after 2 & half an hour my  plane journey ended - the  plane landed  in Philly airport on time. I got out looking for my  luggage, found frontier airlines baggage  area coming out of the rotating machine one after another. I waited for more than 2 hours  but cart was not showing, A asked airport employee sitting in the glass fitted office  , after several attempt of inquiry  I saw my cart coming out  from that machine.  I started looking for the rest room also got one drink  from the machine. Samir called  asking me  about my going back to south gate , he was  arranging  hoover  but I came out from wrong side  where it was only for the passengers the cab . taxi was on the other side of the airport, Got out  on   the other side of airport where  hoovers  ubar , shuttle , bus taxi cab - all rented vehicles were lining up .A taxi driver  who waiting  in the line  volunteered   told me  he could take me to Newark DE. Samir was still on the phone  even he was  on the radio inside the taxi. One time his sound was so loud  enough to ensure me there was no need to worry - the cab will be take to my destination . I was not that much confident about taxi's I preferred  female driver for this ride.  I was looking for Samir one it was no there . I  agreed with taxi, it was going for Newark DE he took  other way Clamant which was scary & dark no jam   crossing port Wilmington but Wilmington which was my choice jammed  with all kind of vehicles' police patrolling all the time   I proffered that route.  I drove on moderate speed ensuring me I will be right at my destination .  Samir was on the phone constantly talking , it took more than  1 hr & half  he got down in 896, he dropped  me to  south gate apartments  & left Keys were not with  using the code number I got in  from the back door , Samir knows the ubar in back door finally i was in my apartment found my keys in the sweater pocket . Now after 2 days in the apartment I am getting used to my  environment. had some food in the fridge - My Miami trip ended. After coming back from Miami FL  busy making reels on FB , went to the library for uploading Miami pics for my diary

After when I found myself I am on the wrong side of the airport looking for the cab driver, someone told me to go to the other side where all cabs are, also buses , public transport will be available; normal side was for private cars . Took the courage to go the other side found one taxi cab , it was Indian or paki driver but later  the cab  driver said he was Spanish; I hurriedly got in I was already late for  going back to my place .I took the cart, my hand bag & got into the cab ,  called my son  he was in the cab  drivers speaker I was hearing his voice sitting behind . The cab driver started moving  his cab leaving behind Philadelphia airport   I told him  I am going Newark &  he will  have to cross Wilmington taking l95 south,  Christiana Mall  will be on the way right side then he will take 896 exit which was the last exit before Delaware & Maryland  border. Then my address  was easy to find ,my cell phone was  charged in my hand working - it fell  on the mat down inside , quickly I picked it up I was holding  the cart tightly to get out of the fear that I was alone & it was getting dark . I saw 95 south was congested as usual  after a while I was getting relaxed , hoping I  will be soon  reaching South Gate & every thing will be fine . Suddenly I found the cab driver  changing his driving direction going towards port of Wilmington  heading north  & soon sign for Delaware  memorial bridge  will be showing . I screamed at the cab driver where are you  going , you should be going south , I called the police 911 , quickly lady police  picked up the phone told her I hired the cab but he was taking  me to wrong direction  to NJ …. I told  her everything ; the cab driver made u  Turn quickly , now moving to the south , he lowered his speed . I saw one police car but he was avoiding me  moving in the different direction. I repeatedly told him take 95 south which will  make me comfortable , driver didn’t listen &  kept repeating it was heavy rush & port of Wilmington  route was quite. I know this way , several times Samir’s dad took me  with him for going New York. That  day  it was  pitch dark ,  Cab driver was driving slowly  now in a constant motion . I told  him drop me on the road side & I will find my way to home , even though it was the craziest idea I wanted to get out of the car & the peculiar  situation which was created but he continued  to drive his way;  one time I wanted to open the window, he cab driver  stopped the car , came out,  rolled the window up , locked it . It took around 1 hour to reach near the toll between MD & DE , finally  he drove down at 896 going straight I was  still scared , saw those gas stations which was once so familiar  now I was like scared crow screaming all the way to end . Samir was talking on the phone assuring me it was ok now , cab driver also assuring me soon it will be over. We came  between the intersection between 896 &  route 4 , he  turned at South Gate apt complex  & stopped at the sign board , my  still shudder continued . He opened the door for me then he walked past the garden probably he  wanted the  apartment complex phone number on the sign board ; for the first time I saw his  face of the driver clearly  it was different  person little more fair who looked like the person  who was sitting next to me  on the plane  but he was short , may be 5’6”. I was panicking all the time . I took the cart & my hand bag walked  out the usual walk way it  was 11 o’clock at night I had no keys  I knocked at the door , there was no sound . I started  to walk towards the  trash bin , I knocked at the apartment window , all were quiet or sleeping . I  could hardly talk, my mouth  dry was choking & because  I was panicked , then Samir called me he was  normal, I walked passed the door to check the cab , he was at the intersection , Samir told me the code number  to get in, I found my  to the apartment, it was my hyper sensitive  mind which was making me shudder , I locked the door blocked it with a chair , found my  apt keys,  then I found some left over  food in  the fridge , ate that’s t because I was hungry I didn’t care it was 3 days old,  it was my cooking  &  took shower. My son was quiet when I called I told him I am ok now . I slept quickly because of 2 day’s journey from Wilmington to Miami then flew back to my place . Next day I woke up  late , it was  not my nightmare but it was all true. February  On 15th  I went to Wilmington  taking bus 33, bus crossed the point where I  was suppose to  get down for ShopRite , Christiana hospital  then mall . Finally  bus dropped me at one corner near Rodney square in Wilmington,  construction was going on ar 33 bus stop. Looking for the next bus which will take me back will be  half an hour wait.  I walked  for few  minutes  for another  bus 33 stop,  a black guy came up,   told me  I better stand on the opposite side of the road .  While crossing the road I fell  I broke my red frame eye glass into 2 pieces, that  made me extremely sad  I didn't have any extra pair in my hand bag & without glasses it was very difficult to move. Police car crossed me , people were crossing behaving odd- didn't talk . Black guy went inside the library came back with new bus route . Called the police, thankfully my cell ph was charged. They told me to stop at next  at bus stop  for # 6, that will take me back. I  walked few blocks found next bus stop 6 , cold was not too much,  standing there for almost an hour,  few people started to come,  got into bus which took us to the internal road in Kirkwood, came back to Newark hub . Found eye  center the counter lady didn't help other one asking  more money , walked out.  Bought the glue I  could  fix the problem myself, it took sometime but fixed it  but there was glue stain  on one side which was hard to remove blocking my vision , also spoke  to Walmart vision  center  I might look for another pair when I came back to the apt . Took the bus  33, went to shop rite  for some grocery from ShopRite one chicken from the paki store , & carbonated apple cider from the next store,  next day eating cooked chicken - it was a war ! After talking to Samir I agreed I should not be going to frequently for grocery . Working on reels  on FB , made quite a number of them I don't where I stand now.  On March 23rd After risking my life which became too frequent I spoke to Samir & agreed I could have  van delivery grocery at my doorstep.  I spoke to ShopRite employee to deliver those &  a female delivery person  knocked at my door & I received 2 huge cartoon boxes  with number of items with a bill which  was too much for me. Some of them I kept for Samir. On March 25th  Farmer market I took the bus for to return those meat items on the way  did  some grocery. I told  Samir to come home  & we  will move to full furnished better house which I already chose  & leave south gate . March 12 after on 12th day I went out for grocery. April  4th grocery from food lion, Ramadan was going on, connecting Samir on the phone , after week long rain  Eid ul fitr  was on 10th on Bob carpenter center, called the masjid to verify , spoke to Samir,  Masjid didn't even bother to tell  me program was cancelled, avoiding people was their way to overlook people like who may be sponsoring all great events in the masjid all from the beginning,  same day went to Walmart took the dart bus went to peoples plaza took Cecilton bus to Elkton Walmart making a big round in Main street  came back before dark bought the mauve color jeans pant . April 27th went to ShopRite , took gyro from Istanbul grill , ShopRite & food lion for grocery , May 9th Samir came from Seattle in the morning , he went out with his friends in Main street , next day went to lasani for chicken , bought some goats bones, shrimps & some verges cooked that for Samir ,goat bones was not great, thrown away, 2 & a half days was Samir was with mama, he took the flight from Philly airport to Seattle. Life went on with me with out Samir again working web site & watching tv & a sad feeling came to me, needed my son next to me when Seattle part will be over. 30th May took the bus for grocery went to ShopRite came back by bus , Samir dad is staying for the past couple of days in the apt . He gained weight but still sick , Samir will coming on 16th of June for Eid ul Adha , sewing my fabric coat with cotton lining again  , weather got hot again . No one was calling me only Facebook I get Bangladeshi news 3 times grocery 4 $ bus ride , rest of the days watching YouTube on TV, working on my website , missing Samir all the time. May 8th Grocery from ACME & halal meat  from Lasani. Samir, making reel for Samir. June 7th Samir's dad came to the south gate apt he spent 17th days, Samir was in his London Paris tour,  he spent 12 days in south gate he was still sick with tremor , messy , disorganized , talkative, his mood swings high & law,  needed assistance 24 hrs,  food was sent from the store, once some grocery came he was making Samir's room dirty as well as dining & living room,  finally I called the police asking for the ambulance on 15th . On June 14th Friday, 7  people including police came, took him in wheelchair to  Christiana hospital emergency, next day ambulance brought him back t To his Kirkwood house. Eid ul Adha on 16th June .16 June was Eid ul Adha , celebrated .  Based on mother's status for Samir's birth issue  on June 16th Sunday went for prescription eyeglasses to Elkton Walmart. Simon eyeglasses employee was going extreme the way I fixed my  eyeglasses glueing the breaking point with crazy glue. their funky business was becoming harmful all the time. Until now they vanished my glasses for more 1 hr when I washed my glasses near the kitchen  sink also from bed . At 9am took bus 46 which took me to Peoples plaza where I waited for cecilton bus, after awhile, a new big bus from Elkton ( like dart bus) came  took me to UD stadium , than Main street hub, found his way to Elkton making a long round to Elkton library , police station -Union hospital then dropped me at Walmart, got down  with my cart went straight to vision center where I picked 2  pair of glasses which looked similar to my choice but not the right one, the staff told me I should have my eyes checked , I  saw the eyes doctor inside , I told the stuff my prescription was in their  computer system, also told them I had pregnancy with Samir , I should not have any problem with  getting a new glasses when I knew my eyeglass was intentionally broken  they found  my previous prescription in the computer system , then they told me to go to Union hospital get your hospital ID then they will  try to help, I took the bus which took me to all the way to DE similar round again came back to union hospital , went inside spoke to the reception desk finally after checking the other hospital building they gave me some papers that  once I was here in 2001 for Samir birth issue, gave me a wrist band i e. the hospital ID & some papers from the hospital. . I took the bus & went back to Newark DE for that day. Next day on June 17th Monday took 46 bus same way went  to peoples plaza Cecilton bus  came little late this time- the small bus  which made  similar round finally dropped me to Elkton Walmart, I did some grocery for the month , then went to vision center, they were boycotting me again, denied to talk, I showed the hospital papers & wrist band  but they refuses to talk , came out from the vision center called the police , police came little late, they told me you have to get health insurance & get your eye checked & get the prescription then buy the glasses, after some verbal disagreement finally I came out empty handed, also found some Bengali people were  bribing  their way to success so that I don't get free service nu they completely denied my mom's privileges. I was extremely upset  & annoyed my 2nd day at Walmart  ended this way , still couldn't get my glasses even I said I am willing to pay  the eyeglasses. l took  the small bus, it was hard to get in , on the way it stopped  at ID building, office hours  was up -closing time, then the bus  took the same way stopping at people's plaza , finally came back to south gate  empty handed with some more rotten grocery. On 28th June took 33 bus to Wilmington, looking for the bus ticket in the garage waiting there but forgetting about the tickets to buy then took bus 6 went to Farmer market, came back to Newark hub again bus 33 brought me back to South gate. 4th of July 2024.  On July 7th 2024 went again for grocery to main street as early as 8 in the morning bus came quick dropped me at newark hub, walked to the store did some shopping walked to MacDonald's  had one lemon drink, walked back to the library it will open at 1 pm , walked to ACME did some grocery again went o library worked on my website the went to again to same store did some bazaar took the blood came to apt  stuck in library because. On July 14th after the fire works  found the white car keys in the living room which with Samir's dad keys, went out found the Kya Ronda,  with the kyes opened the door there was little over quarter tank gas , started driving  found 896 N   drove  all the way to summit bridge after 2 &  half years & so many 16 bus rides for grocery ( 90 rides )  I was spellbound  driving again giving me the same kind of freedom I used to get ,also thinking about what if  the car stops in the middle of the jammed  road  but I didn't care, went farther east found the usual store it was closed then nearest Walmart did some grocery  drove back,  in the middle checked the Middletown house, found it was as used to be, then  found my way to south gate brought back the grocery to the apt & parked the car in the parking space so I could check my car  from the window. On 17th At 4 pm I found my white Kya Ronda which was parked near the drum star was stolen from the parking space. Next day at 8 in the morning I dressed up & went  to the rent office , knocking at the door rent lady was sitting in her room I told her what had happened  to my car, she turned on her computer & showed me what hidden camera captured  yesterday 2:30 pm; the entire stolen activity was there in the computer, a men drove small car which I saw also parked next , another men came out from the background, took the white Kya Ronda out from the parking space drove all the way, crossing the rent office following the 1st car. He may be any resident closest to the  parking space, my guess was he was renting the car to the Indians for the day all the time & counting money. They were careful whenever I go out  for the grocery I usually check the car from outside as because I didn't get the keys from the people who brought the car from Virginia,  they didn't hand me the keys to me .It was Newark police who did the courageous job bringing car the back to it's place. My stuffs were not inside  but I found a small note sticking on the wheel telling me to connect the Simon eye vision center in Main street. I  walked out with police he came & saw Samir 's dad status. Samir's TX uncle came next day took Samir's dad to his Kirkwood house. July 21 2024 took the bus went to police station waited then the Spanish police came & told me the white kya Ronda was registered on Samir's dad's name so car goes to him . I walked out it was too much heat & went to Main street cold drink in the way  went to the store for some food it was too much heat did some grocery from ACME & by bus 33 came back to the apartment. On July 27th I did grocery at ACME then on 29th July walked to Food Lion for more grocery , July 5th after talking to wix went the local Bank it was close,  came back making reels for Facebook putting the AC on I don't have anything accept waiting for my son to come back . August did grocery_{August 13, Tuesday evening there was a fire in the 3rd floor on the front side of the building 18 , it was 10 in the morning  when  I was watching TV in living room , front door was closed , suddenly  gush of  smoke    started coming through the from the heater vent , fire alarm  was on , somebody from  the fire department  was shouting- get out as quick as possible . I took only my handbag & change my dress & came out  quickly . I  walked all the way to the other side & saw   a big fire on the 3rd  floor attic that I videoed it.  Altogether 8  the fire ambulances  lined up with a huge  hose pipe  spraying on the fire , dozens of firemen was working , standing outside people from the apartment  complex witnessing the event.  I saw police car started to come some must’ve informed them . I asked one of the residents who came out of their apartment  what happened she was ignorant just like me. I walked to the rent office , there was bunch people standing maybe curious what was going on . I asked if could charge my cell phone, she showed me the model house , a Filipino family came in got the possession of the 1 bedroom apartment . I  started to connect Samir , found him told out building 18 was on fire  ( only) , As I was coming back to my apartment one of  Samir 's friend came ,took me to the hotel next , booked a room for 3 nights  hotel charges were paid for 3 days 13/14/15 August. I spent the night at hotel , next day morning I saw rubble the entire  attic was blown out , all night fire service was throwing water to stop the fire. I didn't know till now what went wrong that ignited the fire that much .   Rent office lady told me take your stuff as much as you can because all the apartments in building will be condemned . Samir was talking  with me all the time. They let me go inside , the rescue lady was yelling bat me take your stuff out , the entire building will locked until the police will allow the residence  to reside . I didn't know how much I could take , there are some stuff for Samir's dad , some Samir's rest mine. I took my grocery cart inside a bag another set of cloths & my hand bag came out .  I took my grocery cart inside a bag another set of cloths & my hand bag came out . Next day Wednesday , they didn't let us no one inside , the roof & the attic was broken .  13/14/15 -3  nights in the hotel ended , I was out . My son arranged another motel cheap but I took my big suitcase& the cart & walked 35 minutes in 896 north just before the exit to 95 north found the hotel  , paid the hotel charges 118$ . I spent the night undisturbed, in the morning took my luggage again walked back to South Gate apartments. I found a chair in front of apartment which I took from the swimming pool set afternoon & evening , nothing was going on the roof breaking windows no one came to work ,it was raining then I was friendly with pool girl I sat there for awhile , she left early, I came out found the  same hotel to spend the night it was next to the apartment complex  but they were denying all the time , I am little scared of motels  stay in they his situation! Next day  17 th August , they didn't let no one inside , the roof & the attic was broken . 3  nights in the hotel ended , I was out . My son arranged another motel cheap but I took my big suitcase&  the cart & walked 35 minutes in 896 north just before the exit to 95 north found the hotel I spent the night undisturbed, in the morning took my luggage again walked back to South Gate apartments. I found a chair in front of apartment which I took from the swimming pool set afternoon & evening , nothing was going on the roof breaking windows no one came to work ,it was raining then I was friendly with pool girl I sat there for awhile , she left early, I came out found the  same hotel to spend the night it was next to the apartment complex  but they were denying all the time , I am little scared of motels in this situation! Before I left the motel there was something  going  wrong & two police car going to motel's direction . I am still waiting for room to spent the night Then I called the police , told them I want my stuff I can be place in a shelter until some decision was made , with 3 police car , police came , It was getting dark . I told them I was connecting with Red Cross from the army & fire marshal's but they never showed up . Much active with my personal problem  then they called IR where there car dropped for my heath , they found my  blood pressure was high 20 th August , I spent the night along with other pt , then in morning they were evaluating my status though I should me better sent to my country which will be worse thing to do ,the reason I came out of the country I will be in the same or worse situation back again . in the afternoon they gave  me coffee & I was dropped to the same motel where I heard 2 Bidi  was killed  . I started to walk to Baymont  took hotel . On 21 August I went again sitting on the stairs in front of the rent office writing my dairy , the lady from 3rd walked down told me they are going to knockdown the building  soon that's the latest news for today Aron is the guy will help with my stuff taking out from the apartment . 23 rd was Samir's birthday. Next day when I  went to South Gate rent office those guys never showed up . The rent lady allowed me to take my stuff  from the apartment, those  men working in the situation brought 8 bags along with my cart & blue suitcase . I went to Goodrich found a truck rent that for $ 50 to take stuff to Baymont hotel . There I need to stay for another 9 days as because Samir will coming from Seattle  to DE on 1st of September .}LikeCommentYour video is partially muted due to a copyright matchOnly you can see this